The Suit You’re In

Posted by kiki on April 23rd, 2013 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

If I’m not mistaken I am the same weight that I typed two years ago. I wouldn’t know for sure because I seldom keep up with that anymore. I doubt I have any “friends” left on here and my weight loss blog has turned into something else.

These days I find myself not stressing over a weight, dress, or pants size. These days I stress about something else: Money. Time. Neither are things I can control however, my pea body brain will have me to think otherwise. I worry about stuff like my marriage, my happiness, my future.

What I’ve learned is this body suit that we wear is not what defines us. It’s not who we are. It’s a damn suit. A suit can come on and off. A suit can be clean or dirty. In this human suit case (not to be confused with “suitcase” it can expand and shrink. What is the point of stressing over the suit you’re in? What’s the point in stressing over it if you don’t plan to change anything about it?

Whose idea was it to record the food you put into your mouth? To log the glasses of water you drink? To time the amount of pushups you completed? Whose ideas are these? Are they yours? Who came up with this word: DIET? Who the f*ck said it was okay to stress out because you had a slice of cheesecake? I don’t know whose ideas these are. But to them I say: TO EACH HIS OWN.

While my suit may be alittle wrinkled and worn, jiggly and stretched to some degree (mainly the enormous job of birthing a 9lb + baby 3 years ago. SO F*CKING WHAT. It’s my damn suit. If you don’t like it, don’t look at it. Don’t touch it. Don’t ask about it. Don’t worry yourself about it. It’s my suit and you have your own. I don’t care what season is coming deprivation is not a word that gets used in my vocabulary, because GUESS WHAT? When YOU are gone from your suit, when you leave this place called earth, and your soul goes back to the beautiful star dust from which it came, your suit will be laid here to rest or even consumed with flickering flames, grinding your suit into gray ashes which will be poured into a vase of some sort.

My message is: get on with your life. Get over dieting. Embrace your suit or don’t. Nobody really cares. I never said abuse your suit. When you overeat you are in fact doing just that. You know if you are guilty of using food as a drug. You know the high you get from finishing a BOX of Krispy Kremes. It’s the same high a person gets when they get a nicotine rush from that dirty gray smoke. It’s the same high a crackhead gets when they smoke that crack pipe. You can eat whateverthefuckyouwant, you don’t have to abuse yourself at every meal though. If you are doing that, surely you owe it to yourself to DIG DEEPER and discover what your underlying issues are.


What to Write…

Posted by kiki on July 29th, 2011 |Filed Under Just Venting... | Leave a Comment

Hello All and happy summer to you. As of today I have eaten my way back up to 190 pounds. I am in a size 14 and pretty much devastated. However no matter how long it takes I refuse to give up on myself (totally). So yes I have taken a break and life continues to happen with or without notice. But now I’ve seen some of the constant mistakes I make and no diet is going to fix my behavior. I must go ahead and face the facts that it’s something deeper that goes on in my brain. Prayerfully with God’s help I will figure things out. Tomorrow I have a 9am Zumba class, I’m looking forward to that because I haven’t had a good workout in 3 weeks.

Wish me well, and I hope all of you are doing wonderful.

All the best,


On a Personal Note

Posted by kiki on April 16th, 2011 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

It is becoming more and more clear to me that I am indeed a writer. Sometimes I do not wish to accept this gift that has been given to me from the Most High, in fact I often times take it for granted. However it really has been pressing on my heart as of lately that I was put here to write. In life sometimes (perhaps most times) it is so easy to get side tracked and become boggled down with the norm. The normal day to day routine. Falling into the pit of “reality.” What is that reality you ask? It’s the regular nine to five job, wake up, take care of home, go to work, diet, exercise, eat, sleep, and wake up and do it all over again.

