(Maintaining Me) RE-Creating Me

I missed posting yesterday.  Om, work was so crazy busy, then was still working when I got home, through together dinner of hot dogs, mac and cheese and corn - fancy stuff - then ran out the door to see the Quadricentennial Flotillian … I am sure I spelled that wrong somewhere - sail up the Hudson.  It is NY’s 400th anniversary, so this was a big historic event.  Took the kids to watch the ships.  And, as a result, I missed my yoga class.  Well, the 400th anniversary only happens once.  I was really beating myself up about it, which is ridiculous.  I SHOULD feel bad for missing days when I am doing absolutely nothing … however, I realize I really don’t have ANY day I am doing nothing.  A little frustrating, some down time would be nice once in a while.  I always experience major guilt.  Anyway, got home, kids showers, lunches, ironing for today’s ceremony, laundry, and I was finally done by 9:30.  Crazyness.  But I was still dabbling in my work email at that time.  Sometimes I need to learn to just SHUT the damn laptop OFF!

Today is DS’s JR Honor Society induction, so no exercise today either.  Have to rush home, make dinner (I let DS pick a special dinner, so he requested chicken cutlets and a huge batch of roasted broccoli, lmao), change my clothes, back out the door by 6 pm.  I have the book wrapped up for him, and his new phone is here with me … I haven’t quite figured out how to give it to him yet.  Maybe slip it in the pocket of his khakis and let him find it, or hide it in his room and call it?  Ideas?

DS has 2 ortho consults coming up … every cent is out of pocket, lucky me, so I am shopping around.  This is insane.  His regular dentist told me that there are two plans within his dental insurance - one covers ortho, one does not.  She seemed to think he had coverage.  I called up his insurance, which is through a very well known provider … and his plan has NO ortho coverage.  None whatsoever.  I mentioned that the dentist said there were two plans and one had coverage … so she says to me (this is where I am choking on my lunch) … Oh yes, they actually adminster a plan through medicaid so people who have that plan have full ortho coverage. 

(In NYS, Medicaid is the state welfare plan, if you are not working, etc., free)

Oh.  My.  God.  So, if I have insurance that I pay a premium for, he gets no ortho coverage.  If I had no job and sat on my ass, he would HAVE FULL COVERAGE?  Does this make any f-ing sense!?!?!?

Okay, don’t get me wrong … I am happy that the unemployed and people who cannot afford healthcare have coverage, I do believe that EVERYONE deserves healthcare - but WTH??  Working people who pay for insurance get less coverage?

I need to change the subject, I spent a good chunk of yesterday being very angry over that.  It’s a waste.  Moving on.  My son better appreciate his teeth! lmao

What else, what else.  Kids are supposed to go to Xh’s this weekend but I am thinking of keeping them home.  He canceled the last TWO weekends, I know, but they are also going next weekend for Fathers Day and that’s a more important weekend, IMHO.  And I don’t want to have to make the trip two weekends in a row.  I really just want to relax.  I have SBFF texting me daily because she wants me to come visit, and then my neighbor emailing because she wants to accompany me down to NYC Friday … but I don’t want to hang in the city Friday, I just want to come home, and I don’t want to make the 1.5 hr drive up to SBFF Saturday either.  It’s just too much.  Is that mean?   And next week I have a ticket to see Billy Elliott (woohoo! Tony winner!) so I don’t have the $ to see a show this Friday as well (especially since I MISSED out on the show I had for last week, and lost my $ on that).  I just want to hang near home, hit a trail maybe, lay around in the backyard. 

Speaking of backyard - no BBQ pc yet!  She said 7 to 10 business days, so I guess there is still time.  Grrrr.

Breakfast today was mini-bagel with light butter, water, lunch was smart ones ravioli, and I have a nectarine and a banana with me for snack.  Dinner is the chick cutlets, broccoli (I wrote croccoli at first, lol) not sure what else.  No gym, home late, but I AM DOING MY KICKBOXING CLASS TOMORROW!

Okay, need to organize the growing piles of paper around me.  Hugs!

The farm was wonderfullllllllllll!!  We spent several hours there.  We did the tour, the hayride, ate a vegan lunch, walked around, made some arts and crafts, etc.  There was a 900 lb. pig just laying in the middle of it all, basking in the sun.  There were blind horsies.  :-(  As I listened to the director talk about these animals … all abused, neglected, some saved from slaughter at factory farms - and what she had to go through to ‘rehabilitate’ them to trust and love humans again, I thought, It is JUST like therapy for animals!  Love therapy.  They were all the sweetest things.  Hard to believe that people would lock them in closets and just move away, or leave a horse in a stall for NINE MONTHS without ever letting her out - it took three days to dig her out of her manure.  The stories were heart breaking and hopeful at the same time.  It was a wonderful experience. 

