Well I have my first weigh in at 12:30pm tomorrow. I am kind of nervous. I want the official scale to show that I at least lost a little. I still have 4 points left at the end of my day.

I got some more low point foods at the store tonight. I needed more bananas and more yogurt and then I kind of just walked around with my little WW calculator. How handy I am sure I look like a loser pausing over my shopping cart punching in numbers while I analyze a box that I have in my hands. I don’t really care though, it is kind of nice having my cart full of foods that aren’t considered bad. I remember a while ago when I worked at Fred Meyer… I had just gotten off work and I was really hungry, ready for a meal when I got home for sure. I remember wanting like a marked down donut, but then I got in that section and I wanted some cupcakes too and that made me think of ice cream which led to the candy aisle. I remember checking out at the register and saying that I was having a movie night at my house. I had to say this because I knew that it was ridiculous, everything I was buying. Why is this fat girl buying all these bad things? Clearly she doesn’t need them. It is just a nice feeling to finally have a cart with healthy things in it. Maybe I am the only person who has weird thoughts like this at check-stands, maybe it is just part of my minor social anxiety.

I didn’t really exercise today, I might do some push ups and crunches before I go to bed. I am not particularly concerned about exercise this week, because it is only my first week on the program, and I want to worry about my points right now. Also at our first meeting the lady told me we would talk more about exercise my second week. One positive thing about today was that I chose to make a better decision. I chose to ride my bike to run an errand about 5 blocks away instead of driving. It was even raining a little! Go me haha

So I guess the saying is true, you never forget how to ride a bike. I have been wanting to ride my bike for a long time. I think I have had it since I was 14 or 15 something like that… maybe 13. But it is a nice bike.. a Specialized, and my dad got it all tuned up before I moved to Oregon 3 years ago.

A couple months ago I tried it in the drive way and sort of teetered as I rode in a circle. It was painful though. That seat could just not support my butt… or I guess my crotch… sorry to be so crass haha.

Today JJ and I went to Hollywood Video. We have the MVP thingy there where you can have 3 movies out at a time. We have been wanting to watch the old Indiana Jones movies again before we watch the new one and they put in a hold request for us last week. Well we go there and apparently it didn’t continue on to June automatically so he wanted us to join MVP again (second time this has happened in 3 months). JJ didn’t have his card with him so we were like uh okay guess we’ll come back later you dumbass. So we left and JJ asked where I wanted to go now. I said let’s go to ShopKo.

I wanted a sports bra and someone in my meeting said they had some for 2 for $8. I got my bras, and decided to go look and see if they had any bike seats. They had regular, a bit larger, large (the one I got) and then this granny one. I said I couldn’t get the biggest one because it would be two embarrassing. It was 20 bucks, but hey I think it is a good investment right?

We get home and he tries to figure out how to get it on my bike. He succeeds and I go on a mini trial in the drive way. Still painful but I think it is just something my tush needs to get used to. I am sure it feels better than my other one did, I can’t remember. We live right by a middle and elementary school that is connected to this sports complex with a couple of baseball fields and a gravel track with a football field in the middle of it. I tell him I want to go ride bikes on the track so I know how far I have gone.

The plan is something like 2 miles, 8 times around. I thought this would be a piece of cake because I remember being a kid and getting my bike and riding like 6 miles or more with my dad and brother on the water front trails. They were flat and beautiful and it was an easy activity that didn’t get me out of breath. So we ride over to the track which is a couple blocks away. I was really nervous about this because I was afraid I would crash or something on the sidewalk in front of the cars. I made it though!

We start on the track and I am still trying to figure out my gears. They are all clicky and I was trying to get it into something comfortable. Too easy of a peddle made me feel wobbly and like I was going to fall off so I preferred the harder gear. After two laps (which I thought was my third) I say uh maybe just a mile tonight. I underestimated the difficulty for me haha. My butt was so sore and my hammy’s (apparently?) were sore. I struggled through the last two laps, but I made it to a mile! JJ walked me through some stretches after and that felt a lot better. We even got a little frisky haha!

I was so proud of myself even though I feel like anyone could have done this! I feel like I could work my way up and do maybe like a 5 mile bike ride every other day sometime in the future.

I got a clip board to put my points journal on. I figure this way I can hang it on a nail in the kitchen and it won’t take up counter space. We have a really small kitchen and I like to make my own dog treats! I have 7 points left still. I am going to have one of my WW desserts I bought last night! It is this cookie and ice cream sundae. I love ice cream despite thinking I am lactose intolerant haha. I am happy that this satisfies my craving but keeps me in a healthy range of eating through out the day.

Daily Points Target: 35
Yogurt 2
Banana 2
Bagel 1
Cream Cheese 1
Cereal 4
Milk for Cereal 2
WW Snack Cake 1
Curves Bar 1
WW Pizza 8
18 Tortilla Chips 6
Salsa 0
Points left: 7

So after one of the nice people commented on my blog about my WW bagel fiasco, and how they had a lot of WW stuff at Wal-mart, I was psyched to get some.  JJ and I hung out all night, being jolly and doing what we do. Close to 3am rolls around and we are still up. Didn’t you want to go get your bagels at Wal-mart he asks me? Why yes I did! So we go to Wal-mart at 3am on a mission for my bagels.

We walk towards the bread aisle and I see a good sign. WW muffins, cookies, and cakes. Wow they have a lot more WW things than I have seen at other stores. We continue down the aisle. No bagels I ask a lady if they could be anywhere else. She tells me maybe they are frozen or in dairy.