We were all put here for a specific reason and I encourage you to find out what your reason for existence is. Don’t be afraid to bring your own dreams to fruition. Don’t be afraid of that fear of the unknown. Behind the unknown closed doors lies a life that is destined for you. Don’t be afraid to question and explore what that life is. It’s never to late to dream your dream and then take steps to make it happen. As someone wise once said, it’s better late than never.

Have a wonderful weekend!

With love & gratitude,


PAUSE…and then…Just Say No!

Posted by kiki on April 13th, 2011 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

I decided to do the Slim Fast 3-2-1 plan after all, despite my husband telling me it’s a bad idea. (I am just hard headed by nature). The shakes aren’t that great tasting. I’ve also stopped the Insanity program since I injured myself pretty badly. I may pick it up again when I’m down 2 dress sizes. For now I am focusing on walking/jogging/and the Lotte Berk Method. I’m continuing my exercise regimen of working out 5x a week, sometimes 6 if I can get it in on Saturdays. Overall I feel pretty good.

Today I wrestled witht he idea of getting a pizza from Dominos for lunch. This is wrong on so many levels. I think I sat here for 20 minutes staring up at the ceiling and weighing my options. What toppings should I get, how many calories would that be. What time should I go “work it off,” how many steps back would I be taking, is this going to put me closer or push me further away from 180, how long do I want to stay in the 180s bracket, what about the polka dot dress hanging up, why does seeing Carrie Bradshaw, Samantha Jones, Charlotte, and Miranda put me in such a positive mood? Could it be the fashion, the petite body frames, etc? Yep, all of those questions were going through my mind. So I ended up grabbing a Slim Fast shake for lunch.

When in doubt, PAUSE for a moment, weigh your options out, and then if the decision you were about to make is going to sabatoge your weight loss efforts, JUST SAY NO! Remember all the hard work you put in. Keep pressing forward, eventually you will be at the half way point. Keep up the fantastic work, it will be worth it, in the end! After all, we can’t and shouldn’t stay in this yo-yo weight loss cycle forever.

With love,


The Weekend Pass

Posted by kiki on April 10th, 2011 |Filed Under Just Venting... | Leave a Comment

Every freaking weekend this happens when I start a new “fitness plan.” The plan, the goals, and all commonfreakingsense gets thrown out the damn window and I go on a full out eating  binge! I’m so sick of it. There has to be something else I can do. There must be a way for me to be held accountable. After all, no one is getting hurt from this except for me.

I’m going to really think about this and let it sink in for a while. Who knows how much weight I’ve gained just from the pizza alone. SMH.

In regards to the Slim Fast 3-2-1 plan, I’ve decided to do it, starting tomorrow. I have 30 more pounds to lose and I refuse to be fat this summer. I just can’t do it.


Posted by kiki on April 8th, 2011 |Filed Under Just Venting... | Leave a Comment

Finished my Insanity workout about an hour ago. Feel so much better and lighter. Just ate a serving of oatmeal. Feeling pretty inspired and thinking about my weight loss goals for the spring. I really am contemplating doing the 3-2-1 Meal plan offered by Slim Fast. However, my husband is totally against it. (You see, I have a long history of this up and down diet crap and frankly he’s sick of it.)

My dilemna is do I try the plan for 2 weeks or not? I always feel that if you are going to buss your ass working out 6x a week, you might as well eat right so you can lose more weight. It’s defintely “insanity” sweating your butt off with intense workouts and then ruining the results by what you’re eating.

With the Slim Fast 3-2-1 plan I will be practiting portion control. I actually like the idea of eating 5 small meals a day, and I’ve read about the success others have had on the plan. My husband thinks it’s a total waste of money and I’d be better off going to the grocery store. But then I have to ask myself, am I doing this whole weight loss thing for him or for me. Then again I have to put myself in his shoes and understand how he feels about all of this back and forth up and down dieting rollercoaster I have been on for so many years. At the same time, it’s not like I just quit on myself. This is still “after baby weight” I am trying to get rid of. I was in a 10/12 when I was just a few weeks pregnant with my daughter. Hence, that is the size I want to get back to.

