I feel a bit strange tonight…

I’ve been at work for a long shift, which was tiring and some of the new Christmas temps are strangely arrogant and know-it-all even though it’s only their second day.  (Not to worry, we sorted them out).  I’m having my best friend over tonight and she’ll probably bring something delicious!  However, I only have a few points to spare so I need to be careful.  I might end up going a little over, but I suppose that’s ok, at least I’m being accountable.  I don’t really think I’ll have lost any weight this week.  I need to spend more time in the gym.  Will and I really don’t have very much money.  The house is still a mess.

But I was walking home from work today and it’s a cold, clear, crisp winter night with no clouds.  The streets are quitening down, the tenements around me are dotted with lights on and the rooms look all nice and cosy.  The air tastes fresh and revitalising.  Peoples’ thoughts are turning to Christmas, and the Christmas lights are being put up around town for getting switched on at the beginning of November.  I caught Will just as he was leaving for work and got a kiss and an I love you, and a big smile.  And I feel strangely content with this little life of mine.  I’m not changing the world, I’m just doing a little bit at a time.  I have a boy who loves me and wants to marry me one day and have children with me.  I have a friend who is just like my adopted sister, we are so close.  I have a family that loves me.  I might have a little bit of weight to lose but I’m healthy, I’m alive.  It was one of those moments when the universe just falls into place.