Control yourself, take only what you need from it.
“Because other people tell you to go because they think you’re fat. I don’t think you’re fat. I want you to go because I love hearing how happy you are after.” —Said by Drew this morning after I said I don’t get mad at him when he tells me to go to the gym. This was his response.. <3
I slept HELLA late this morning. I opened my eyes, looked at the clock and it was 11:40am! WOW! I haven’t slept that late in a long time and I haven’t been getting very much sleep. Especially when I’m with Drew. Last weekend we got about four hours of rest. Eek. Gotta stop that. Anywho, sleep was good. Can’t complain. I made breakfast, watched a little TV, tooled around the computer and am drinking coffee right now. Work is at 3pm until 7pm so it should be an easy day. Plan is to get to the gym after work. I don’t care what I do. I need to sweat. I need to work my muscles. ANYTHING to get me back to SOME sort of routine. I’ll even take going for a half hour. At this point, I just need to get my body in motion. After the gym it’s home to make dinner. Not sure what I’m going to have. Perhaps a weight watchers meal? *shrug* I’ll make sure it’s healthy though. That’s for sure.
I’ve got to figure out how to curb my snacking appetite in the evening. I’m hoping the gym will help that out a little bit. I always want to snack at night, lately. I’ll come home from work at like.. 4pm and I’ll stress through out the entire evening because I just want to eat. I’ll go get a small bowl of chips. Then I’ll snack on some cottage cheese. I’ll open the fridge and eat some potato salad mom just made with my fingers. It’s ridiculous and I’m getting slightly out of control with it. Especially with the candy. I can’t seem to stay away from it lately. Hmm.. gotta tap into those emotions that are making me want to eat so much. I don’t know what it is just yet. Lonliness? I don’t seem to want to eat when Drew is here. I’m filled up with so much emotion that he’s here that eating just isn’t at the forefront of my mind. When he’s gone, however, that’s a different story. I need something to do to occupy my mind. It’s really hard to hang out with my friends because they want to go out and eat. I mean, it’s been like this for a long time and I’ve always survived it. I’ve got to get back on the band wagon fully. I want to continue to see those numbers slide down. It’s been almost a whole year since I’ve reached my hundred pounds lost goal and I’m about five pounds heavier since that moment. Not TOO terrible but still.. Gotta get back on track here. I have to do SOMETHING. Even if it’s coming home and doing yoga. Even if it’s a hundred sit ups a day. I need to feel that burn again. I need to feel strong. I need to just collapse in bed at the end of the day and know that I’ve done a good thing with my body that day. I need to feel those aches and pains after a good work out. That exhileration one feels after a good hour of movement. Sigh!
Anywho! I had better get going. Coffee cup is almost empty and I have to be at work in an hour and twenty minutes. Time to shower. Have a wonderful day, ladies!
- Nikki
Posted by JustCallMeCow on July 22nd, 2009 under Everyday Ramblings2 Responses to “Control yourself, take only what you need from it.”
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July 22nd, 2009 at 4:01 pm
I know what you mean about that feeling after you exercise. I find that after I exercise I don’t want to snack because I don’t want to “ruin” it.
100 pounds lost! Girl you rock!
July 22nd, 2009 at 5:33 pm
Excellent post. I got in touch with how I feel after a great work out from you describing it so well.
I needed to hear that I am not the only one who feels like a prisoner with this thing at times. I have ups and downs and I try to figure out the ‘why’ for both ends. …much like you getting in touch with why you eat more when Drew is away. Why why why… lol Thanks for being my buddy!!!
*hugs*