The founder wrote this book, Where the Blind Horse Sings.  I bought it and since DS12 (aspiring Veternarian) wasn’t there with me, I had her autograph it for him.  She wrote, “To Anthony - Follow your dreams.  The animals need you.  Kathy Stevens”.  I am giving it to him on Wednesday (along with his new phone, lol) after the induction.  Of course, I had to read the book (lol) so I did Saturday night/Sunday morning.  I finished it yesterday morning out on the patio in the sun with my coffee, pretty much sobbing through the book, lmao.  What a sight to see that would have been!  It was touching, I don’t even know how to describe it.  I thought about her job and how fulfilling it is for her … and I think about how I thought I ‘loved’ my job, but turns out - not so much, lol.  Sigh.

Yesterday we went and picked up DS12 and attempted to do a hike, but he didn’t feel well (Chinese food Sat night strikes again, when will this boy learn!?).  It was River Day in a couple cities, both on the banks of the Hudson River opposite eachother.  The flotillion of ships left Manhattan the other day and are making their way up the Hudson, stopping for a day or two at cities for educational purposes.  We went to the festival they were throwing, took a ferry across the river and hit both cities.  We had a great time.  Food, not so great.  lol.  I also ate too much homemade bread this weekend (baked 3 loaves).  Tom arrived yesterday, so actually considering THAT, I did better than I usually do!

Yesterday I also made this from allrecipes - Apple Raisin French Toast Strata .  O  M  G was this DELICIOUS!  I halved the recipe, made it with homemade bread, fat free half and half, light butter and light cream cheese, and it was STILL awesome!  Oh and light syryup, and I doubled the apples too.  YUM!

Okay on to today’s stuff so I can get to work …

B: Leftover pc of the apple raisin strata, coffee

L: LC Salmon dish or LC pizza

S: 100 cal almonds or fiber1 bar

D: Red. Fat. Sausage and spaghetti

Exercise:  DS12 has dentist tonight, so hopefully we will get back early enough for me to hit the gym for weights

Will be back a little later to comment … Happy Monday!

So, 6 yo DS surprised me by making me breakfast: an overflowing bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch.  Complete with a fruit loops cereal straw.  Well, at least it was lowfat milk.  I had just opened my eyes and wasn’t hungry at all, but he looked so sad when I said I really wasn’t hungry, so I quickly got hungry and ate about half. There was breakfast.

The sky is a solid white this morning … hard to believe it is supposed to be sunny and 80 later?  It’s only a little after 9 am here now, but I keep peering out the window waiting for the sun.  We will probably leave here at 11 for the farm.  The first 100 cars get in free, which would be great because they are charging $10 pp for this event.  BUT, if I end up having to pay, that’s okay too because it is for a cause I believe in.

I have to cut the grass later.  I probably should be getting that out of the way right now, shouldn’t I?  Sigh.  I really don’t feel like it.  I was hoping to sleep a little this morning, as in, ohhh I don’t know - is 8 am too much to ask for?  Lol.  Usually kiddos are pretty good about that, but this morning they got into an argument at 7:30.

I was just looking at these websites about cooking one day for 30 days of meals … freezer cooking.  I looked at one recipe: Chicken Spaghetti.  Chicken, velveeta, sour cream, spaghetti?  Uck.  I think I will pass.  Perhaps its just too early for me to read that, lol.

Oh, I got DS the Envy3.  I decided against a touch screen for a 12 year old, but this one is the newest envy with full keyboard, and it comes in blue.  Should arrive Monday but I have to sign for it and I won’t be home, naturally.  Arghhh!!  I have to call FedEx and see what can be done.

Well, I don’t really have much else to say I guess.  Breakfast done, lunch will be at the farm (sampling vegetarian meals, should be interesting) and dinner is undecided.  Exercise day off.  Well, will be cutting grass tonight and that will be some exercise.  I have to do some food shopping at some point.

Okay well if anyone is around, lol, have a wonderful Saturday!

