5/31 - 6/5 Schedule

30 May 2009 In: Life

This time including a dinner plan … it really helps!

  • Sunday - 1 hr. hike & 1 hr. walk  / 95% lean burgers, Broccoli Salad
  • Monday - C/W at Gym OR DVD (whichever I didn’t do Sunday)  / Buffalo Chicken Wraps, Potato Salad
  • Tuesday - DVD    /   Shrimp Fra Diavolo
  • Wednesday - Group Active Class   / Frozen Chinese Crap
  • Thursday - Kickboxing Class   /   Teriyaki Grilled Chicken & Pineapple, Grilled Asparagus
  • Friday - Off  /  TBD
  • Saturday - Centergy  /   TBD

Salmon Cakes

29 May 2009 In: Life

Updated Link

I did have to add way more egg than they called for (most reviews said it was a little dry, and they were right!) but I used EGG BEATERS and it worked out just fine.  Even the kiddos ate them. 

To get something posted!

Food and exercise yesterday were great.  Went to the gym, did the elliptical and then the weight circuit.  I hate the gym since the changes.  Still debating on what to do about that.  I ended up making Tilapia for dinner because I didn’t have the salmon I thought I did.  Made a greek (healthy) salad and some roasted dill potatoes.  Got the laundry done.

Today I need to clean the bathrooms.  SBFF is coming over tonight and staying over.  I may do a workout video instead of gym since there are no classes and I can’t do weights two nights in a row.  Weights felt TOUGH last night … guess thats what happens when you skip nearly a week.

B: Egg beaters on thomas multigrain english muffin, coffee

L: LC roasted garlic chicken pizza

S: Apple

D: Salmon cakes w/creamy dill sauce, potatoes au gratin, leftover salad, another veggie

Exercise: Probably DVD as mentioned above

Tomorrow I am doing my pilates class.  I need to go to the Verizon store about my dysfunctional cell battery, get DS6 a haircut, and then he is sleeping over MBFF’s house and her DD is sleeping over mine.  We are going to have a “girl’s cookout” … they chose hot dogs and beans.  Will pick up some veggies to grill also, and pineapple to grill.  Yummy.

Sunday will be food shopping, and at some time during the weekend I will need to cut the grass again.  And I have some HOA work to do (grrr).

I need to figure out a weekend to spend some time with my dad.  Yes, the obvious answer would be Father’s Day weekend, lol, but the kids will be with XH and I really wanted them to be with me, so that leaves the surrounding weekends.  I need to make a decision quickly.  I have not been a perfect legal guardian.  It is a lot tougher to set aside resentment and deal with it … I mean, I am doing it, but inside it probably affects me a little.

Okay, well I had to get up and leave my desk three times so far so let me just publish, lol. 

Thursday . . . already??

28 May 2009 In: Life

I can’t believe how much the long weekend threw me off! lol

I need to start posting my normal posts again, which is hard because I usually only have time at work, and lately I am so busy here thatI can’t do it anymore.  Well, even if it is only a 5 minute break, I need to do it.

Let’s talk about today’s food.  Today I will eat normal, healthy meals and one or two normal, healthy snacks (1 portion each).  Most importantly, I won’t be eating out of the pantry this evening when I find I have time on my hands and my mind is wandering.  Nope, won’t do it.  It certainly doesn’t change anything in my life, but add more grief and guilt.

B: Little Ones Chocolate Mini Wheats, 1% milk (anyone try these? they are good, and a good source of fiber! Think cocoa puffs mates with mini wheats, lol), coffee

S: Banana

L: LC panini

S: Apple

D: Will come back to this … I *think* I have salmon in the freezer, and if I do, it will be salmon.  I will roast some veggies and potatoes for sides.

Exercise: Gym - Cardio and Weights

I’d like to grill the salmon, but I’ve never made fish on a gas grill before.  Anyone here have tips?  Renee - I need to get the grill pans you mentioned, I bet that would work for the salmon.  How do they work?  Do they still leave grill marks? lol

I showed my boss my new grill and he was impressed us chicks built it :-)

Tomorrow night my SBFF is going to be passing through to pick up her nephew for a visit, so she is going to stop by.  She is really struggling lately.  She had a few really great weeks after her diagnosis, and recently they had to up her meds because she was sinking a bit again.  I am looking forward to just having some good conversation time with her.  I am still going to try to get to the gym early

Saturday, I will go to my centergy (yoga/pilates) class.  Saturday night, DS6 is sleeping over MBFF’s house with her sons, and her DD is coming to my house to sleep over with my DD.  So, we are “swapping”.  If it is nice weather, maybe we will hit another trail.  Yard work this weekend, and meal planning.  I want to sit down and plan some meals and make a shopping list and STICK to it.

