What did I write in the last couple days that has me suddenly getting spam comments about s*n*o*r*i*n*g?? Lol! My lame attempt at not getting more spam on it.
Getting here late today, but got a lot of work done so far. Also set up bunk bed delivery … the underbed storage is out of stock (1st salesperson said it was in stock, second call said it wasn’t, third call said it was, fourth call said it wasn’t again, frustrating!) so it will come Tuesday and then the underbed storage won’t be here for a couple weeks. MBFF’s hubby is going to help me move stuff around tomorrow night: bringing the old BB to the garage, putting DD’s furniture in her new room (but not set up, will be in the middle as the room is being painted Sunday), getting DS6’s headboard out of the room and into the garage … so the boys will basically be sleeping on mattresses on the floor for a few days until the bed arrives, but that is the way we need to do it because I don’t have anyone to move the stuff out for me next Monday or Tuesday. Doesn’t matter, they will think it is fun, lol.
Chicken was terrific yesterday. Food was all good and on plan, did my Get Chiseled DVD, more room cleaning , AND cut the grass. WI this morning was down another pound at 148.6. I think I am meant to stick with the Firm, lol.
Food:
Exercise is Kickboxing class tonight.
Tomorrow is exercise day off, but not really, because I will be moving furniture. I am ordering Chinese for everyone since they are helping me do stuff … but I will be okay, I just get shrimp with broccoli. No ‘formal’ exercise. Saturday I will do a DVD before we head out school shopping.
Things have been okay lately with MBFF. Some of the things I discussed with the T. the other day were enlightening, why she is the way she is, some very unhealthy habits she has that I seem to fall into the trap of. I am going away in 18 days and she doesn’t even know yet because I don’t know how she will react, so that sort of sucks some of the fun out of it. My mom, my family, my other BFF, my therapist, my boss … everyone else knows, everyone else is happy for me. MBFF is not going to be happy. MBFF doesn’t want me to move on in life. Sigh. But if I remove her from the situation, everything else I feel so happy about, happier than I have in a long time.
When I think about talking to her about it, I get very anxious and my heart rate quickens. Am I crazy or what? I was going to talk to her today, but then she will be at my house tomorrow night and I don’t want things to be strained, so maybe I will wait and talk to her at the end of the evening? lol … I don’t know. I am making a much bigger deal out of this than I should. Sigh.
laura705
August 6th, 2009 at 12:59 pm
Something’s definitely not right when you can’t tell a friend something good without feeling anxious about it. You’ll probably learn how to deal with it with your T, but if your friend really doesn’t want you to move on or can’t accept it, that jeopardizes the friendship.
Be careful moving everything!
kotapaint
August 6th, 2009 at 1:36 pm
Have to agree with L705, if you are anxious about telling your friend something good about yourself, then something is definitely not right with that relationship. Sounds like friend has abandonment issues of her own?
loosingme
August 6th, 2009 at 1:40 pm
I agree with above….maybe MBF needs to have T more than you do. I am beginning to think her issues are the root, and yours are just the offspring.
Yes, yes, I actually thought about staying up this morning…LOL Another night like this, and I may actually do that!
And I do hope you will be able to use some if not all of the clothes, if not, feel free to pass them along to someone who can.
Kelly
August 6th, 2009 at 1:54 pm
Thanks guys. She is actually in therapy, and has done a few more sessions than I have (diff therapist of course). She acknowledges that she has problems - no boundaries - with her own mother and another person in her life, but she doesn’t see that she oversteps her boundaries with me. Actually, when I get upset if she is critical about something I say, she says that I just “can’t handle the truth”. ANYtime anyone doesn’t agree with her, that is her comeback - they can’t handle the truth, don’t like hearing the truth, etc. Sure, I admit, I am far from perfect and I am sure that not every decision I make is the right one, but this extends far beyond that.
lindat
August 6th, 2009 at 5:15 pm
So don’t tell her.. You don’t need anyone’s approval but your own and if she is going to make you feel crappy, then don’t say a word.. and really, what kind od a real friend does that? As sad as it may be, some friendships aren’t emant to alst forever. Doesn’t eman they weren’t valuable, but some have an expiration date IMHO