So we walk around the grocery area, giddy with our late night jaunt. I put some WW Smart Ones in the cart to try. Pizza, enchiladas, calzone, a couple of desserts… yummy We walk towards the cheese area, I see that they have WW cream cheese. Well how nice of them to have WW cream cheese to put on WW bagels.. oh wait they didn’t have any… BUT next to the cream cheeses was a display of bagels. “The Alternative Bagel.”

They are by “Western Bagel” and they have a hand full of flavors. I got the Cinnamon Spice because I was looking forward to having my low fat Strawberry Cream Cheese for breakfast in the morning and this sounded like a nice pairing. I had forgotten my stupid WW points calculator, but these bagels say 110 calories on the front of the bag, they are smaller than the average mondo bagel, but not mini, I think this may be a go. Also they have to be refrigerated. I don’t know why. I refrigerate all my breads anyway because I find that they stay fresher. So I buy the bagels and other WW items. I figure if they are high in points JJ will eat them.

I get home and the first thing I do is calculate the bagels. 1 POINT!!!! How happy I was. We went to bed and listened to the birds chirp outside as they were waking up. It was 4am after all.

When I finally got up today I was excited to try my bagels. I figured I would have a bigger breakfast this morning… well early afternoon… than I usually do. I have been having a hard time using up all my points anyway. I have my normal Light Yoplait Yogurt for 2 points, though I saw WW had 1 point flavors at Wal-mart last night. Maybe when I have to limit more of my points I will switch to that. I had a banana for 2 points and then my bagel, toasted with less than a tablespoon of cream cheese. The cream cheese is 1 point for 2 tablespoons, but I don’t really like a lot of cream cheese anyway, so I just counted it as 1 point even though I used way less. And then the bagel for 1 point.

Daily Points: 35
Breakfast: Yogurt 2 points
Banana 2 points
Bagel 1 point
Cream Cheese 1 point
Points left: 29

I am getting pretty confused about this blogging site. What is “optional excerpt?” What are “trackbacks?” “Discussion?” “Post Password?” “Post Slug?” “Post Status?” Etc?

I was trying to see if there was a way I could put a signature after my blog. I want to put a ticker to show my weight loss journey but I can’t figure out how to do it so I will just put the ticker in this post for now. I haven’t gotten to choose a goal weight yet at Weight Watchers so I am going to put my 10% as my first goal.

Pretty spiffy! haha

So yesterday was JJ’s and my 6 month anniversary which is exciting of course, but I wasn’t like wanting it to be overly special or anything like that, just another day. Our year anniversary will be a celebration. He was like we should go to dinner and I was like yeah we can go to dinner if you want no problem. Let’s go to Applebee’s because they have the points on a section of their menu. I am not a huge Applebee’s fan, but I looked at the menu online and thought maybe the only thing I would want were the Weight Watcher’s quesadilla. So I looked up some points on a web-site online thinking maybe I will just get something that I used to get at Red Robins and have a good night. The points were so much though, like 20 something! Even 30 something! I haven’t used any of my extra weekly points yet so I debated just doing it. I told him that I really wanted to go out but I wanted to just do really well on Weight Watchers. I didn’t want to get back into old habits so quick even though with weekly points it would have been fine. I chose to make something at home and I am happy that I did. A small accomplishment.

Even though I feel I chose to make a better choice for dinner last night, after dinner and later on into the night I just was feeling discouraged… I had a doctor’s appt. earlier and I tried my hardest not to look at the scale, but I did and I couldn’t tell if I weighed more or less or what, it was so quick. My weight was on my mind all day. Had I lost, had I gained? Will this work for me? I weighed myself late after I ate my dinner and it said 282.5. Gaining a 10th of a pound.. grr.. I tried not to get down on myself though. I had a lot of water that day, it was after dinner, different time in the day than my original weigh in, etc.

Well today before I got in the shower I weighed myself. It was around 2pm so only a couple hours difference than my original weigh in. 277 point something… Yay.. hehe. I hope I still show a weight loss at my meeting on Tuesday. I just feel a new wave of strength though. This is a life style change after all.

I joined Weight Watchers last Tuesday (May 27th). I had wanted to join Monday, but it was Memorial Day. All weekend I had been researching it and getting more and more excited only to find out I had to wait an extra day. Oh well, I met really nice people at the Tuesday meeting!

I chose to do the POINTS because I felt that I could eat some of the things I liked still. I am allowed 35 points each day which has been somewhat hard to consume. Last night I had 4 points left. I feel like I am eating all day, healthier things, but still. It is good though because I am not hungry. I am just worried that I will go to my Tuesday meeting and find out that I gained 5 pounds. I had hoped to lose 5 pounds the first week

I like the WW ice cream. A whole fudge bar for only 1 point! They are really good too. For breakfast I have been having a light yogurt for 2 points and a banana for 2 points. For lunch I have been having a 6 inch Turkey sub from Subway with light mayo, mostly because I have been having a hard time deciding what to eat and haven’t really been in the mood to cook something. I want to find the WW bagels but I haven’t been able to find them anywhere. Anyway I am really excited about this.

I haven’t gotten to pick a goal weight yet, so my first goal is to lose 10% of my weight. 10% of my weight is 28 pounds. I weighed in at 282.4lbs. I would like to get to 150 someday, but I think my goal weight will have to be below that. For my height I think that is still to much weight.

My boyfriend has been really supportive and we have gone for mile long walks around the track a couple times this week. I plan to exercise more as I continue the program, but I didn’t want to do too much too fast.

I read somewhere yesterday that 100 pounds is just 1 pound 100 times. I can handle that. If I lost a pound a week or more for you know 2 years I would have lost more than 100 pounds. If I never start I will never be able to get there so best to do it while I am young.