Sad April 15, 2012
My weigh-in for this week is 190. I’m happy about that but mad at the same time that I didn’t get to the 180’s. I’ve been the same weight for the last few days and it’s frustrating.
I’m sad this AM. I just feel out of whack and out of place and I don’t know why or how to fix it. But it’s an overwhelming feeling and I just feel like crying. I actually AM crying but it doesn’t seem to be giving me any release or relief like I had hoped. I’m not sure what is wrong with me, but I am needing some sort of break or something. Actually thinking of going to visit some family to get out today, but I am not sure if that is a good idea with me being so emotional. And the thing is, I have no reason as far as hormones go to be so emotional. I’m not pregnant, I don’t have PMS, and it’s not even remotely close to my cycle. I am not sure what is wrong, but things just feel so off and I somewhat feel… trapped. Trapped by emotions that I just can’t deal with.
On a good note, yesterday was pretty darn productive. I was able to get a lot done and that is another reason why I sorta just want to stay home…. I hope to get more done today. I’d like to do another layer to the project I started yesterday and do another small project. Finish up and do some more housework and then take the kiddos out to play in the yard. I guess that answers my question of going anywhere. I guess I’ll just stay here and get more done. Well, if the kiddos will let me. Maybe we’ll go out here in a minute to burn off some extra energy so that they will behave… LOL That sure would be nice. I will wing it once I get off of here and figure out what I want to get done.
Ok, that’s it for today. Not sure what else to say… Have a good day ladies.