One year ago today I lost 100lbs. This morning I’m 8 pounds heavier. I’m upset, sure. It sucks. But what am I going to do about it now? Cry over it? I’ve already shed tears because of my weight gain. I’ve shed many confusing tears this past year. So much as changed in my life. [...]

Fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat. What a skimpy three letter word that holds so much emotion and drama. Sigh. With that one word I feel undesireable. I feel like a void in society. I feel like a let down to my family. My father imparticular has held a major impact through my ten [...]

I’m here. I’m journaling. Hoorah.
I probably wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t of gone into the living room and went to spend some time with the family. I talked to my moms best friend, Janet, about Drew. I mentioned I was going to a wedding in September. She’s like “Time to hit the gym! I [...]

Yawn. Stretch. Good morning =)
It’s been a good morning so far. I woke up at 9am (no alarm clock needed, yay!) and got started on my day. A load of laundry is drying right now, breakfast has been had, coffee is being injested and lunch has been made. I’m feeling pretty damn good today =)
Yesterday [...]

“Because other people tell you to go because they think you’re fat. I don’t think you’re fat. I want you to go because I love hearing how happy you are after.” —Said by Drew this morning after I said I don’t get mad at him when he tells me to go to the gym. This [...]

What a rainy, dreary, miserable day. Hmph. Suppose I can’t complain too much. The past week was beautiful. Sigh.
Yesterday was an awful day food wise. I started out good but then I got home and got crazy munchies. I went to the bowling alley to watch my two friends, brother & cousin bowl on their [...]

This past weekend was GREAT! Let me see. Thursday night was fun. I went to Nicoles house with Ashley & Shannon. We watched Revolutionary Road. Not a great movie but come on.. Leo and Kate reuniting? I had to buy it! =P
Friday I had work and then went out to a bar/resaurant with Katie, Ashley, [...]

Morning, ladies! I really think I’m in the “journaling mode” again. I’m so excited about it. Maybe that’s part of the reason I’ve been in such a good mood lately. I’ve really missed journaling so I’m super glad that I’m back.. =)
Yesterday was a good day. Food was okay. I had an egg sandwich w/ [...]

Eric Hutchinson - Rock & Roll.. This song makes me smile and feel like all is right in the world. Happy sigh.
Weight this morning was 157.5. I was VERY surprised and extremely happy about this number. What I’ve been doing is really working. I haven’t been very active but I’ve been eating very healthy. I’ve stopped [...]

Welp. I’m here. I’m writing in order to keep myself from eating anything. Food has been pretty good all day long. Dinner and dessert have both been had. Enough. I’m not hungry. There is no need to eat anything more for the night.
Last weekend was great! I met up with Drew in the city on [...]