I am here .. grudgingly.  I am irritated that I lost all my old blogs.  Although yeah … I guess they were a year or two old, lol.  And I guess I am not one who enjoys change.  I am not happy about not being able to visit ONE page and see all my journal girls right in a row.  Honestly, this is too time consuming and I just don’t have the time to - and won’t be able to - visit so many different blogs each day to comment.  But I am here, giving it a shot.  Rah rah, etc. etc.

 Moving on.  It’s Monday.  Due to the time change, it was dark when I woke up, and raining.  And I was exhausted from the weekend, and emotionally exhausted from life.  Last night I sat on my bed twice - 6 pm and 7 pm - and both times layed back and fell asleep for five minutes.  That is soooooooo unlike me.  I am always running, running, running.  Even when I have nothing to do, I am so restless that I MAKE something for myself to do.  Anyway, last night DS12 was up in the middle of the night and threw up.  This morning I get the little ones off to school, go to my dentist appointment, and I was on the way to work when the school nurse called and DD6 threw up in her classroom.  I just have to laugh.  Otherwise, I go insane.  So ran up to the office, grabbed some work, headed right back out the door to pick her up.  Then I think of jerky XH who has never, ever had to miss or leave work in his life for a sick child.  I just shake my head.

So that is how my Monday is.  The weekend … sigh.  Date Friday night.  It went really well - he was very nice, NORMAL, and we sat and had 2 glasses of wine and talked for 3 hours.  I emailed him the next day to say thanks.  There was no huge fireworks, but he was nice and I would do it one more time just to give it a shot (this is me talking to you guys, NOT the email, lol!).  So anyway … he kept making comments like wait till you meet my dog, you are going to love her, etc. etc.  One day you will meet her, blah blah blah.  I actually thought (silly me!) okay, this guy likes me far more than I like him.  Then … his email back was very nice, but did not say anything about wanting to do it again, it was like thanks, etc. had fun, have a nice weekend.  That’s it!  So clearly I read people wrong.  And I know it is soon, but ladies, this is coming from a guy who I was starting to consider a text stalker who would text me allllllllllllll day long.  And nothing since.

And like I said, I wasn’t really into him, BUT I am so surprised at the way our conversation was going, he wasn’t into me.  Oh well.  Weird.

Then the other guy - date from two weeks ago - he keeps emailing emailing emailing … but I am getting annoyed, like I don’t want a virtual date man … either we need to spend some face time or you are wasting my time. 

Saturday I woke up and it was GORGEOUS so I went for a walk on the trail, then walked into town and got a haircut and eyebrows - was terrific.  At night I went out for dinner, drinks and a movie with my two BFFs.  Had only two cocktails but they were strong, or something, because they hit me hard!  I was nauseous all night long!  We went to see Hes Not That Into You - how appropriate.  Sigh.  It was cute, but oddly depressing as it just reaffirmed that there are a bunch of jerks out there to date.  One month ago, pre-Match, I would have told you dating was exciting and so much fun.  Now I am rethinking that and wondering if they accept divorced single mothers into the convent.

Food … ahhh, food.  Well, food was bad this weekend.  And not just like oh-I-ate-out-all-weekend bad, like Sunday night feeling sorry for myself so I am going to make four pcs of cinnamon bread toast with <gasp> real butter bad!!  And maybe even a couple oreos and couple doritos.

Yeah, so at this rate, not only will I be single forever, but fat again too.

Okay not really - at least I know when to reel myself in again.

Oh, last week my boss finally set up Skype to chat with his boss (who is in St Louis) and whom I haven’t seen in maybe, uhhh, 7 or 8 years?  Well, 100 pounds ago, that’s for sure!  So after he “saw” me on skype he called the next day and was saying I was a mere shadow of my former self, and good for me.  Was sort of nice, being that I am now in maintenance for so many years, it’s not like I hear compliments like that anymore.

Shadow of my former self … interesting.  In so many more ways than he realizes.

Okay, so here is the food for today.

B: Oatmeal, coffee

L: Campbells Select Italian Wedding Soup, crackers

D: Probably Turkey burgers

If I need any snacks  (IF, ha!) I have fiber bars and apples.

MUST workout today.  I won’t tell you how many days it will have been since I formally exercised.  Okay yes I will, four days.  Eeek.  So, Firm DVD, something heavy duty today!

Okay I am going to PUBLISH this baby then figure out how to add my IBFFs to my blogroll.