Despite his ill feelings toward my dieting habits, I wish he’d understand my whole reasoning behind this to begin with. Is it too much to ask of myself to be my prepregnancy weight? The answer is NO. The weight is not going to magically fall off. What is so wrong with wanting to speed up the process? Please feel free to comment.


– Kiki

Insanity Update

Posted by kiki on April 8th, 2011 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

Good Morning, as you can imagine if you have seen the infomercial by now (for the Insanity workout) it is literally kicking my ass. I am so winded and have to stop and take a break to catch my breath during every workout I have done so far.

Today is Day 5 on the program. My thighs hurt, my back hurts, my shoulders and arms feel like they are going to give way and break off. By the end of each workout I am drowning in a pool of sweat. For whatever reason I feel compelled to continue with the workouts anyway. The more I think about it, a 60 day commitment to something is really not that bad. Even if I shed just 20 pounds, that’s not a bad place to be two months from now.

Sometimes you have to stop and weigh all of your options. Sometimes you have to ask yourself what can you do differently this time that will help you reach your goal. I figure if I stick to working out at this pace 6x a week for two months I absolutely will have to shed some of this excess weight off. It will also inspire me to work out on a regular basis again.

Like I always tell you, just keep trying. This program isn’t for the faint of heart, but find something you can do that will get your heart rate up and make you feel good. Try a class, or a dvd, boxing, yoga, Zumba, just do something. It’s spring time and we all should be getting ready for summer.

Have a great weekend and keep up the fantastic work! Your body will thank you and you will be so proud of yourself!

– Kiki

Insanity Workout – Part Deux

Posted by kiki on April 5th, 2011 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

Last year I blogged about this crazy workout offered from called “Insanity” If you’ve never seen the infomercial check it out on youtube. Insanity is a 60 day workout program that is guranteed to change your body and give you fabulous results within a two month period. All that is required on your part is to pop in the dvd and sweat your ass off 6x a week for 60 days. The other requirement is for you to eat healthy. Sounds simple, right? If you can recall in my post last year I tried the “fitness test” of Insanity and reported to you that this program is not for out of shape people, so I was saving it for the right time to do the program.

Which brings me to my point. Now is the right time for me. I am down to 185lbs and today is April 5th. You know what that means right? Spring is here. If you need any motivation whatsoever to move your bum and get in shape, SPRING is here. Hot weather is sure to follow, and hence in a few months it will be summer. If you are still looking for motivation, just don’t look every now and then. Find something to motivate you everyday. On my bedroom door hangs a size 10 black and white polka dot dress with a red patent leather belt that I am dying to wear by the end of May.

Here are my top three tips to get your motivated:

1.) Find a piece of clothing or a swimsuit or your old pair of favorite jeans, and hang it on the door so you can look it everyday! That dress is staring me down first thing in the morning and when I shut the light off at night. If you see it you can visualize yourself in it. Plus it holds you accountable. It makes you pause for a moment if you’re contemplating doing something foolish (like eating a whole pizza!).

2.) Track your food if at all possible. I know it sounds hopelessly stupid, but it really does keep you accountable about what you’re putting in your mouth. We pretty much all have smart phones these days, try the weight watchers app, or the LoseIt app. If you don’t have a smart phone you can go here: (Speaking from experience using this app, it really does work! – when I use it!) If you don’t have computer access to track your food, there’s always the old pen and pad routine. Carry a small journal with you and track your food.

3.) It’s spring – get off your ass and go workout. It’s that simple. Consistency is key. Even if you did eat the whole pizza, if you are working out consistently each week – I’m talking 4-5 times a week, you are still going to lose weight. You need to move, and move often. Yes workouts can get boring, so switch your routine up if you have to. Otherwise try and commit to a workout program if at all possible. offers several workout dvds and you should be able to find something you like. I use all of their products because they really do work.