Okay, well I am going to go grab a bottle of water and get back to work.  I will come back for commenting.  Everyone have a great Thursday!  Hugs!

 

 

 

PS - Tawnya! (TIC)

27 May 2009 In: Life

So good to see you on here!  I can’t link to your blog from your comments on mine, so can you send me the link to your blog.  It isn’t in the “recently updated” list right now so I can’t get to it …

Unless anyone else knows how to find her!  TY!  :-)

My days are all mixed up!

27 May 2009 In: Life
I am so screwed up with this past holiday weekend … I keep forgetting the day and I keep thinking it is already (or almost) June, and June isn’t until next week!
It’s almost 9 pm and I am just now getting some time to myself for the first time today, although honestly, my kitchen is a disaster area and I have PLENTY of laundry to fold, etc.  HOWEVER - it won’t kill me, and I am letting that sit aside so I can write a bit.  Today I was swamped at work, and then the DD6 came home with a note saying, “If you volunteered to bring cookies tonight to the Authors Tea, please bring them!”  Well, of COURSE *I* volunteered to bake cookies, but they never notified us who was chosen to bring something until that slip of paper this afternoon!  So I whipped up a batch of raspberry almond thumbprints, the only cookie I had every ingredient in stock to make.  Then whipped up dinner, got DD6 showered and dressed up, ate, and decided that one cookie wasn’t enough so I made another batch of cookies - this time oatmeal minus raisins because I didn’t have any (with 25 minutes left on the clock!).  THEN, After baking them all, I decided those were too plain to bring so I dumped them all over the kitchen counter where they still sit.  I am crazy.  Can we say overachiever?  Sigh. 
 
Work is still frustrating after my boss’ new promotion.  He needs his head to be slightly deflated.  In the middle of all of my own duties, plus starting to work on my next big project, he decided he wants me to be able to access his Lotus Notes calendar to view, edit, manage etc.  Don’t ask me why he can’t do it himself.  Suddenly his title changes slightly and the world comes tumbling down.  For the record: HIS RESPONSBILITIES HAVE NOT CHANGED.  The only change is who he reports to!  His own boss was sort of demoted.  And I don’t have TIME to mess around with his calendar!  I AM NOT HIS SECRETARY.  There is nothing wrong with secretaries, but I am NOT one!  And this drives me insane because I am not going to put aside my projects that are important to me … if I have time, great, I am all for it.  But I see this becoming a bigger problem down the road.
 
Exercise has been non-existent.  Except for yardwork and hiking, I didn’t go to the gym this weekend.  I honestly wouldn’t have been able to if I wanted to Sat - Mon, I haven’t even had the time to SIT!  BUT Tuesday night (last night? lol) I could have went, and I didn’t.  I spent a lot of time thinking, making excuses, and feeling shitty.  Then I called my insurance to see what my coverage was like for therapy because it isn’t exactly laid out in plain english in our SPDs, and found out the copays do not apply but coinsurance does so I have to pay percentages.  I got my pre-authorization and a list of LCSW and psychologists, etc. and narrowed it down to a couple who have expertise in the areas I need it most.  I called two, left messages for both, and only one called me back but was gone again once I was home for work so we are playing phone tag.  She doesn’t have evening hours, which is not good, so I am going to have to find time to call from work and then figure out when I can make it because I can’t go during work every single week.  (I could probably go DAILY and have enough to talk about for the next year.  And I don’t know if this will help … my mother and aunt both spent years in therapy, and, well … let’s just say I am not impressed, lmao!).  As it is, it is going to cost a lot of $.  But ignoring things or pretending nothing has affected me isn’t exactly cutting it for me, so I need to do something.  I need to take a look at the Dr list again and make more phone calls.  I can feel myself slipping back into the shell of that unhappy girl who spent her evenings with a bag of doritos and a huge bowl of ice cream.  God, I don’t want to be that girl.
 
Oh, and tonight - no exercise.  To be totally honest, I didn’t want to go anyway so when I remembered DD’s Authors Tea, I was so relieved to have a real excuse.  Pretty pitiful.  I am conflicted - I owe it to myself to be healthy and fit, but on the other hand, I shouldn’t feel SO bad when I don’t go that it causes me such guilt.  Please spare me the speeches on getting out there and doing it, I KNOW. 
 
