Today I have to admit I ate a lot more than I should and I did it simply because I was sad. I had a big cookie and a chai latte and other little things here and there that really were horrible for me. I usually don’t write about stuff other than dieting but today I feel the need. The bookstore I work at is closing for good and we have to be out of there by mid January. I have always said I love my job more than anything. As a young college student, most of my friends have shitty waitressing jobs and I’ve had lots of horrible part times jobs including at a movie theater and a fast food restaurant for a time. Everyone at this bookstore is like a family. We go out on weekends and we have game nights and parties and work is just so much fun. We all make fun of each other and have inside jokes and really enjoy each others company.

I found out today that we have to find another job. It was such a shock and everyone cried here and there. I think I cried the most. I love my job so much. I feel liked and important. It is the first job I’ve had out of 5 in the last few years where I felt accepted. I wanted to stay there throughout all of college until I found my career. It is such a huge blow. I hate this economy crisis we are going through.

I feel like everything in my life has been coming together in the last few months. I’ve lost weight, guys have shown interest, I feel good about myself, I like school, and I absolutely love every single thing about my job. I am not in the mood for my contentedness to go away so soon!

Tomorrow I’m job hunting.

And going to the gym to work off my off-track eating for today.