So, this quarter of school has been my hardest yet and obviously that is no excuse, but my weight pretty much stalled during the last quarter I would say. I have not gone to WW for 3 weeks now, and even then I was only going to weigh in and hoping I hadn’t gained weight. Well according to WW I have only gained like two pounds, but I just want to be at my lowest again.

I weighed myself after my workout today with sweaty clothes and also wearing shoes, and I weighed close just over 239lbs. I need to get back down to my lowest and keep losing. This week I am getting back into exercising and thinking about tracking. The past two days I have done a half hour on the elliptical. I wish it was more but it wasn’t.

I also tried out my heart rate monitor that my dad got me. I like it but I can’t figure out how to get it to show my calories burned. It says 0 even after my workout. Also I don’t know if there is like a glitch with the one on the actual elliptical machine… My heart rate shows up the entire time on the machine but is that one accurate? is it reporting from the belt thing I wear? The heart rate on the watch is hardly ever the same as the one on the machine. Since the watch did not report my calories burned even though it is supposed to I just looked at it on the elliptical. Err I am a little frustrated but maybe I will figure it out.

Anyway I am going to go try and find a recipe in one of my healthy cookbooks and cook dinner for J.J. I usually don’t, we even usually eat separate dinners, but I have been bored on my spring break while he is at work and so I am going to try to make something edible. I hope you all are doing well. Sorry for not posting more, I just… I don’t like to tell you guys about the bad gains, only the losses, I feel like a failure you know.

Talk to you all soon.

Well I am happy to say I am still tracking my eating. This next Tuesday weigh in will really be the defining measure of how well I did on eating and if the points are what really work for me. I do need to start exercising again. I am just sooooo tired all the time with freaking school and now my internship.

Last night I was up until 1:30am or so working on homework that was due (or that I thought was due) this morning. Well I get to my 9am class and it turns out that it is not due until next friday. Lame. I know it is my fault but crap. Now I am going to have to pinch myself to stay awake at my internship training in about an hour here. Oh well at least it is FRIDAY!!

I am hoping for a relaxing weekend. I want to take the dogs to the school with J.J. and also go for walks with them. I feel so bad, their lives are all turned upside down right now with my school schedule and J.J.’s work schedule. They are home alone a lot. Poor babies…

Well everybody have a good weekend!

Hey all. I have been keeping up with your blogs just so you know, but I have also been busy and semi off plan. I have continued to slowly lose though. At last weigh in I had lost a total of 46lbs. I did not get quite to my goal of losing 50lbs, but I am trying to tell myself that 46lbs is still a lot of weight.

Anyway, I do not really do resolutions, but the significance of a new year is a pretty refreshing feeling. I have big hopes of getting back into the gym, and being completely conscious of what I am putting in my mouth. I have been going for nightly walks with the dogs and J.J. pretty much every night since we got back from the holidays. I also started back at school today so I have been and will be walking around campus a lot; I even walked home from the bus station instead of waiting 20 minutes for the next bus that would be driving by my house. I was a little proud of myself haha

On a different note, I am really struggling with my anxiety lately. I have been taking Paxil for nearly 6 years now, and not a little bit, 50mg of it every night (obviously I started with a much smaller dosage, but alas my dosage was raised several times). I wouldn’t say it is necessarily bad, the level of anxiety I am feeling right now, it is just simply there, and I know it is there, and it really affects my mode and my daily activities. It is not like I am having panic attacks anymore like I was early on before I learned how to control some of the triggers and symptoms of my anxiety, but I am frustrated beyond belief. I have so many questions…

Why on earth did my anxiety decide to poke its ugly face in my life again? It happened on the eve of the Christmas Eve. Honestly (oh and this is a little vulgar) I do not think I have had a solid bowl movement since then, but some days are better than others. Why is my Paxil not helping me? Or is it? I was fine. I was even going down on my prescription thinking I didn’t need it anymore because I was so stable and in such a good place in my life. I didn’t get down very far on my prescription, I slowly dropped it by just over 3mg about every month for 2 months. When I started feeling anxious I went back up to the full 50mg. I just want it to freaking go away again!!! I am going to graduate in the spring and I need to be myself. I don’t feel like myself right now.

Well I have another class to get to so I will either blog more tonight or later this week. I have a weigh in tomorrow… first one after Christmas. Wish me luck

Well it was my first day back to school today at the U of O. I am only taking 13 credits this quarter, so not too many. I just got done taking summer classes so I wasn’t really feeling like a huge load this quarter. Today I only had one class: “Alternative Methods of Treatment.” It is a SAPP class which stands for Substance Abuse Prevention Program. SAPP classes are upper-division credits which is really nice considering you need a lot of them and I transfered into my program. SAPP classes are either quarter long or short weekend seminars. I took two seminars this summer and really became interested in them. They are right along the lines of FHS (Family and Human Services) major classes.

