All I can do this morning is wonder how she is, what she is doing, what it is like.  Her sister never called me last night.  I hate to be a pest but if I don’t hear from her, I will give her a call this afternoon.  I have to face MBFF tonight and I haven’t mentioned SBFF (they are friendly, but not friends like they would do something together without me, but all three of us do hang together sometimes) and MBFF always asks how SBFF is … and she is going to ask tonight and I will crumble.  It’s okay.  I just keep telling myself that this is for the best and she needs this help.  I just want her to get better, but I know that this is a big process.  DD saw me crying last night, I told her Aunt **** was sick but she was going to the doctor.  DD was very concerned and asked if she had a fever, lol.  So sweet.

Okay … I have a glorious dentist appt to deal with this morning, I will save this and post more from work later.

I’m back. (I do like the save option here).  I read all your comments.  Thanks so so so much.  It is nice to come and talk about it, because she is embarrassed and I cannot tell anyone, and I won’t do that to her.  I am still waiting to hear something … does anyone know if they are allowed visitors?  I guess it could vary.  I am pretty sure if I call, for HIPAA laws or whatever, they won’t let me speak to her.  This is consuming me, all I can think about.  I cried all the way to work wondering what she felt like when she woke up this morning. 

Alright, going to try and have a semblance of a normal day.  MBFF’s 3 kids are coming to sleep over tonight, so I promised a “Welcome Spring Slumber Party”.  I haven’t quite figured out what that is yet, lol.  I am going to make BBQ chicken and corn on the cob and mac and cheese … kid approved foods.  And pastel-sprinkled cupcakes.  I have to say - last night I kept wanting to make the buttercream icing for the cupcakes so that I could make extra and eat some.  My classic coping mechanism.  But I didn’t!  Had a Coke Zero, watched Greys and went to bed.  I did do some little house stuff - rehung a coat hanging thing, changed the oven light bulb and one of the recessed lighting in the kitchen which is a real PITA.  And I just had to laugh … 8 pot lights in the kitchen, changed the one last night, woke up this morning and a different one blew out!  And they last like 5 years, go figure! lol  Oh, and did my yoga/pilates as planned … that was 40 minutes, I didn’t do the treadmill after. 

Today is exercise day off, although something tells me I won’t have a lack of exercise tonight with 6 kids sleeping at home.  Unfortunately today is COLD here in NY, so probably won’t be taking our walk to the playground.  That stinks.

Foodie -

B: Nutrigrain lowfat waffles, light syrup, coffee

L: Campbells Select Italian Wedding soup, 6 saltines

S: GS Apple

D: Unsure, I don’t really like BBQ chicken so maybe will just make myself tuna or something

Not sure about tomorrow’s date.  Clearly not in the mood really.  That’s still up in the air.  I am starving … counting down the minutes until lunch, lol.