So that’s my 13 cents for today. Sorry I have been away for so long but a host of things are going on in my personal life. If that’s the case with you, don’t let your weight be just one more issue you have to deal with. It’s spring. Quit your moaning and complaining and go out and get some fresh air. If you start a weight loss program today, you can still lose 20 lbs by the time summer gets here. (June).

What are you waiting for? Stop reading and go change into your workout gear!

With love,


P. S. I am on Day 2 of Insanity. 58 days left to go! WHOO!

Here I Go (Again)

Posted by kiki on January 24th, 2011 |Filed Under Just Venting... | Leave a Comment

Is this my first post since the new year? I can’t remember. If it is hello and happy new year to all my readers. 2011 is a year of change and growth. I know it. In an attempt to help with my weight loss goals I have started shopping for smaller clothes early. I feel silly when I get a box from UPS, I open it, and I can’t fit it, but I refuse to buy my current size.

If you can remember when I came back to this blog, I had a new daughter. She will be 1 next month! Man, the time has seriously flown by. As for me I was a size 18 in April, I am now down to a 14. Today starts the 1st Day of Induction for me (yes I didn’t see it through in September) but I am focused and really ready now. So I’m down to 189 and I’ll post my weight next Monday morning to keep myself accountable. I haven’t decided yet if I want to post every day for the next 14 days to let you know how the Atkins lifestyle (of Induction) is going, but I will think about it.

As for you (my dear reader) keep pressing on and fighting the good fight. Don’t label yourself a Loser or a Quiter. Remember that it’s not how slow you run the race, but rather that you continue to keep running. Eventually you will have your breakthrough and you will get to where you want to be. I am living proof 🙂

With love,


Weight Loss Advice from the “Stars”

Posted by kiki on January 6th, 2011 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

Yesterday I was in the grocery store and couldn’t help but notice at least 3 different magazines talking about diets and weight loss concerning celebrities. (What worked for them). Finally I decided to buy a copy (really for the photos). Inside it lists most of the same stuff we’ve heard over and over and over and over and over (you get my point). Here are the take-a-ways I got from the so-called stars:

They eat often

They use a food journal

The eat lean meats like fish and grilled chicken

They stay away from carbs and dairy (most of the time)

They find different ways to cheat when it comes to sweets (for example a piece of the pie but not the whole slice.)

They exercise often and like to mix up their workouts

They snack frequently on healthy things like almonds & grapes

They practice portion control

See…I told you you’ve heard all of this more than once. As for me and my current weight loss fiasco…I am on day 4 of my 21 day fast. It consists of “no meats, no sweets, & no television/radio.” It is an attempt to help me tackle my food addiction as well as draw closer to God. It’s more spirtual than anything and thus far is teaching me that I do have self control and I can get a hold over my life. Weight loss is a side effect. I have also been working out overall I feel pretty good. If you’re wondering what I’m eating during this fast: Lots of fruit, veggies, water, and soups/salads. If this goes as planned and I stay on schedule I plan to do the Martha Vineyard’s Diet Detox on January 24th for 21 days. I am looking forward to cleaning out my system and really seeing results from all this “cleansing.” As always I will keep you all posted.

I hope the new year so far is going well for each and every one of you. Keep striving toward your goal. Consistency is key.

– Kiki out.


On a Personal Note…

Posted by kiki on January 3rd, 2011 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

It’s always hard doing something new. It is always difficult yet easy on Day 1. Start Date. New change. New beginning. Starting fresh. It’s all the same thing. There’s this fire to obtain something special or meet a goal. It feels so good yet it hurts a little too. You are probably making some sacrifices. You are no doubt thinking about what will happen if/when you fail. Voices are in your head and you can start to go mad. Perhaps one small thing sets you off and then you decide to blow your streak. You blow your goal. You throw up your hands. You give up and say you’ll start tomorrow. You convince yourself that maybe this wasn’t for you anyway. Maybe you really don’t need to change after all. YOU QUIT.


