It is amazing what one can get accomplished at home in a day.  I have trouble with being home and just “being with myself”, in case you didn’t notice, lol.  I ALWAYS have plans, I rarely have down time, and I feel like I am wasting time if I sit down to watch a TV show.  Maybe even a little guilt there.  I am not sure why I feel that way.  Anyway, yesterday I was home all day - except for a food shopping run.  I made a massive bowl of chicken salad, got my meatloaf ready in the pan for today, did my workout plus one section of another DVD, laundry, yardwork, layed in the backyard for a bit (the heat was intolerable) and caught up on 3 episodes of Bridezillas that I DVR’d.  (I think I am developing a habit with that show, it’s crazy! lol)  Fried more eggplant too - the kids loves it. 

Today there will not be a lot of downtime: work, therapy, dinner, workout, laundry/tomorrow’s lunch prep/bed. 

Food:

  • Breakfast: Egg beaters on TLMGEM, coffee
  • Snack: Apple or banana
  • Lunch: Chicken Salad sandwich
  • Snack: Other pc of fruit
  • Dinner: Meatloaf, potatoes, veggies

Today my Punch, Kick and Jab DVD is supposed to arrive, so I will be trying that out tonight.

So, today is one week of no phone calls from MBFF, though she has been texting me the last 4 days once per day, checking on the kids rooms, and has been pleasant.  Yesterday I read a chapter of a book I am reading that could have been written about her and I, and the need to set boundaries.  It was very interesting.  I don’t believe she is at a point that she would understand this though … if I said to her that I wanted to set some boundaries, I feel like she would have a panic attack right then and there, sigh.  So, her being angry (? - not sure what her reasoning is) with my trip and not speaking to me is really a blessing in disguise, because I feel like she is really laying the groundwork necessary for the changes that need to come.

Okay work keeps preventing me from writing more, lol, so I shall publish …