I made the switch emotionally, and now I am ready to make the switch in real time. It’s all about me. It’s my turn to take care of me.

I know that I can only control myself.

I can wish my mom’s memory back, I can wish that my son had chosen a different lifestyle, and I can wish that I made different career choices. I cannot wish and make those things happen. Why waste the time and energy on such wishes and regrets?

It’s about time that I practice what I know. What I know is that I must take care of myself and my health. I must learn to live through the emotions and not stuff them out of my mind with food. I must make choices that are difficult.

I am back on track.