I went to the doctors today.  I’ve been concerned about not losing weight and my persistant apathy.  I have been treated for depression before with Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) which provides you with self-diagnostic tools and stages to follow when you begin to experience symptoms.  I had to follow the final stage in mine today and go see a doctor.

She was really nice and helpful.  Because all the women in my family are overweight, she reckons there may be a hereditary thyroid issue, however if it exists in me at all it’s so minimal it wouldn’t be worth treating.  There are some other possibilities we went through as well but essentially, I just have to persevere and concentrate on a body goal rather than a weight one.

I have to go back next Tuesday, but she thinks I may need to go on a minor prescription of anti-depressants on a very low dosage; just enough to restore chemical balance and help me function.  I don’t think my mum is too enamoured with the idea, but I think it is the right choice to make.  I’ve no issues to work through, no particular reason for my low mood so CBT would be a waste of time and NHS resources (my words, not hers).  I have a lot to worry about right now: weight, money, family, studies, work, it would just take one thing off my hands and leave me more capable to deal with the rest.

I had my weigh in today as well.  I only lost 2 ounces.  However, my measurements are much more positive.  Since Friday I’ve lost the following:

• Chest - I”
• Waist - 1.5″
• Tummy - 1.5″
• Hips - 0.25″
• Right Thigh - 0.5″

That’s a 4.75″ loss overall and really good for just a few days!  I’m glad I decided to restart taking measurements, because it shows me I am making steps in the right direction even if I’m not losing weight I’m losing size!  It’s given me a boost to my motivation and I’m proud of myself for achieving that.