That is not how I plan to live my life this year. No one could be more excited than I am about seeing new changes and carrying through on what I say. It means dedication and commitment. It means consequences like not being rewarded with a $1500 watch. (Hey, you gotta think big or stay home. – The rewarding myself with food days are OVER.)  You have to literally imagine yourself smaller. Firmer. Toned. Sexy. Beautiful. Confident. The list can be as long as you like. I am not taking my old thoughts into a new year. I promised myself that I can do it. And I will do it.


I no longer think about the stuff I don’t like about myself. I now focus on being happy and staying “in the now.” I picture myself shopping for clothes with a size 8 tag on the inside. I imagine walking down the street with an oversized pair of shades on, white skinny jeans and 3 inch stilettos…my hips swaying in all their glory. I refuse to miss another white party, pool party, or cookout this coming summer. I will be at each event in all my beauty/glory. I know how great I will feel playing with my children, or taking the stairs without being winded. I am no longer this victim who can’t lose weight.


I am going to lose weight. I have a plan set in place that I will follow. This weight will come off. I will break my food addiction with God’s help and I will get proper exercise and nutrition. No more back and forth. No more start-overs. No more Day 1 of any diet program. I am committing this pledge to myself. Not my husband, not my kids, not my friends, not my parents.


Losing this extra weight is important for me. I want to live, I want to feel and actually BE sexy. (The way a woman should feel). Today is the day that I start and end this journey once and for all. I pray that you are able to do the same.


With love,


Do What Must be Done…No matter how long it takes!

Posted by kiki on December 16th, 2010 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

I’m at that familiar crossroads with myself. Tired of the up and down yo-yo dieting cycle. Not sure where to begin this new journey for 2011. If I could give you one piece of advise that has helped me no matter what, it would be to NEVER QUIT ON YOURSELF. It does not matter that you are “starting over” for the 455th time, so what! When you totally quit, you lose. YOU LOSE. It is really that simple.

Take a step back and look at the mistakes you have done in the past. Learn from them and keep moving on. Tweek the programs and make them work for you. Like I’ve always stated…if you are happy being fat, then don’t complain about what’s working and what isn’t working for you. You obviously have not reached the point of being sick and tired of being sick and tired. Believe me, we all reach that point one day.

Despite that, there are just too many health complications involved with being obese. Obesity leads to this and that and depression and sickness and all this other crap. No one said you need to be skinny or you need to look like Jennifer Aniston, but just try to be a healthy YOU. Love yourself to keep trying. So what a whole year has passed. SO WHAT. Please don’t quit on yourself.

With a new year comes new hope and new opportunity. I don’t know about you but goals don’t usually work out for me the way I envision them. That doesn’t mean I’m going to throw in the towel and stop trying to lose weight. I’m excited about the new year and everything it will bring with it. You should be too. Not to be blunt but alot of people did not wake up this morning. You and I are here for a reason. Make the best of your life today but bettering your health and your life.

This weight loss journey is not about getting to a size 2 (or whatever size is your goal), it’s about the journey and process along the way. What have you learned? What will you share with your daughter, son, cousin, niece, co-worker, family, etc.

In the end we need to do what we have to do to lose the weight. Cut calories, exercise, log your food, get a support partner NOW, don’t eat 2 hours before bed…start doing these things now. No the weight won’t fall off but the key is consistency.

I haven’t given it my best at all the month of December. I’ve reached that “f*ck it” stage. However, I don’t plan on staying in this funk. I haven’t worked out in 2 days so I will hit the gym around lunch time. I wish you and your families a very safe and warm holiday season. 2011 is our time to shine. Believe in yourself and put your mind to it. The only difference between us and the biggest losers are the hard work and dedication that they put in toward their goal of losing weight. They are still people, and so are we. I’m rooting for us!