I drove an hour and a half to be in and out the door in exactly ten minutes.  That included me walking in, using the rest room, stripping naked, seeing the doctor, getting dressed again, and making my next appointment (in 6 mos.)  I swear, I wish we could do our appointments like this through Skype.  What the heck is the point!  Especially when ALL he is going to say is how great I look, even though I feel like a big lumpy playdoh body.  He said I looked like I lost more weight (uhhh yeah buddy, try I am TEN POUNDS heavier than surgery day) and my face is thinner (it’s fatter, but he sees a million women per year) and if I hadn’t lost weight, then things have definitely “re-distributed”.  He certainly is charming, that one.  Not that he isn’t highly skilled, because he is.  But, whatever.  Maybe I also have trouble accepting compliments.  ESPECIALLY compliments about my naked body! Lmao!  But he says he sees a big improvement in things since the last surgery, and I don’t.  I just don’t see it.

But, I also spend 50 minutes out of a 55 minute gym class checking out other people and comparing my body to theirs, and I am always certain I am the fattest one in the group.  There are no mirrors in this room (THANK GOD!!) BUT there are floor-to-ceiling windows that do a great job of reflecting my fat ass and reminding me why I am there to begin with.  And either I always seem to catch a glimpse of myself at the most unflattering second - or - I just always look like crap.  Somehow, I still go.

Anyway, I made it home early enough to stop at my favorite little farm market grocery store where they somehow have amazing sushi (lol, I know, doesn’t make sense but trust me, it is awesome!) so I bought two different rolls for dinner and some odds and ends for the kids and we had a little buffet night.  I still have 4 pcs left, I am hoping it still is good for today.  Also got a couple things in the produce section, and somehow I spent $30.  Damn sushi … I should try making it at home. 

Went to my kickboxing class last night so I could obsess about how gross I looked in comparison to everyone else.  Oh, I mean, to workout.  It was still a good session.

Today boss is back in the office and I am dreading this.  He has only been gone three days but I feel like so much has happened and I am so busy, I don’t have time to bring him to speed and I don’t have time for him to come in and bother me about stupid crap like his calendar, which I KNOW he will do.  Dear God, Please, please let me have a peaceful day and get through my Friday!  Amen.

Speaking of Amen … well, not really, but typing that reminded me: yesterday I drove past a church that had a sign that said: Can’t Sleep?  Count Your Blessings.

I thought that was very cute.  Churches always have this catchy sayings that really make you think posted outside … hmmm, maybe I should try going INSIDE one of these days!

The other day I found a little notebook with letters I wrote to DS12 when he was born.  I have LOTS of letters to him … all in sealed envelopes.  (I have only one to each of the twins - written when I had my gallbladder removed and thought I was going to do during surgery.  Yeah, I’m rolling my eyes too)  I feel bad … life got so much busier and the little ones got jipped.  I need to do something about that.  I wish I could steam open the envelopes and read what I had to say because, judging by the notebook, I might have written things I wouldn’t want him to read now.  For one, I was 20 years old when I wrote that book … and I actually wrote (ugh, I am really cringing) about how much his grandmother loved him (my mom) … and my grandmother died when I was 11 and she was like my best friend.  And I was afraid my mother wouldn’t live to see DS grow up until 11 because of her bad habits (I didn’t say what they were or anything).  At that time, that was very true!  But she became sober and made a huge turnaround, and I really don’t ever intend on telling the kids about her past.  I don’t know.  I wouldn’t want to cloud how they see her NOW, you know what I mean?  So … I’m afraid of what I wrote in this letters.

Okay, onto the food and stuff …

B: Eggo Choc Chip Pancakes, coffee (figured that might help my choc craving, they weren’t that good)

S: Peach

L: Leftover Sushi, 100 cal almonds

S: not sure

D: Spicy Honey Rubbed Chicken Thighs (Cooking Light Recipe), Roasted Asparagus, oven baked zucchini things

Hope the link works … I am having lousy luck with that lately!

Probably will be an exercise day off, but we will see. 

Tomorrow I am taking the kiddos here to see the farm animals.  I’ve been there before to see the rescued farm animals, and we are huge animal lovers so I know they will have fun.  And it just so happens that they are having some fundraising event, so should be fun.

Sunday is the Tonys!  Yay!  If you guys have time, check out the Rock of Ages performance … it is going to be terrific!

Okay … back to work.  This is the first time in, well, as long as I can remember, that I am DREADING work!

Have to leave in 20 minutes for Dr. M (blech) and still have a lot of paperwork to pack up for later, just wanted to pop in since I won’t have time the rest of the day.

