One year ago today I lost 100lbs. This morning I’m 8 pounds heavier. I’m upset, sure. It sucks. But what am I going to do about it now? Cry over it? I’ve already shed tears because of my weight gain. I’ve shed many confusing tears this past year. So much as changed in my life. I’ve gone through a complete change in my personal life. Between getting attention from men, breaking off my four year relationship with Ashley, telling my parents I’m totally and completely straight, going through countless guys in bars, drinking four times a week and then finally finding a wonderful guy to call my boyfriend. It’s been a hell of a ride that I’m still on. Who knows what the future holds for me? Life is so strange and down right wonky. The hard part is keeping up the health aspect of it too. It was so easy to lose weight when I didn’t have anything else going on in my life. Then suddenly all of this happens and I’m expected to lose weight too? Huh!? =P

Anyway. Yesterday was a good day. I had work from 11 - 7. It was really quiet in the store all day long. Indranie left around noon and came back later in the evening. After work Nicole, Shannon and I went to Kohls to go dress shopping for the wedding in September. I bought a dress! My first dress in.. gosh, I have no idea how long! It’s white with black designs all over it and a splash of pink lining in the midsection. It’s gorgeous and I’m really excited about it. I was so nervous that I wasn’t going to find anything but I did. Yay! It’s in a medium too so that makes me happy =P We shopped around a little bit more but couldn’t find the proper accessories for the outfit. I think I may just pull together some stuff that I have at home. A pair of flats, a bracelet and a bag. Maybe I could borrow a clutch or something from someone. Afterwards, I came home and heated up the last slice of the wheat pizza I had and watched Battle Star Galactica. BSG is a show that Drew is obsessed with and wanted me to give it a try so he brought me the first season. It’s not terrible but definitely wouldn’t have just upped and watched it if he hadn’t practically made me lol..

This morning I woke up around 9am. No coffee in the house this morning though. Gonna have my first cup before I head into work today. Starbucks. Yay! I was in a sour mood earlier because I checked my balance on my credit card and I was charged an overage fee. I think because the interest caught up with it. Ugh. I’m being so irresponsible with it so I got it down a little bit today. Sigh. I’m, unfortunately, not left with a lot of spending money this week. All I’m concerned about is getting to Drew this weekend. I’m sure it’ll work out. All I need is forty bucks for the train tickets. Tonight I’m going out with friends. We’re either seeing a movie or going to shoot some pool. Should be fun. Have to stay away from anything that is too expensive. A movie would be perfect. I’d bring my own popcorn and whatever else. Eat dinner from home. Sigh. Budgeting.. I’m not used to this =P Alright, girls. I’m off for the day. Have a good one.

- Nikki