Did anyone catch that new show on A & E “Obsessed”?  Omg!!  I LOVE Intervention, one of the BEST shows on TV I think, and I think this new show will be right up there.  How sad was it that this woman actually had a compulsion to wear her dead father’s bloody clothes he was killed in?  It was really heartbreaking.  I was so happy for her when she burned them and drove her kids to the beach.  Isn’t it amazing the way the human mind works?  For us, or for me at least, the thought of putting on clothes with dried blood is just, well, horrifying.  But she just HAD to do it. 
 
My mother emailed R today to see how he was doing.  They have exchanged emails, mostly jokes and forwards, in the past.  He closed the account.  Yikes!  Lol!  In a way, that is good.  It took a while … a long while … for him to understand I was done with the relationship.  It just saddens me that he cannot be just friends with me, but my MBFF thinks I am being unfair by expecting to ever be friends.  Sometimes people just can’t go back to that, I guess.
 
Oh, and XH called me today like we are best friends.  He got an apartment somewhere far away in New Jersey.  Nice, huh?  I said so I guess it doesn’t matter to you that you will never see your children.  He says we will continue the same schedule as we have been and he will just stay at his mothers house while the kids are in NYC with them.  That’s okay for the next few months, but then his sister and mother are moving to NJ also!  Buying a house.  Sooooooooo then what?  What person who cares at all about their children voluntarily moves 3 hours away from them?  NOT even for work, because now he has to commute to work too!  No sense in getting all worked up about it.  It is what it is, I can’t change that.  I can only be the mother my children need.
 
Food today was bad.  Well, it was great until I got home.  All downhill from the cookie baking and ‘refreshments’ at the school.
 
I need a long, hot shower.  Then I have to dive into housework.  I was aiming to be in bed by 10:30, doesn’t look like that is happening!

It’s been days …

26 May 2009 In: Life

But it seriously feels like hours.  This weekend zipped right by.  Where do I start?

Saturday I did hours, literally, of sweaty dirty yard work - and it looks GREAT!  Lots of flowers planted, tomatoes, basil, eggplants and peppers.  I nicknamed it my Italian Garden. :-)  Then off to three different stores ISO rhubarb for a dessert for Sunday.  Then, I decided to replace my old grill.  It wasn’t a terribly expensive one from the getgo, and it is 5 years old now.  So, I bought a big new stainless steel one with a separate infrared grilling compartment.  Sounds cool.  Looks cool.  NO idea what it is for, lmao! 

Saturday night BFF and I took 5 of our kids out, picked up the grill, and got to my house at 8 pm.  The guy at the store said it takes his guy one hour to build, so we could probably do it in 2-3 hours.  (Hehe, yeah okay buddy)  Well, exactly ONE hour later, we had ourselves a fully-assembled grill.  We kicked ass!  Who needs a man to build?  They just get aggravated and then you have to do it anyway!  At least the ones in my life, lol.  Saturday night was a late night, cleaning and baking for Sunday and prepping, etc.

Sunday was the BBQ.  One guest didn’t make it, but we still all had a really nice time.  The kids and I took an evening stroll on the rail trail.  I made grilled corn for the first time too, and that was a hit!

Monday, we packed a picnic lunch and hit some local trails.  It was absolutely GORGEOUS.  It couldn’t have been a more perfect day.  We did THREE HOURS in the trails (a lot for 6 year olds) and we had a great time.  Afterwards, we hit Old Navy for a few summer things for the kids, then food shopping.  We came home to grill (I MUST get my $ worth, lol) and invited a single neighbor who was grilling alone for dinner.  Did steak, asparagus, eggplant and baked potatoes.  Then the kids and I played badminton.  DS12 mentioned he liked it at gym and I bought a set and we have been playing every day, the kids all really like it.  It is a little slow going with the little ones though, lol.  We rented Hotel For Dogs which was adorable.

Today … sigh.  Court.  Didn’t go very well.  It COULD have been worse though.  Basically the judge was going to dismiss his petition and he would have to refile because he did not provide enough detail in his claim (about his income being lower than it was when the last order was established) but he said that if we came back and he provided the correct documentation, then the support would have been decreased by over 40%.  Crazy!  That was IF he won, of course … and I would have had to gotten an attorney.  He suggested that we come to an agreement or get attorneys and come back, and so we sort of came up with an agreement.  I am not happy, but I am glad it wasn’t what it COULD have been.  It eats up my refi savings though, and then some on top of that.  It just sucks.  I can never catch a break!  I save a little money, think I am going to get ahead of the game, and then it gets taken away.  Sigh.  Supposedly I am getting his last three tax refunds the IRS has been holding though, but who knows … not holding my breath.  He has been saying that for months and months.