Food was good yesterday, except I had some doritos last night.  Bah.  Exercise was a DVD at home, so the kids asked me to do Kids Tae Bo with them.  Who could say no to that? :-D  It was cute, and I was really proud of DD.  She does it better than most kids on the video!  I WI this morning almost 2 pounds lighter than Monday, so that is good.  I wonder if 8 pounds by 4th of July is a crazy goal.  If I could do it, maybe I will reward myself by getting my highlights done again … I’ve been doing hair coloring at home to save money all winter and I HATE MY HAIR.  That would be a nice reward, in time for my business trip (if that comes through).

B: Apple Cinn Cheerios, 1% milk, coffee

S: Pomegranate Berry Yogurt, yummy!

L: Sandwich on the road

S: Peach on the road

D: TBD … some sort of chicken

Exercise: Kickboxing class tonight

I invited Mom to come up for a couple days next week so that she could come see DS12’s induction into the JR Honor Society and surprise him … but she now says she has an appt. the morning of the ceremony that she can’t reschedule.  I understand, but I am not sure why that would be an issue.  She could still come up in the afternoon.  But whatever … oh, that’s because she can’t take her cat with her then.  Sigh.

Stillllllllllll considering a new cell for DS … thinking, thinking.

I’m having a little issue with something, and I feel like it might be selfish, but I am not sure.  MBFF has a cousin who recently passed away.  He took his own life on Friday.  He was a 2nd cousin who she hadn’t seen or spoken to in years, but still family, nonetheless.  He was an addict, as was (is) his wife.  His wife is being nasty, saying not nice things, etc.  It is easy to blame her, I totally get that, but I feel like they are (were) both ill, so you can’t really just blame one.  I think they are sick, and even if she said mean things (that she one day will regret) she didn’t force him to do what he did.  I’m NOT defending her, I don’t even know her, and I think the way she is raising their daughter is horrid … but I don’t think you can blame her either.  (I also have a very strong feeling about people who commit suicide, for personal reasons)  Having personal experiences with people who have had chemical dependencies, I guess l look at it differently.  I listen and just, well, listen … I’m not going to argue … but she has no idea what she is talking about, never having been exposed to that life style.  Does this make sense?  So I don’t want to argue about it.  And there is sooooooo much drama around the memorial service - who is going to go, who isn’t going, who doesn’t want who to go (their family is entirely divided and not speaking) and I am not even in the family and it makes me crazy!! lol.  And I think its selfish of someone to stay home because they didn’t get personally invited (isn’t that ridiculous??) or because they think someone will talk about them - get over yourself!  You either want to go to memorialize the PERSON who passed away - or you don’t!  This is not about you OR the others attending.  Grow the F up.  Whew, that feels good.  But anyway, it is having a weird affect on me and making me feel panicky and I don’t want to discuss it anymore, however, OTOH I am her sounding board so I feel bad saying that.  Does any of this make sense?  Deep breath.  I love her and want to be there for her, but this is having an adverse affect on me and sometimes I need to make the call to put my own mental health first.  I just don’t know.

Yesterday … yesterday … yesterday … Oh yes!  Food was good, exercise was good.  I went to my Centergy class (yoga pilates combo) and had a new instructor (not new to the class, just new to me) who was male.  I liked him, but I still like my original instructor best.  I have to chuckle - in front of me were two teenagers who were taking the class the first time.  They were trying to convince one of their mothers to stay for the class too - they said, “Come on, it willbe easy.”  Huh.  I would be lying if I said I didn’t get some satisfaction to see them struggle, fall, and whispering to eachother when they couldn’t do some of the poses and exercises - lmao!  Not that I don’t want them to be able to do it, lol, but they were SO smug in the beginning, it was kind of humorous to watch their attitudes change.  There was a woman there that I never had in my class before (this was a new time/location for me) and I swear, she is like one of those bendy rabbits you used to get for easter.  She could stand on one leg and hold the other straight up to her body, like I bet she could have touched the side of her face with it.  I was in awe, lmao.  The good news, I think that my Crow is improving.  Maybe I WILL get to do that someday, after all!  I am going to make that my non-weight goal: Hold Crow for 5 seconds … then I will increase it from there.

Tomorrow is a follow up with PS.  I want to throw up, and I don’t want to go.  1.5 drive each way for a 3 minute appt for him to notice I’ve put on some weight and send me home? lol … but I have canceled April and May, I HAVE TO GO.  And I have to talk to him about this rib pain.

B: PB on thomas light mg english, coffee

S: Peach

L: Leftover Shrimp Fra Diavolo, yum!