With love,



The Good, The Bad, and The Stupid

Posted by kiki on October 2nd, 2010 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

The bad news: I am off Induction

The good news: It works, I lost five pounds

The stupid: I just fixed a homemade brownie recipe and am waiting for them now. They are in the oven as I type.

Summary: Not sure if I mentioned the first girls night out (last night) but I decided to have a drink after all. My husband insisted I put some carbs in my system if I were going to drink. So skipping to last night, it was a flop. I had a slice of pizza (of all things for dinner) and hubby insisted that I have one more. Once I got to the bar I had 1 drink (and I only drank half). Today I had pizza again and KFC chicken w/mashed potatoes and like I said I’m about to eat a brownie and let’s face it. I will probably have one tomorrow too.

What I learned: I learned that sometimes you have to sacrafice and stand up for yourself and make a commitment to yourself if you want to move forward and progress. What I learned is I am indeed falling in love with the low carb lifestyle. And perhaps I can tweak this thing some more. Like eat low carb during the week and then cheat on the weekends? I don’t know I haven’t figured it out yet. What I do know is I’m going back on Induction on Monday (yep…Day 1). Usually that intimidates me because this part of Atkins is so strict. However now I understand WHY it’s so strict. Instead of my usually feeling of dread, I am actually anticipating Induction this week. In 2 days I will have gotten rid of all the sugary carbs in my system and by Wednesday I will be back to burning fat for fuel.

The bottom line: The holidays are approaching and if I don’t get my weight under control NOW, then God help me. I’ve already decided to skip the Halloween treats. It’s still EARLY October and I’m 5 pounds lighter, praises to God (and Dr. Atkins of course). The bottom line too is, this weight will not come off with some effort on my part. I feel that as long as I keep trying, I will get there. At this point I’m in no rush. 2lbs a week is cool with me, and let’s face it I enjoy my workouts at the gym. I notice though when I eat on point I feel so much better because it goes hand in hand with my workouts and I know I’m not wasting my time in the gym.

Long story short: Don’t beat yourself up if you’ve “messed up.” Look forward to tomorrow and keep going. Learn from your mistakes and try to make a better choice next time. Also, it’s okay to treat yourself but don’t forget your overall goal. To get that slab of fat off of your middle section. To get toned beautiful legs and thighs. To get sculpted arms and walk tall with confidence. To fall in love with yourself. Those are our reasons for failing repeatedly but yet trying again and again.

With love,


Day 5 of Induction

Posted by kiki on October 1st, 2010 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

So last night I had a bite or two of some shrimp egg foo yung. I was surprised to find that its like 0.9 carbs in the dish. It made me feel good to know that I am still OP with Atkins. Today is day 5 and I had a good eating day. I know I say this every damn Friday, but I’m FORREAL FORREAL SERIOUS THIS TIME.


Tonight is my first girls night out since giving birth in February. I’m not drinking ANY alcohol. No way am I going to sabatoge myself this time. 5 is closer to 14. It makes no logical sense to start all the way over to Day 1 of induction.

Please put your hands together and pray for me sometime today! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!

(I will check in tomorrow).

Have a great night chicas!

A Female Trainer = Loathing?

Posted by kiki on September 30th, 2010 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

So, today didn’t go how I expected. I got to the gym and met my trainer. It was a one day free pass and I picked a female and she contacted me to set up a time, so we met at noon. First off I’ve seen her working out before and she is nothing short of attractive (in my opinion). Nicely shaped arms, flat toned stomach, about my height, very beautiful smile, and (from what I just witnessed: very nice personality and easy-going). All of that was great. So why do I feel like shyt right now?

She showed me some new exercises to incorporate in my regular routine. She taught me the proper form and breathing techniques. She was sorta like a nice Jillian Michaels. Anyways, doing some of these exercises I caught sight of myself in a mirror and I just got really heated inside. Yeah it’s good to cheer yourself on and have a support group and all that, but do you ever stop sometimes and get angry with yourself for letting yourself go?