Anyway, back to the class… I am taking two SAPP classes this quarter and couldn’t remember which one I was going to today, I just knew where it was. When I saw the professor I automatically assumed it was my Alcohol and Marijuana SAPP class because he looked like a hippy. It is Eugene after all haha. It turns out he sort of is a hippy, but it was my Alternative Methods of Treatment class. After Vietnam, he came back to the states and worked for a newspaper. He ended up quitting because they were wanting him to report things that were the opposite of what was really going on there. He moved to the hills in California, got married, made babies, rode horses everyday, grew pot, sold pot, and smoked pot. What a relaxing life He decided pot and making babies wasn’t everything though and him and his “old lady” as he referred to her hitch hiked to Oregon, stumbled upon Eugene, and he has been in love with the place ever since. I am hoping it will be a good class.

I rode my bike from my house to the bus station this morning, and then the bus to the school, and then rode my bike home after my class. All the riding, including around campus, was a little over 5 miles. Apparently this summer I was a little off in assuming that just the ride home was 4 or 5 miles. Silly me. Luckily I have my clever bike odometer now! I am still hoping to get a new bike in the next few months. R.E.I. has good deals on their bikes in December and January because they are trying to clear their old models. I have had my bike since I think like 13. It is a really nice bike, and granted I never really rode it except for when I was younger and in the past 6 months, I need a new one. It is definitely time to upgrade.

Well ladies I am going to go to the gym and try to do my 45 on the elliptical. I am feeling so unmotivated right now, but I have a weigh in tomorrow so I am gonna go! I am really hoping for a loss tomorrow but I am feeling so fat and gross right now. Hope everyone has a good evening.

Okay so I definitely have not had my perfect week. In fact it was far from it. I got my TOM early and have never really had PMS symptoms or anything like that before. My TOM are usually only 2 maybe 3 days long, but omg, I have never felt so bloated, so tired, so unmotivated, so hungry for crap in my life.

Today however, I woke up weighing two pounds less and feeling much better. I have been having a fat day all week! I felt fatter than I did 27lbs ago. I am sticking to points today. I really want to try and do it again. Otherwise I am just paying to go to meetings where I don’t even take the advice, and it is already hard for me to budget $14 a week into my college budget.

I am so happy it is officially fall. It is kind of even overcast today. I love fall. It is my favorite season. J.J. and I just went on a bike ride and boy could I tell that I haven’t really ridden my bike much lately. I was doing 4 or 5 miles everyday on the bike trail home from the University during summer classes. We did 3 miles today and my thighs and knees were pretty sore, but I love biking outside. We even kind of found a bike trail today. I also hooked up this thing to my bike that tells me how fast I am biking and my distance. It tells other things too, but not stuff I am that interested in. I don’t know how accurate it is, but it is a neat little device.

Okay so today:
Daily Points 32
Yogurt 2 30
Banana 2 28
Cereal 4 24
Milk 2 22

I know I have not had very many points for what time of day it is, maybe I will have some more cereal. I am planning on having stir fry for dinner, but that can’t use up that many points.

Oh as far as those pictures go… they are signs I made and put up in my kitchen. I am trying to follow them haha. Well ladies, hope you all have a good evening.

So I weigh in tomorrow and I am not sure what I will see. I have not really been keeping track of my points the past couple of weeks, just sort of guesstimating my points, and I still have been losing. I have been exercising the whole time, but I am sure I was a little lax in the food choices I made. Last week I was really good with my exercising, and weighed myself probably a couple times every day. My weight fluctuated to either the same weight or a few pounds up. I didn’t even know I lost 1.8lbs until my actual WW weigh in. It was weird and frustrating.

I am hoping that I will at least lose my .6lbs that I need to lose to get to my first 10% weight loss of 28lbs. I will have met my first goal! Yippee! I am also wanting to start on my “perfect week” tomorrow. I am going to follow points and at least get in 45min of cardio each day if not the 60min that I want to do on the days that I am not doing my arm/ab exercises.

I am hoping to plan a menu for the week and also thinking of getting some Slim fast shake mix or some other protein powder. Is protein important in diets? Will it help me with anything? I am also hoping to take my vitamins every day.

Well ladies I am going to hang out with my man and our puppies now. Maybe a diet snapple? It’s my new kick… mmmmmm…. does tea enhance weight loss?

