Worst month EVER. My life usually has low points, which always seem to be awkward comical low points, but I’m usually a happy person. January is being labeled my crap month of the year. Not only did the rebound not the only one guy come back and then break up with me, but I got a bacterial infection in my uterus. Yes, apparently that can happen. I’ve also been having a lot of “Bad Body days”. Usually I have a high amount of confidence despite my weight. On Good Body days I feel skinny, I feel sexy, I eat better, I more active, and I much more positive. On Bad Body days I feel like a beached whale, I don’t want to get out of bed, which means I don’t get up and make a mildly healthy low calorie meal, instead it’s to the drive-thru batman! I will proudly say that through the weekend that I was confined to my bed on all sorts of antibiotics (THREE! ONE WAS A SHOT IN MY ASS!!!!) and a variety of pain killers and muscle relaxers (I don’t have a problem, I’m just a pussy and can’t take the pain) I still managed to keep my food intake low. The only fast food was Friday when my sister brought me my meds we ordered pizza and she had her own mini break down. I found out that my 40 weeks (any second NOW!!!) pregnant oldest sister gained 45 pounds during her pregnancy weighing in at 175lbs. Bitch. Not only is she,, pregnant ten pounds away from my goal, but I weigh 100 pounds heavier than my nine month pregnant OLDER sister. This is why being born into barbie genius land has draw backs. My mom has lost 40 lbs on this diet she created where she replaces two meals a day with cereal. And if I’m late to our lunches she orders me the fajitas, my weakness, instead of the fajita salad even though she knows I’m trying to lose weight. She is a very supportive person when it comes to me losing weight as long as I’m not skinnier than her. All subconsciously of course. She’ll nag me if I’m not eating enough and tell me I shouldn’t weigh below 180 ever, that’s my limit. My doctor told me my goal weight should be about 168. Of course, she takes me to lunch three times a week and shoots down my healthy suggestions and takes me to delicious Mexican restaurants.. oohh my mouth is watering. Damn it! The point is every morning is a new day, I can’t drink for another week bc of my meds so that definitely cuts out a lot of my calories. I’ve also decided that I am only going to drink two nights a week ( which is an improvement) and regulate it much much more. I want to walk on my treadmill every morning that i don’t go into work at the beginning and work up to six days a Weeks. Ok, that’s my rant for now!
Soon to Come : A list of reasons why I want to be skinny (dedicated to my CR/BF)
And “No sir, I will not be getting wasted and going home with you.”
Posted on January 22nd, 2010 by kaedynn23
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A second chance of freedom! I posted my first blog a few months back, then with a round of cheating boyfriend, dating a new great guy who ended up having more than one girlfriend, I am BACK! I’ve taken a major cut in food, way less fast food, way less drinkning! So I’m getting back on the wagon! I want to do this! I want to lose weight, get healthy and walk around NAKED!! I mean naked in public naked. I have ten months before my best friends wedding, and I am going to be a sexy maid of honor. My birthday is my slight mini goal. i want to be under 200 by my birthday, or at least at 200. So.. yeah thats it.
Posted on January 22nd, 2010 by kaedynn23
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Why, hello there! Lets see my name is Steph and I am a 24 year old sexy, vivacious, beautiful, out going, way to sexual, fat chick. I weigh about 275 right now and I’m re-beginning to count my calories and become more active tomorrow. Ill post pictures and other stuff soon. Food has been my obsession since I was a little girl. I grew up in Tulsa, OK until about the age of ten before I moved here to Texas. My mom and dad were divorced by my second bday and split me and my 3 siblings down the middle. My mom began to go to medical school during the day and taught night school to keep us afloat. Not only did she not really know how to cook, but she didn’t have the time. Before she married my step father we had a different resturant to eat at every night. i wasn’t even a little chubby then. My sister and i were very active so it all balanced. When i turned ten my mother married a doctor, moved us to texas, and began her residency. Not only did we keep even worse eating habbits, but we didnt really have anyone to play with so the weight just kept on building. I HAVE BEEN OBESE SINCE THE AGE OF ELEVEN. Once we settled in i made a group of girl friends who were all very accepting and supportive so my true personality was nutured besides my weight. I get hit on at bars, clubs, driving down the road constantly. Confidence really is important and I have PLENTY of that. The problem really is that I can’t quite keep my panties on, therefore holding down a man gets a little more complicated. Well that and I have HORRIBLE taste in men. But thats not what this is about. This is about the whole me weighing 275lbs. Let me add some something about my three older siblings : They all look like barbie dolls, my brother is even the spitting life size image of Ken. I mean blonde hair, skinny, beautiful faces, and we are all witty, intelligent, and the life of the party. I’ve been told my whole life that out of the four of us I have the most beautiful face of them all. But if you pay close attension to the people who say those things look at their eyes right after they say that… you’ll see pity. A woman pulled me aside at church when I was 17 and sat at a fabulous 217lbs and told me “you have a natural models face, just work on the body and you’ll be happy.” Man, people get upset when you calla lady a bitch in church! But in all truths, I am unhealthy, overwieght, and unhappy about it. My senior year of highschool I began to count my calories and in two months i lost 30lbs. I have no idea why i stopped. Next year is a very important year for me. In January my oldest sister will have her first child (a girl! and also the first planned pregnancy in our family since the 50’s!) I’ll be 25, finishing my first book, oh and the most important : My life long best friend is getting married in October and I am her Maid of Honor. Her fiance, the most perfect man in the world for her, loves her to the end of time. She could weigh 800lbs and he would tell her every pound was the most beautiful thing in the world. They are the type of couple that look and you know God made them for each other. I want nothing more to stand by her on that special day and I’m telling right now: I WILL NOT BE A FAT MAID OF HONOR! So, welcome to my blog and lets have some fun. I’ll write more later, but if i don’t actually work my boss / mother will kill me. TTYL!
Posted on November 2nd, 2009 by kaedynn23
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Posted on November 2nd, 2009 by kaedynn23
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