Almost July
29Jun2009 Filed under: Life Author: KellyGood morning. Oh, wait, it is after 2 pm here. Where has the day gone?
Work has been incredibly busy. After this week, things should simmer down a bit. I think. No, maybe after next week. Well whatever, I have a four day weekend coming up - a desperately needed one!! Tomorrow morning twins have a check up for camp and then its to the office we go with two back to back meetings which are going to be very stressful. It certainly helps the day go by more quickly though.
B: Raisin bran, 1% milk, coffee
S: Apple, yogurt
Late lunch: Tuna on 100 cal flatbread thingy
D: Tilapia? Unsure
Exercise: Hmmph. Hip is definitely still improving. When my new shoes arrive, I may give them a whirl. Not sure.
Goal: PMSish, goal is to not snack this evening and to not start baking a bunch of stuff to eat. See, I am even THINKING as I type that “Gee what can I bake up?” Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Okay, have to write a tutorial on a process for a meeting tomorrow. Fun!
HUGS!
ETA: I’m a loser. I baked. And baked again. I did whip up a recipe of Zucchini Risotto though which came out fabulous! Unfortunately, I didn’t eat it. I made it tonight to go with Tilapia for dinner tomorrow. Tonight I had a bowl of light ice cream, 3 chocolate chip cookies, and 2 cupcakes for dinner. Yes, that was dinner. Well, to be honest, if I had ate a normal dinner - PMSing, I still would have ate the junk anyway. At least I just ate what I really wanted. If it were one day a month, it wouldn’t be a problem. The problem is it is 8 days out of the month, minimum. And, can this be? It is getting worse as I get older. I definitely see the pattern. I may need to revert to medication again. There might be a positive to the side effects for those: who needs a sex drive when you don’t have a sex life? 
On top of dealing with pmdd, I am super bummed about this hip thing. I tried on my new shoes - LOVE them. But of course I have to actually try them out. To determine whether or not I should take them out on a test run, I ran - three strides - down the hall, and each time my right foot hit the ground, I felt it in my hip. I know I am bitching an awful lot about this, so I apologize. But I HATE NOT being able to exercise! I hate losing control over anything in my life. Which is ironic, because one thing I SHOULD be able to completely control (FOOD), I struggle with.
laura705
June 29th, 2009 at 2:52 pm
Sorry your activities on Saturday got rained out, but yesteday sounded nice. Hope your hip is back to normal soon! I like those shoes you ordered. New Balance is a good brand.
julia91
June 29th, 2009 at 3:26 pm
hey! best of luck to you!
shallweshrink
June 29th, 2009 at 11:08 pm
I covet your dinner. Sometimes being a girl is such a pain in the arse.
Hope your hip feels better soon.
TawnyaInControl
June 30th, 2009 at 9:29 am
Wow, Kelly! What’s going on with your hip? Geez, that is crap. I hate it when my exercising is stopped too.
…but on the “Zen” side of things, maybe, perhaps, perchance… this is a great time for you since you are reflecting so much? You have been thinking about things (raising your family with values, reflecting on your childhood, and managing anger stemming from XH) alot, and you’ve got garbage that has surfaced that you’re beginning to sort through. Mind, body, spirit stuff… ?
Our minds are powerful things. You do so well with sorting and concluding–even for a moment. That’s one of the reasons I keep up on your blog. It’s fascinating to me. …positive energy.
TawnyaInControl
June 30th, 2009 at 9:33 am
PS–You’re quite the opposite of a “loser”, btw, fyi. (Note that I am increasing my use of acronyms.
) You’ve succeeded at many things that are important to you! That makes you a winner. And the fact that you keep pushin’ forward through the BS of your past and present, that makes you a survivor. You’re doing alright, Sister!
loosingme
June 30th, 2009 at 10:23 am
maybe time to make an appt to see someone about the hip. sorry it’s still bothering you.
You know, sometimes I feel I am such a control freak, why the heck can’t I control food, but then I wonder, if I use up all my control in other areas, I just get lazy and feel rebellious with food. I don’t know. I didn’t explain it very well. It will probably always be a struggle. Maybe plan for ONE off plan thing during these days each day….and then you may have more will power knowing you are allowing yourself something each day to indulge with….I don’t know. It is sooooo hard.
Glad you enjoyed 5 guys….I was lmao at vicki.
My step sis did come and pick up those clothes this weekend but I picked a few out for you. I will try and send them before we leave, if not, when we get back. I picked out the abercrombie stuff sizes 12 or 14 for ds.