The day I decided to play in the mud

Posted by kaylajay on January 30th, 2012 |Filed Under Uncategorized |

Special thanks to laura1562 for telling me about the other option on beach body. Just ordered turbo fire! Very excited to start the new program.

So I found out about something called the tough mudder. Basically you pay to be thrown in the mud and electrified. It looks like fun! Well, the big military guys in the video look like they are having fun anyways -_- I want to do it! It’ll be here in Vegas in October. So I did the calculations- I could be well into onederland by then and able to kick butt!

Now the part that makes me want to bury myself in the mud…
Or better yet, shove other peoples faces in the mud-

Some of the guys at work are doing it. They are working hard to talk the hot (aka skinny) girls to do it with them. Guess who didn’t get asked to do it even though I totally want to? Yeah. Now I know what it felt like to be not asked to the prom or picked for dodgeball, apparently it doesn’t get better once you’re out of school! Plus one of the girls looks and acts exactly like I did before the weight gain. Because I know these guys like me as a person (eye roll) I don’t blame them for not wanting to hang out with the fat girl, but it still hurts. I’m a “nice girl with a pretty face”. awesome. shoot me now (:

So as much as I’d like to see the mud ruin their perfect fake eyelashes…
It is my own fault. I let myself get this way and I don’t feel beautiful so my personality changes and becomes withdrawn. I’m all done being the token fat friend and am so ready for this to be an unpleasant memory.


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  1. incontrol2day on January 30, 2012 2:24 pm

    I totally relate to this post. I was miserable at my peak weight and it became a vicious cycle. I ate because I felt bad about myself. I felt bad about myself so I ate.

    I hope you work through everything. You deserve to be picked first!

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