Hello all.

It’s grey, rainy and miserable today, and my mood is exactly the same.

I had a horrible night last night.  Due to the day most probably.  I was up from 7.30am, doing labs straight from 9 till 12, classes 12-3, more labs 3-5, 40 minutes for tea then first aid course till 9, and a midnight opening at work for Gears of War 2.  I got to bed about 3am.  I felt awful.  Sick and disorientated - like when you’re drunk but I was as sober as a tee-totaller.  Still not feeling great.
Had an off the wagon day too.  But today I’m wondering why I care.  I’ve not lost any weight in 9 weeks when average out.  Now, even when I do all my exercise and eat exactly right I lose ounces?!  I have to wait till the end of the November to see if I lose weight before a doctor will do anything.  But what’s the point?

I feel disillusioned.  I’m sure I’ll shake myself out of it but right now, I’m sick to the back teeth of doing my best and getting no where.