Ugh…  Sorry, this might not all make sense.  I’m writing this because I’m absolutely desperate to eat something, but I know that would be senseless cravings.  I hate TOM!  I have been put on a new contraceptive - the depo provera injection - because it is the only thing that controls my menstrual cycle.  I was on it for 2 years, and 6 months ago wanted to try something not as strong to see if my body was finally settled (I’ve been prescribed various pills to try and help my periods since I was 13).  I’ve basically had a period for those whole 6 months.  You have no idea how much that sucks.

I’m a bit concerned becuse the depo contains steroids which increase appetite.  I know it’s just late at night and I’m quite hormonal just now, but I feel really down that I’ve lost that momentum and excitement and motivation I was feeling when I got my new bras.  All my mind seems to be focusing on right now is food.  I hate having that fixation; it comes and goes with me to be honest but it seems tonight my mind is going to be stuck on one thing - food.  I think I’m just going to go and try and sleep and hope that in the morning my good mood will have fought it’s way through again.

Sorry for the TMI, another bad habit of mine, but I need to write it somewhere.  Unfortunately it’s just not something the bf understands.  AAAARGH times like this being a girl sucks.