I have 4 weeks left of my first semester of third year.  Scary anyone?!

But hey, winter is a time for people to get closer, and typically put more weight around their middles.  Not for me this year!  I’m keeping up with the exercise, and my muscles are still achey from my street dance class but that’s a good sign.  I’m within my points this week - also good!

I’m staying at my parents’ this weekend and it’s nice to spend some time with them.  They have a lot of trees around where they live and it’s so pretty with all the reds, golds, and still some greens too.  And they have cats too so at least I don’t miss mine as much!

Again, I don’t feel like I’ve lost much this week and am expecting to stay the same or maybe gain the half pound back.  I’m not being defeatist,  I simply suspect this is the case.  I might steal mum and dad’s scale to see where I am at….

Ok so not California, more a wintry East Scotland, but hey - who cares!

My dance class last night was amazing!  I really enjoyed it and while I was all sweaty and sore by the end I really felt I’d accomplished something.  I got a “good job!” and thumbs up from the instructor too woo!  Go me

I had one of the epiphany feelings on the way home from the class.  The scales and the measuring tape (and the Wii Fit!) aren’t showing changes, but something is.  I felt really empowered yesterday; my body feels stronger and I feel more in tune with it.  Maybe it’s my stamina or just my mental attitude but there’s a new voicing making herself heard in my head telling the little demons to “Just fuck off!”  Hehe.

Today has been really productive too.  Coolio :)  I just wanted to check in.  I’ve got some stuff to do like notes and what not.

Hi girls!

A couple of things going on in my life today.  Well, a few…

Firstly, I am a bit worried about reaching my goal.  (Don’t know if I said this yesterday, but if I did I’m repeating myself) :)  I’ve 12 weeks to lose 21lbs.  So most weeks I need to lose 2lbs a week.  While I am glad I had a resemblance of a loss last week, I am doubtful I’ll be able to make it there by the 21st of January.  I’m a bit sad, but I know I will reach it as soon as possible.  I’m following my plan, and doing exercise, I refuse to starve myself in order to reach a goal.

Good things now!  I have been so super productive today!  I love this buzz.  I seem to get far more done when I’ve got lots on my plate, and today I have got tons done.  Go me!

Also, I got myself a weight loss buddy!  She’s doing WW too, and we’ve just been emailing back and forth for a week or so but it’s great to get emails from someone who knows how crappy it can be at times, and how good it can be at others.

Last thing to tell you - I have a quasi-interview thing on Friday for a permanent (paid!) research assistant position.  As an undergrad, the benefits this would provide me with are exponential!  And, if I do get it, I could earn up to £60 extra a week from it.  Cool huh?  Wish me luck!

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Ok… so one thing I didn’t include (I forgot, honestly).  My lunch totally blew my points for the day… Tonic restaurant I could not resist!  That means I can’t really have tea :s  Though I did earn 19 activity points today so I might have a small tea anyway after dance class.  I’m being super good the rest of the week anyway

*Phew*!

As you know, I was dreading this morning.  My first weekly weigh-in with weight watchers.  For the last 4 or 5 weeks I’ve been down a pound up a pound down a pound up a pound, between 10st 10lbs and 10st 11lbs.  Which, I’ll tell you, sucks.

I had ordered new weighing scales etc. but they haven’t arrived (grr… stupid buzzer).  The postman isn’t always the most reliable, and say “oh I couldn’t get in”.  When you’re in the flat if that door buzzer goes off you know about it, let me tell you, so someone’s telling porky pies but never mind.  I’ll be out tomorrow morning as well so I’m making do with the old scales until then.

Oh that’s something else I wanted to say!  I’m not caring about my Wii Fit weight anymore.  That has no decimal points and I do it at different times in the day.  The means, since weight can fluctuate by 2.2lbs in a day it all varies.  And I just don’t have time to do my exercises on it in the morning.  So I have resolved that I will use my Wii Fit everyday, but when it suits me.  And the weight that counts is the one on my WW graph.

So what did I weigh in at already? I hear you say.  Well, it’s a tiny loss.  It really is.  Only -0.5lbs for the week.  But I can tell you I am so glad to see a 9 instead of a 10!  My scales read in kg (hence why I bought new ones, plus the fact I don’t like them) and when I saw 67.9kg my heart sunk, it really did.  But I have an online metric converter that converts kg into anything you want, so you should have heard my gasp when I saw 67.9kg = 10st 9.5lbs!  Wooo!
I know, it’s a tiny loss, but given the alcohol and Ben & Jerry’s this week, it’s sure welcome.

Well girls, my weigh in is tomorrow.  And I had a sneaky step on to the Wii Fit this morning, just to see where I was going.

10st 11lbs!  That’s a gain!  Yes, I had some Ben & Jerry’s yesterday because that’s what my friend brought over.  But I’ve been following the WW plan to the letter, so surely I must have lost something before hand?  Evidently not.  Grr.  So I’m eating minimal amounts today and drinking heaps of water to hopefully flush out any that is being retained.

And I’m buying those new scales I don’t care if Will doesn’t like it grr.  I’m getting some damn accurate scales.

I feel a bit strange tonight…

I’ve been at work for a long shift, which was tiring and some of the new Christmas temps are strangely arrogant and know-it-all even though it’s only their second day.  (Not to worry, we sorted them out).  I’m having my best friend over tonight and she’ll probably bring something delicious!  However, I only have a few points to spare so I need to be careful.  I might end up going a little over, but I suppose that’s ok, at least I’m being accountable.  I don’t really think I’ll have lost any weight this week.  I need to spend more time in the gym.  Will and I really don’t have very much money.  The house is still a mess.