I wonder is it only me, who feels that way. Perhaps if I had a male trainer I would have felt different? After all I wouldn’t have been able to compare my stomach to his, or notice how toned his biceps were compared to my flabby out of shape arms. Ugh. I really feel like shyt right now. What’s even worse is, though we did workout for about 35 minutes, I don’t feel like I’ve done a good workout today. (I like to sweat in the gym).

Sometimes I wish I could snap my fingers and all this extra shyt would just disappear off my body, and I know I’m not the only one, and I know it’s just wishful thinking. Usually working out puts me in a good mood, but not today. I feel like this is going to take me forever. I just want to get past 195. Stupidly I weighed myself yesterday and it STILL says 195. I should know better though. I told you I’m in size 14s now, but damnit those 16s (some of ’em) still fit too!

I know, I know. Look forward and forget about the past. Thanks. And is this a tooth ache I feel coming on? Don’t tell me I have another cavity. (SMH).

I guess I shouldn’t end the post on a sour note. The good news is, I learned something new today. The good news is, I can still see how fat I am. To hear her say she’s 150 after I told her I was 195 crushed my ego. (LOL). After all 150 is only MY GOAL WEIGHT!

All jokes aside she has inspired me to get out there and keep doing what I’m doing. The fat is not going to magically disappear. It’s so funny cuz when I left the gym I went to the cafeteria to get a salad and I walked real slow by the pizza station frowning all the way to the point where someone asked me what was wrong. LOL! F*ck that pizza man!

Day 4 of Induction

Posted by kiki on September 30th, 2010 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

I started my morning with a BIG cup of joe. I think it was 20oz. My daughter woke up at 3:45am and would not go back to sleep. Finally she fell asleep in her swing (with me watching) at 6am. Talk about feeling groggy! On top of that, it is raining sheets outside and getting to work was a bitch this morning!

My breakfast was a 3 egg omelette with bacon, ham, mushrooms, onions, green/red peppers and cheese. Very filling to say the least. Today at noon I have an appointment with a female personal trainer. (hey, there’s a first time for everything.) When I joined the gym in June I should have taken advantage of this free session, but I’ve been doing my own thing for 4 months. I guess my visit with her will be informative and I will just make sure I am doing the right exercises to whip my flabby self into shape.

My outlook is still strong and I am more focused than ever to live an Atkins lifestyle this time around. I say that because most people never make it past the Induction phase of Atkins, but that is only 1 of the 4 phases. This time I want to go all the way. Making a lifestyle change that will last a lifetime.

Stay OP people. Your future is bright. Believe it!

Day 3 of Induction

Posted by kiki on September 29th, 2010 |Filed Under General | 2 Comments

Today is day three and I had a regular cup of coffee for breakfast. There was no way I would have survived on decaf. Hopefully it won’t affect my “switch” too much. (Where my body switches from buring carbs to burning fat.) I have to say that I am enjoying this part of Atkins thus far. It’s simple and uncomplicated. I am not constantly thinking about food or hungry. I feel better and slimmer in my clothes and by God I survived my first spin class at the gym yesterday which was a grueling 50 minutes!

Today’s workout was good as well. I did the elliptical machine for 15 minutes, jogged/sprinted for 7 minutes, and did 4 different ab exercises in 3 sets starting with 30. All that mix up makes an hour go by fast.

I keep imaging how I will feel when the 14s are too big in a few weeks. I keep feeling like I’m going to be in control of my life again. I feel like I’m going to be one of those hot sexy moms, and even better a hot sexy wife who likes the lights on while making love to her husband. I think about boy cut underwear and cutting up all my granny panties. I feel like I’m going to feel accomplished next week and that I won’t look back. I feel like this is a new journey for a new me and that it is okay to say a final goodbye (which I did this past Sunday) to stuff (it can’t even be called food it’s so bad) that doesn’t belong in my body.

