I wonder if I can lose 2.5 pounds in 6 days? Lol.  Oh well, I am eating healthy, exercising, etc. so if I am not under 145 Monday (which I won’t be), there is nothing to cry about.  Such is life.  Someone commented to me Sunday that I looked like I had lost some weight.  I really just am re-toning up, dropping the couple pounds I had gained since March/April.

Yesterday was emotionally draining.  Today is okay, I am moving on.  The past is the past and I can’t sit and obsess or think about regrets; The future is the future which I cannot control.  When I feel anxiety over one thing, I tend to focus on something small and usually irrelevent to the real problem, and turn that into an issue in order to not face the bigger picture.  Blah.  At the time that I am doing this, I usually think that my feelings are justified, I don’t see that I may be overreacting, etc.  My therapist basically pointed out where I was wrong and R was right.  I tried to discuss this with him, but things went south during that convo.  Okay, everything is okay right now.  I need to chalk these up as lessons learned.

Still nothing from MBFF but the daily one text regarding something stupid!

Food yesterday was good, exercise was good.  The new Firm DVD I got was harder than I expected.  I didn’t realize there were weights in that one too.  I do like it though.  It is short … 42 minutes and it was done, and 31-42 minutes was on the floor ab work and stretching. 

In the evening, I had a large handful of cheez-its that I didn’t need.  I really, really do need to keep them out of the house.  This is one food that I could just sit and eat the whole box.  They are also my mom’s favorite, which is why I bought them, but I should have waited until Saturday.  I knew that, I SAID that to myself, and I didn’t listen … lol.

Today’s Food

  • Breakfast: Thomas light mg english, half w/PB, half w/cc&J (lol), coffee
  • Snack: Apple or Banana
  • Lunch: New Lean Cuisine Quesadilla!
  • Snack: Other fruit or 100 cal almonds
  • Dinner: Undecided, might just be light hot dogs, vegetarian beans, some other veg

Exercise: Centergy Class tonight

I was supposed to build DD’s TV stand this evening, but after inspecting the paint I am really not happy with it, so I am not sure.

I feel tired today … but not physically.  I just want to lay down and be alone.