S: Yogurt

D: Undecided … have to shift around schedule, I might make a frozen chinese meal thing I have in the freezer

Exercise: Home, so DVD today

Ugh, someone keeps calling me because he is looking to fill out background forms for our upcoming govt transition, and he doesnt know that he is not being asked to participate.  He is an older, higher-up employee than I am and I don’t feel comfortable telling him that, but he is calling me as HR Lead of the transition, and my boss is away so he can’t tell him he wasn’t selected.  For now, I just thank God for caller ID.  I HATE doing that though!  Grrr!

Anyone watch Obsessed last night?  I really thought the hands girl wasn’t going to get better, but I am so glad she did.   That was really sad!  I feel so bad for these people.

Okay, I better get to work screening phone calls.

Peace and quiet . . . ahhhhh, so nice when the boss is away.  I have two more days of this, yippee!

Food yesterday was good, exercise also good.  Went to the gym and did some elliptical and some weights.  We had the Eating Well Buffalo Chicken Wraps for dinner - YUM!  They were sooo good.  I watched Intervention while folding laundry and DVRed Obsessed for tonight, lol.  I also journalled privately, which I think helps a lot.  Some things from the past that I don’t necessarily want the world to be able to read, know what I mean?

Oh, grill company is sending me a new part - which takes 7 - 10 days to get here.  I tried to get them to send it faster, I mean, I’ve OWNED the grill less time than that! But she said because it is sent from British Columbia … I said, well my ipod comes from China but I stillll get it the next morning!!  And she giggled and couldn’t argue with that, but it didn’t get me anywhere.  I have a bad feeling about this, like it is just going to break again.  We shall see.  Until then, no grilling for me.  I will have to do my teriyaki chicken broiled instead.  (later in the week, making pasta tonight)

B: Egg beaters on TMGEM, coffee

S: Peach, yum!

L: Smart Ones enchiladas

S: Apple, 2 GS thin mints

D: Shrimp Fra Diavolo

Exercise: DVD or class, depending on how I feel

Oh, so stupid !%$&*% XH just canceled again.  Rough life this jerk has.  He canceled last weekend, so thinking for sure he wasn’t going to cancel again, I bought a ticket to see a broadway play Friday night while I was in the city.  Guess what?  Now I have a 3rd row center orch ticket I can’t use.  Pissed is putting it mildly.  He said he was sorry but he didn’t have anyone to watch the kids while he worked … well WTF do I do 260 days out of the year?  It’s so damn simple for him, it makes me SO ANGRY.  Stupid loser.  I want to say much worse, but I will save that for a private entry, lol.

Okay, I have to calm down now, lol.  Leaving soon so I need to wrap this up.  Will return for commenting.

Hugs!

And giving myself a couple minutes to write.  Thanks for your comments on the pics!  For some reason the pictures are a little weird, stretched taller or something.  But at least I got them up there, lol.

Got fingerprinted today.  That was interesting.  Some days, it is good having a boss who knows everyone … he got us past all the people in line for pistol permits (Wth?  so many!) and we got in to get printed and then get a little tour of the creepy places I never, ever want to be - lmao!

B: MG Rice Krispies, half banana, coffee

S: Other half of the banana

L: LC Panini

S: Kellogs Fiber choc chip bar thing

D: Buffalo chicken wraps, lowfat potato salad, green beans

Exercise: Gym Cardio/Weights

I did WI today .. ha.  154.  Like, highest ever since weight loss.  I need to get a grip … and that is AFTER I had a few good days, I can imagine what it would have said last week!  Blah!  Well, I know what it takes, I just need to do it.

Everyone have a great day … today is the only June 1st we will have this year!

Today was another lovely day.  The weather was spectacular.  We took advantage of that and packed a picnic lunch and went on a 1 hour hike where we saw chipmunks, deer, and a VERY COOL red headed woodpecker.  He was BIG!  I couldn’t get close enough to get a good picture.  We startled him on the trail (he was eating something out of a decaying tree on the side of the trail) and he flew off, really shocking us.  He stopped nearby though because we heard him pecking - loud!  We waited about 30 feet past his tree and sure enough, he came back.  Couldn’t get the pic though.  Anyway, then we went to Target for haircolor and paper goods and spent $100 on who knows what!  I did buy a $20 set of clippers.  Lol … okay, don’t laugh, I figured that I can cut my boys hair instead of spending $12-15 each every few weeks.  Well, the first try went okay but not great.  I have to ‘learn’ on DS6 because DS12 won’t let me near him - smart kid!  This might have been a stupid idea.