So, that is where I am at.  DD had a dentist appt today, and we are home for the afternoon.  I took today off, and I am glad.  Although I am sort of working, lol.  Been checking/answering emails and voicemail all day.  I just can’t let it get too out of control.  I am tired.  This weekend was SO jam packed that it hasn’t felt like a weekend, but on the other hand … I did have some really nice quality time with the kids. 

Will post a normal post tomorrow.

Happy long weekend

22 May 2009 In: Life

It almost would be, if I didn’t have just one more hurdle to get through - family court on Tuesday.  I am done with all my financial disclosures and writing a very nice, detailed account of this business with CS.  Well, it is really out of my hands now.  We will see what happens.

Thanks for all the congrats yesterday!  It feels nice to be done with that … if he wouldn’t use it against me, I would love to thank the XH for forcing me to look into refinancing because it is saving me money, lol!  It is very likely that it won’t matter though after Tuesday, lol.  Yesterday was a beautiful day outside.  Food was very good all day.  After dinner we all (kids and I) went for a walk on the rail trail.  After the rail trail, I hit the gym for some weights.  After kids were in bed, I finished my book (I hate that ending Linda!  I don’t want to GUESS what happened, lol) and went to bed.  I just realized I haven’t watched TV since Greys last week.  Oh well, nothing on right now!  I do have a couple episodes of the NJ housewives DVRed, lol.  Looks like another group you love to hate.

This weekend was going to be some peaceful yard work - planting tomatoes and basil and flowers, and an additional project of ripping out some grass in the back yard.  The BBQ sits in the corner of a fenced in area right off the patio and it is just a 9×6 patch of grass (primarily weeds!) and I hate the location and mowing it, so I am going to hit Lowes and HD and see what kind of do-it-yourself projects that have to turn that grassy area into an extension of my patio.  Well, not really extension, it will be a different material … but I am going to put my own pavers in.  My goal is to at least get the grass out this weekend, wish me luck!

Also, pilates/yoga class on Saturday and cardio/weights on Sunday - but now I suddenly have 8 dinner guests on Sunday for a BBQ so that really throws everything off, and motivates me to get my butt in gear to pretty up the backyard!  I sure hope the weather cooperates!  I will have to try to get everything I can done early Saturday since it may rain later in the day … which possibly means missing my class.  Humph.  I have to check and see how late childcare is open there.

Food today … egg beaters on english muffin, coffee, chicken salad for lunch, and not sure for dinner.  There are no good gym classes tonight … I guess Friday evening is not a busy one? lol.  Not sure what I am doing about that.  I did workout at home the other evening … Wednesday?  Yes, Wednesday.  I might have to do that again.

In an hour I have to go to one of our sites and inform the off-shift people that their shift differential is going away.  Sucks to do on a Friday afternoon, but it wasn’t my decision.  Sigh.

I better have lunch then prepare.  It is EERILY quiet here!

I will be popping in over the weekend.  Everyone have a wonderful, safe Memorial Day and takes time to remember all the heroes that this day honors.  HUGS!

Signed, sealed, delivered

21 May 2009 In: Life

Super busy, but wanted to say that I closed!  I am officially refi’d and XH is off the mortgage!

Hugs!

GOOD morning

20 May 2009 In: Life

And it will be!  I already drank a bottle of water - which is about all I’ve drank the entire day the last several days, yikes - and I am off to a good day.  I need to make some changes in my life, not just eating, and I have to make a promise to myself to follow through on this. 

Food today:

B: MG Rice Krispies, strawberries, 1% milk, coffee, water

L: Lean Cuisine Garlic Chicken Pizza

S: Pink Lady Apple

D: Undecided …

Exercise: Board meeting tonight, so no gym.  I am going to try to fit in a Jillian workout at home. 

I did promise to bring cookies, of course!  Making white choc cranberry, and then another neighbor is bringing a cheese and crackers platter and another is bringing wine.  The cheese and cookies will be harder to aviod than the wine, lol.  But I don’t think I will have a problem.

Boss is back in today, work is back to normal and quiet for now.  I had a good conversation with the Director yesterday that I feel pretty good about.

Have to figure out dinner.  I need to get started on my court paperwork for next week, I keep forgetting to bring it with me to the office.  Tomorrow is my refinance closing!  Yippee! 

Oh, and I am reading the book The Cell by Stephen King.  My mom sent it to DS, and although he is an advanced reader, I think this is a little scary for him!  I mean, I have had nightmares several nights from this book!  Not terrible, can’t go back to sleep nightmares, but creepy ones and it is so weird because normally I don’t scare easily.

Okay, off to get some work done.  And Renee, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!