I am dreading today.

I will come back and recap my weekend later.  I had a great time both Friday and Saturday.  Great conversations, I feel much clearer about some things.  Overall, I feel wonderful.  I feel really good about where R and I are right now, and I had a fabulous shopping day with mom.  Just wonderful.

Today though, is another story.  MBFF’s two (of her 3) children’s bday party.  I was up until 1 am making the adult cake, and I also made a quiche for her mother for her birthday.  Yet we haven’t spoken on the phone since the ‘blowout’.  She did IM me Friday like normal, but I haven’t had so much as a text from her Fri-Sat which is not like her, of course.  But I am angry, and I feel she owes me an apology.  She isn’t being a BFF, that is for sure.  She is such a hypocrite and I am tired of it.  It is disturbing that she couldn’t take 30 seconds to even see how yesterday went.  It sounds silly, but it was important to me, and SBFF took time out of her birthday weekend to text and call me about it.  But … they are just different.

What bothers me about today is that I know she has been talking to her mom about me (they are such gossipers, its terrible) and maybe even a couple other people that I will see today.  She can’t tell her mom the whole fight, she has to leave out what she did wrong because her mother can’t know about what is going on in her life.  I didn’t do ANYthing wrong though, at all!  I am just tired of her trying to run my life.

And by me sitting here obsessing about it, I am letting her do it again, aren’t I?  It isn’t in her control.  Isn’t in my control.  It is in God’s control and I will take my kids to the party, I will socialize with some friends, and I will watch my children have a good time. 

So off I go …