Hey Jude
Well, Hello. Yeah, I’m still here. I’ve been meaning to write for a while now but I either put it off or to tell you the truth, ignore it so I don’t have to face anything. Sigh.
In order to make this catch up as organized as possible:
The walk in the city for MS was great. It was six miles long. Joanna and I had a great time. The route we took had us walking over the Brooklyn Bridge which was an experience. I’m excited about the AIDS walk this month. It’ll be fun.
Ashley is still acting strange with her friends and we’ve all come to the agreement that we dislike Katie. We will remain civil because Ashley is our friend. She’s happy and we won’t take anything away from her.
Boys. Ron I haven’t seen since the last time I wrote. That was three weeks ago. Bummer. I don’t know what happened. We just never made plans. Tomorrow we are supposed to be seeing the documentary Earth. I’m excited in a way but in another way these past three weeks have given me time to stop thinking about him all the time. Stop obsessing when he’s online or when he signs off. Wondering where he is. What he’s doing. Sigh. I still have the movies I borrowed from him and I want to give them back to him and never make plans with him again so I can keep myself from liking him so much. I don’t like the feeling. It’s the feeling that I had with Brandon in the beginning.
Speaking of Brandon. He won’t stop calling/texting/messaging me online. He tells me the other night “I miss the days when we were basically falling in love with eachother”. He apologized and said he was an idiot back then. It’ll never happen with us again. It’s just.. over. And that’s okay.
I met someone new. This one was online too. Absolutely GORGEOUS. I’m talking model, ladies. By far, he is the best looking. I hung out with him. Regret some things. I haven’t seen him since the first time we hung out because he turned out to be a psychopath. Wouldn’t stop calling the next day and said he couldn’t stand the fact that I didn’t want a relationship with him and that was dating other people. Oh, I should also mention he was only 19. Serves me right. Heh.
Shannon has met someone online. They’ve been talking for a while. Shannon wants me to come to the city with her at the end of May because they are meeting up. I got him to set me up with one of his friends. His friend, Drew, and I have been talking nonstop. Literally. Nonstop. The only time we don’t really talk is when we are both sleeping. Monday we spent the entire day online. From about 3:50pm to 1:10am we were on the computer chatting continuously. We text 24/7 as well. When I get home from work, the texting stops and we talk online. Tonight he is going to call me after he’s done hanging out with his buddies. I genuinely like talking to him. He doesn’t make me feel stupid and doesn’t make me feel like I’m just another pretty face. He’s not the best looking guy but he’s a gentlemen of the best kind so.. we’ll see what happens. Our meet up date is May 31st. It should be good.
And now my weight. I don’t think I’ve weighed myself since the last time I wrote and I haven’t been to the gym since the last time I wrote. Eating isn’t a hundred percent but I’ve cut back on the drinking A LOT. No more getting hammered in the middle of the week. Infact, I can’t remember the last time I did something like that. If I drink it’s a beer or two and that’s the end of that. The last two weekends were party weekends so I drank a bit too much but it’s okay. As long as it’s not even close to what I used to drink. Justin texted me today. He said “20lbs”.. I’m proud of him. He’s doing great and he’s probably looking awesome. I haven’t seen him since Valentines Day. I was going to have a candy bar today and then he texted me that so I thought better of it. I have to get back to the gym. I have to. Sigh. It won’t be happening for the rest of the week because I have work. But, I’m hoping I can muster up even just a hint of motivation to get myself back. I’m afraid to discover how weak I really have become. It’s going to be hard. =/
I guess that’s all for tonight. I just needed to write. I needed to update and hopefully get myself back in the swing of journaling and then reading what’s going on in your lives. I miss it here. It always felt like home. My safe haven. I need it back.
Goodnight girls,
- Nikki
Posted by JustCallMeCow on May 7th, 2009 under Everyday Ramblings3 Responses to “Hey Jude”
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The Fat Chicks
Meta:
May 8th, 2009 at 11:37 am
glad you’re back. as usual, lots going on in your life. love reading about it.
May 8th, 2009 at 12:53 pm
Life is always busy isn’t it? Every decade of our lives has its Pile of Stuff to Manage.
Remember to get your sense of self worth from yourSELF and not your love interest(s).
Texting is an obsession with the teen/20 something folks which I just don’t understand at my advanced age! My kids all do it too.
May 8th, 2009 at 12:54 pm
Thinking of you (hug)
Sorry it’s two posts…I hit the submit button before I wanted to…old age…technologically impaired…