Wooo!

Spoke to my mum today, and her and my dad are going to buy me a Wii and a Wii Fit for Christmas!  I am awfully excited :D  LOL.  The only thing is I won’t get it until Christmas but that’s ok.  I was getting a defeatist and thinking “argh I’m never going to reach my goal I just keep yoyo-ing it sucks!” and was seriously considering giving up.  I was on the brink of it… Teetering between hating this obsession and needing it.

But this morning I got dressed and looked at myself in the mirror.  I was standing in my underwear and thought to myself imagine if this were a bikini - if I give up, this is what I’m going to look like in a bikini.  You see, I have a mental image goal to accompany my final one - and that’s to look great by the time I go on holiday at the end of July next year.  My mental image is me on a beach with pretty hair, a floppy sunhat, a gorgeous bikini from Bravisimmo, some chunky jewellery, big sunglasses and more important - a smile!  Because in my mental image I’m slim with curves in the right places and I’m toned.  In short, I look great!  And that’s my mental motivation.

That’s what got me back on my feet today, and renewed my motivation.  I feel as enthusiastic as I did when I first started this venture!  It’s good :D  I feel good, I feel like I have more energy.  Since I can’t do high impact stuff right now I am going to try and get swimming, but I do need to get a swimsuit that fits first (which will be from Bravissimo) and so I need to save.  But now that I’m back at uni I’m doing at least 40 minutes of walking Monday to Friday - that will help.  I’ve cut down my intake too, so for now it will have to do until I can get my swimsuit.

I think part of the problem is that I lost perspective.  I was getting to down on myself that I wasn’t reaching my goal - but then I took a step back and had a look.  Ultimately my goal is that mental image, reaching and maintaining it by the time I go on holiday on the 14th of July 2009.  I have just under 10 months - if I work hard and I put in the effort I can easily reach that goal.  I won’t even need to lose 2 lbs a week - I need to focus on maintaining a sensible diet, increasing exercise and being realistic about trying to change how I look.

It’s impossible to do this as a quick fix.  Well, do to it healthily at any rate.  I am going to eat chocolate at times, I am going to have a drink if I’m out, but there is no reason these things can’t be incorporated into a lifestyle which is healthy overall.  I will need to moderate exercise and I’m not always going to like it and there will be times when studying is stressful that I just won’t be in the mood.  But if I can do just 3 hours a week I can make a difference.  My walking to uni Monday to Friday equates to a 3 hours and 20 minutes (I think) so that is making a difference.  I want to do 3 hours on top of that, but it can be done.  I need to remember every step counts and that I CAN!

It’s good to be back!