I have truly taken aliken to all of the contestants on the new season of the Biggest Loser. I am right along side those folks – losing weight. It feels freaking fantastic! Join the bandwagon. Staying obese is for the birds man! You need to live your life for today and for right now. Right here, right now in this moment. Don’t be afraid to imagine what your success will look like.

You are in control more than you think.


With love,


Day 2 of Induction

Posted by kiki on September 28th, 2010 |Filed Under General | 1 Comment

Today is day 2, and day 1 was a success. I am off to spin class for the next 45 minutes then I will lift weights for the remaining 15.

GO TEAM KIKI! LOL! (that’s me and the other 2 chicks in my head. We wrestle daily with the fat slob who wants to keep us locked up and out of our sexy clothes).


Later chicas!

The Jean Diet

Posted by kiki on September 27th, 2010 |Filed Under General | 2 Comments

What is the Jean Diet? This is from Ms. Eva Mendes herself! Read on: “I work out with a trainer three days a week, and we do 30 to 45 minutes of cardio and then very light weight training. On another day, I’ll go on a great hiking trail. I don’t own a scale—I fluctuate 5 to 7 pounds and don’t worry about it. I have thinner size jeans, which are 27s, but I also have 28s for when I’m a little more voluptuous. Then I have 29s, which are totally me…very womanly. I don’t allow myself to go any lower than 27 or any higher than 29—it’s the Jean Diet. I’ve learned to love my body whether I’m 7 pounds heavier or 7 pounds lighter. I’m accepting of my body and have a good relationship with it.”

Okay, I don’t know about you ladies, but I am definitely getting with that program once I hit my goal weight. I love it! It’s all about loving yourself and accepting who you are. If you are cool with being an overweight person then good for you. However if you know you can do and look better then continue to tweak your game plan until you find a formula that works FOR YOU. DO NOT QUIT on yourself!

Do you know how many times I’ve messed up and started over? Too many to count. I even ate an entire box of Oreos this weekend – 24 cookies! But guess what, today is Monday, and I’ll be working out 3 hours from now. I’m not going to stay depressed over the cookies. Shyt, it was good while it lasted if you ask me! But now it’s time to move on forward. No matter if you diet or not my only advice to you is to work out. Fit it in your scheduled some type of way. It really works. You do lose inches, you do feel better, but you have to remain consistant. Just think what will happen when you do suddenly follow your eating plan to a T? Xtra results! A trimmer body! A better you!


Day 1 – Induction Phase (The Atkins Way of Life)

Posted by kiki on September 27th, 2010 |Filed Under General | Leave a Comment

I’ve decided to take the Atkins approach to life and food. After all they go hand in hand and we have to eat to live. Food will always be there. It’s time I got a better relationship with it.

 In the end you have to do what works best for you and that is why I’ve decided to start the Atkins approach. I can not call this a diet (as it is so commonly called) because there are in fact 4 phases to it. It is simply a way of life.

The Induction phase lasts for a minimum of 2 weeks and that’s the only part people are hear of or talk about. I guess this part of the diet gets trashed so much because it is so strict. No carbs pretty much except for in the form of veggies, and even those are limited during this time. But the results speak for themselves, and I am sick and tired of trying all these fad diets and being hungry and constantly recording food intake or counting numbers. With Atkins you don’t do that, you eat and go on about your day. I don’t feel hungry or deprived.

When I did this a few years ago, I lost 15 pounds, taking me to my lowest weight ever – 145. I don’t want to be that small again but let me tell you – it was damn sure easier shopping for size 6 clothes than it was picking through these 14, 16, and 18s.

Anyways, I will track my progress here. I haven’t bothered to weigh in because like I said before I am done with the scale. From now on I go by how my clothes fit and I can’t wait to start the Jean Diet! This was mentioned by Eva Mendez fine @ss. I will explain in another post.

Happy Dieting to all….if there is such a thing.

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