Today was a very football filled day. J.J. is still watching college football and college football updates at this moment. He wants to be a sports writer and it could be said that he is just a little obsessed with sports. We always have ESPN on in our living room. But anyway, the Ducks won in double overtime! Hooray!!

Also I feel that I deserve a small bravo. I was so proud of myself today. The game started at 12:30 this afternoon so I slept in and got up to have a breakfast of “Speacial K with Berries” waffles, a tiny bit of sugar-free syrup, and a dollop of FF cool whip. Yummy. Hey I am a college student, this is my version of healthier for now. I decided to go to the gym at half time because I wanted to make sure I didn’t try to get out of it later. I watched the rest of the game at my gym doing my 45min on the elliptical as well as my arms/abs stuff.

When I got home the ducks were going into over-time!!!! I chowed on my 6 in. Subway Turkey and some baked bbq lays. My arms were shaking with nerves of the game oh and being a little sore from the workout It was a fantastic surprise to a football game that I didn’t see us winning earlier in the morning.

J.J. and I rode to Wal-mart on our bikes tonight for something to do. I am not sure how far it was, but my knees were really achy. I think from working out earlier. I would have never suggested an activity that involved being physically active before WW and my lifestyle change. We didn’t even have a reason to go; we just went to get some fresh air. We found the dogs some really cute bandanas though. Maybe I will try to get a picture of them on here. I really like how Sterling starts her posts with a picture. I kinda wanna brighten up my blog a little anyways.

My boyfriend mentioned that technically I have been losing 1.8lbs a week on average, not 1.5, soooo…. rounded up, it would be 73 weeks instead of 87 weeks, or 511 days, or about 1 year and 5 months. Okay so a year and a half longer…. sigh. I guess that isn’t so bad. Still… long time away.

Well I didn’t lose the 2.4lbs this week to get to my 10%, but I did lose 1.8. Hip hip hooray It was kind of weird though… every-time I weighed myself this week it was either the same weight as I weighed in last WW meeting or a spike of like 3lbs. I never weighed myself at the time I usually weigh in on Tuesdays, just periodically throughout the day; so maybe that was it. Sooo frustrating though. I like to weigh myself during the week to guage my progress, but obviously it does not do that haha.

I am not going to put my weight loss tracker in my posts anymore. I have put it on the side of my page; a 10% goal and my first 50 pounds which I am more than half way done with now having lost 27.4lbs. Boy I wish I could just wake up like 130lbs lighter sometimes. It doesn’t feel like it has taken me that long, but 15 weeks is a long time! I guess if I lose like 1.5lbs a week on average, it will take about 87 weeks or 609 days, or roughly 1 year 8 months. OMG that is such a long time!

I feel like it wont be possible to lose 130 more pounds. What if I can’t? I have been doing 45min on the elliptical mostly everyday at the gym, sometimes it is half an hour. I do some ab/arm exercises for right now Mon, Wed, and Fri. I am hoping to bump the 45min up to an hour on the days I don’t do other exercises. Is it possible to consistently keep losing weight? I feel lost. I don’t know rather to eat my allotted WW points which seem to be a lot, even though I have lowered them several points with my weight loss or should I do like 1,000 calories a day? I do not know if I can exercise more than I am right now, especially with school starting soon, and now I am volunteering with DHS to help find relatives or other connections for foster children. I know I have said this already, but I am feeling so lost! I guess I need some advice.

Should I be taking certain supplements or vitamins? Is there something in addition to eating healthy and staying active that I could take to improve my efforts? Sorry for all the complaining and whining, but I do feel a little better having gotten some of that out. I have been reading some new sister’s blogs and I just want to say that you guys inspire me so much.

Well I just got done at the gym. Yes… I belong to a gym as of a few weeks ago. No way would I work out at the U of O gym with all of those attractive athletes, I am way too self conscience for that. I do love my gym though! There are people of all ages and all sizes there. I mean there really are like 70 year olds working out! Even better is the fact that the men’s and women’s workout rooms are separate and the pool days rotate men and women.

I have fallen in love with the elliptical machine. I know I am surprised too. I really do not mind working out on it for a half hour, or even forty-five minutes. In fact I plan on doing an hour on the days that I am not working a little bit on my abs and arms.

One of my babies (Jack Russell Terrier) broke a nail today. I did not know what to do. There was blood everywhere and she would not let us touch it. We took her to a couple vets by our house, one where they would not even look at her and the emergency vet that wanted at least $200. I do not have this kind of money, J.J. and I are college students. We finally took her to her nail-cutter’s to see if the lady could do anything. She cut the nail down a little bit and gave us gauze and padding. When we got home we tried to distract her with animal cookies while we put gauze around her paw. She then took it off. She seems to be doing better but I don’t know, it looks bad.