Anyway, went and got my battery for my cell replaced, went food shopping, then back home.  This is where my great-day-turned-bad.  I go to start up my new grill for the burgers and it wasn’t igniting.  Then I noticed I didn’t even hear the gas hissing.  I got annoyed thinking they sold me a near-empty propane tank.  I went to make sure that I opened it properly and noticed that the valve where you connect the propane tank CRACKED and literally broke off!  Now, this is part of the grill - connected to a hose that is a permanent fixutre of the grill (this wasn’t something *I* attached, it already came attached).  A grill I used THREE TIMES.  Furious doesn’t cover it.  Customer Service isn’t open on weekends - isn’t that pretty stupid for a GRILL company?  But I am already thinking the worst.  If this isn’t a part I can replace myself, am I supposed to find a truck to get this back up to the store to return it, and then build a whole new one?  No way.  I AM SO SO SO MAD.

So, I cooked the burgers inside and we had that and the broccoli salad (yum!) out on the patio anyway.  I’m still seething.

After dinner, I cut DS’s hair (cringeing) and then cleaned up, mopped all the floors, and went for a one hour (well, 50-55 min actually) fast paced walk on the rail trail.

And it was there that I spotted the rarest species I have seen from all my hikes:  Rollerblading Human Male in a Leotard.  I kid you not.  I still have to purse my lips to not laugh out loud.  And can I just say … the leotard did nothing for him.  He had NOTHING to show off. 

Tomorrow morning I have to go get fingerprinted.  No, I am not getting in trouble nor am I getting a pistol permit, lol.  It is for a new gov’t customer we will have for work, and if I am going to work on the transition I need clearance.

Well, I was going to post a pic of my broken grill but decided to share some cuter images … my  real babies and my fur baby (one of them)

But I still wanted to pop in and write.

Food and exercise was good yesterday.  The Firm DVDs STILLLL kick my ass after all this time.  This morning, woke up and puttered around the house cleaning a little, etc. until my yoga/pilates class.  Went to class which was great.  Came home, made lunch and we all ate outside which is always nice.  It was another BEAUTIFUL DAY.  After lunch  I went and dropped off DS6 to MBFF and picked up her DD for our slumber-swap, lol. 

Then I took the girls (and DS12) over to the farm market grocery store I like.  We got lots of produce and a treat to try - lobster egg rolls.  I baked them at home and had half - YUM!  They were great!  Then we BBQed (light!) hot dogs, corn on the cob, portabella mushrooms, and pineapples slices.  And made beans.  It was like a little buffet.  I did some more yard work, then took the kids for ice cream.  The place we went had nothing light or lowfat!  I was really surprised.  I wasn’t DYING for ice cream, so I passed.  I did take a taste of DD’s.  We took our ice cream to go and went to a nearby park/lake and we walked around the lake on the path.  It was really nice.  Got home and mowed the lawn and put together the broccoli salad for dinner tomorrow (tastes better when flavors blend overnight, IMO, but I throw the bacon in last minute.  Turkey bacon of course, lol).  And here I am … finally done!

Yesterday DS got the word he is going to be inducted into the Jr. Honor Society June 10th.  Then today, we got not one but two letters - one that he was accepted into a 8th grade Studio Art class they are offering for advanced art students next year which he will get high school credits for, and then another letter saying he meets the grade requirements and his teacher recommended him for Earth Science which also will give him HS credits.  I am super, SUPER, SUPER proud of him.  He has wanted a new (real … right now he is using prepaid) cell phone and I really think he deserves it, I really do.  But, in light of the recent loss of income with CS, I am not so sure adding another line to my plan is a great idea right now.  But I really want to get this for him.  I’m torn.

Omg … is my BABY actually going to be in 8th grade next year!?!?  As in … almost high school??  It just can’t be!  It is so weird to me … I think it is just now hitting me that he is even in middle school because it will be his FINAL year of middle school.  I worry … I was a good student too, until … oh, sophomore year of HS.  I just don’t want him to make the mistakes I did.  He is such a great kid, he has so much potential.  Okay, no sense in getting myself all worked up over something that didn’t happen yet.  He isn’t me, and more importantly, *I* am not my parents so I will be there to make sure he stays on the right path.

Was going to change the color of my toenails tonight but it is so late and I am tired, I think it will have to wait until tomorrow.  Goodnight everyone!