But I was walking home from work today and it’s a cold, clear, crisp winter night with no clouds.  The streets are quitening down, the tenements around me are dotted with lights on and the rooms look all nice and cosy.  The air tastes fresh and revitalising.  Peoples’ thoughts are turning to Christmas, and the Christmas lights are being put up around town for getting switched on at the beginning of November.  I caught Will just as he was leaving for work and got a kiss and an I love you, and a big smile.  And I feel strangely content with this little life of mine.  I’m not changing the world, I’m just doing a little bit at a time.  I have a boy who loves me and wants to marry me one day and have children with me.  I have a friend who is just like my adopted sister, we are so close.  I have a family that loves me.  I might have a little bit of weight to lose but I’m healthy, I’m alive.  It was one of those moments when the universe just falls into place.

I feel exhausted!

Work today was super busy.  It was like the very first of the Christmas rush and I was running around like crazy all day.  My feet are so swollen!  At least it’s easing off now.

I was very impressed with myself today.  Normally after a drinking session I have a binge the next day, but today I had a fruit smoothie to wake myself up, a carrot and coriander soup (yummy) and I’m having just a tomato pasta dish for tea.  The only problem with being so busy is that I feel so hungry.  My pasta dish is cooking at the moment, so I’m making sure to drink plenty of water, and hoping that tea will satisfy that noisy beast in my tummy!

Being at work, I didn’t get much of a chance for “official” exercise, but I was running around all day, and I’ll be doing a lot of cleaning in the house after tea so that helps.  It feels so messy!  We’re having to dry all our clothes inside because it’s been raining for a week now (ah…. Autumn in Scotland…) but it just makes the place seem cluttered.  But, we need clothes so oh well!

I’m doing well on points again today, but I have this feeling I won’t have lost anything come Tuesday (my weigh-in day).  Not sure why, I just feel that even though I’m sticking to my points and doing exercise, I don’t feel like I’ve lost any weight, or inches.  Nevertheless, I’m taking positive steps to improve my situation so that’s the main thing.  I ordered a new food scale today because my old one has just completely died.  It was only £11 so that’s quite good, and it’s very accurate.  If all goes to plan, it’ll arrive on Tuesday - which is handy because that’ll coincide with my week 2 start.

Anyway… tea time I suppose!

Last night was the work night out.  I had an awesome time, I really did.  But I drank a lot of alcohol.  Though I am proud of myself for a couple of reasons:

• Normally I would have avoided the consequences and not recorded them on WW - I recorded every single drink
• I was clever enough when I got home to make myself some toast and drink 4 pints of water
• I went to bed as soon as the above had been done (around 12.45am)
• I’ve woken up, showered, exfoliated, cleansed-toned-moisturized and I feel refreshed!

These obviously don’t sound like huge achievements, and they’re somewhat overshadowed by the fact that I did drink a lot!  But I’m holding myself accountable and that certainly isn’t something I always did last time I was on WW.  Better than that, because I’d saved so many points through the week, I still have 0.5 points left in the bank.  Again - a small amount but I’m not in negatives!!  Luckily, my drink of choice - Southern Comfort - is only one point.

It’s strange feeling so refreshed.  I had a somewhat interrupted sleep, but I feel clean and happy.  My eyes are a little sleepy but that’s not too much of a drama.  I’m at work today and expecting all but the tee-totallers who were out last night to be very hungover.  It may be cruel, but I go in with my make-up done in light tones so my eyes look bright and shiny, and I don’t look all pale.  On the plus side though, I do get them all food and coffee to make them feel better

Well, I better get ready for aforementioned work anyway, just thought I’d update.

Oh dear… well we didn’t get to the cinema.  Since our car is officially off the road till it gets fixed (and quite possibly longer) we were set to get the bus.  Some buses give change, but the one were meant to get didn’t.  I think Will has been quite tired and has a result has been a grumpy sh**.  I got pretty fed up with him in the end, and I think he’s finally realised as he seems to be making more of an effort now - though it did but a slight dampener on my mood.

However - on a good side I’ve finished my food for the day and I saved 5.5 points, so already I’ve built up 7 activity points and saved 9 food points for this week.  Good progress - let’s hope it shows in the weight loss.  I’d really like to get a more accurate scale, but since I spent all that money on the other one I don’t think Will would be too happy.  It just is annoying that my one only does kilograms, and to one decimal place.  All those ounces make a difference, not just whole pounds!  But even if it doesn’t show, I’m staying in my points so that’s good.  I’m glad I decided to go back to WW.

Woop woop!  Go me!

I’m having a good day.  I’m staying within my points, and have saved up some activity points so I could have a snack at the cinema later if I want.  We’re going to see Burn After Reading it’s meant to be very good.

I have been so productive today!  Two practical sessions, a research skills class then 3 hours in the library in a short but focused burst during which I wrote my whole practical report.  Go me!

The exercise has just been walking today - an hour’s worth though so still pretty good - and I’m skipping my dance class tonight since we’re going to the cinema.  I might do some Wii Fit stuff later though.  We’ll just see how it goes.  But I’m glad that I’m doing well in keeping within my points, it’s a good start.

Hope you’re all having a good day!