Well I am happy to say I am still tracking my eating. This next Tuesday weigh in will really be the defining measure of how well I did on eating and if the points are what really work for me. I do need to start exercising again. I am just sooooo tired all the time with freaking school and now my internship.

Last night I was up until 1:30am or so working on homework that was due (or that I thought was due) this morning. Well I get to my 9am class and it turns out that it is not due until next friday. Lame. I know it is my fault but crap. Now I am going to have to pinch myself to stay awake at my internship training in about an hour here. Oh well at least it is FRIDAY!!

I am hoping for a relaxing weekend. I want to take the dogs to the school with J.J. and also go for walks with them. I feel so bad, their lives are all turned upside down right now with my school schedule and J.J.’s work schedule. They are home alone a lot. Poor babies…

Well everybody have a good weekend!

So I haven’t really been journaling my WW points for a while. In the beginning when I started I was so good at it! I am trying to do that again. I want my weight to start shedding quickly like it was before. I am also going to try and get into the gym again… I am paying for a membership after all…

Yesterday was my first day of counting points and journaling again. It was hard not to just eat. Now that I have been snacking and eating a lot more, I noticed that I was hungrier than I used to be. 30 points was plenty for me before and it should be now.

Well I just wanted to check in on my second day of point counting. Going for another perfect day Well I have some serious reading to do for my linguistics class. Hope you all are doing well.

Hey all. I have been keeping up with your blogs just so you know, but I have also been busy and semi off plan. I have continued to slowly lose though. At last weigh in I had lost a total of 46lbs. I did not get quite to my goal of losing 50lbs, but I am trying to tell myself that 46lbs is still a lot of weight.

Anyway, I do not really do resolutions, but the significance of a new year is a pretty refreshing feeling. I have big hopes of getting back into the gym, and being completely conscious of what I am putting in my mouth. I have been going for nightly walks with the dogs and J.J. pretty much every night since we got back from the holidays. I also started back at school today so I have been and will be walking around campus a lot; I even walked home from the bus station instead of waiting 20 minutes for the next bus that would be driving by my house. I was a little proud of myself haha

On a different note, I am really struggling with my anxiety lately. I have been taking Paxil for nearly 6 years now, and not a little bit, 50mg of it every night (obviously I started with a much smaller dosage, but alas my dosage was raised several times). I wouldn’t say it is necessarily bad, the level of anxiety I am feeling right now, it is just simply there, and I know it is there, and it really affects my mode and my daily activities. It is not like I am having panic attacks anymore like I was early on before I learned how to control some of the triggers and symptoms of my anxiety, but I am frustrated beyond belief. I have so many questions…

Why on earth did my anxiety decide to poke its ugly face in my life again? It happened on the eve of the Christmas Eve. Honestly (oh and this is a little vulgar) I do not think I have had a solid bowl movement since then, but some days are better than others. Why is my Paxil not helping me? Or is it? I was fine. I was even going down on my prescription thinking I didn’t need it anymore because I was so stable and in such a good place in my life. I didn’t get down very far on my prescription, I slowly dropped it by just over 3mg about every month for 2 months. When I started feeling anxious I went back up to the full 50mg. I just want it to freaking go away again!!! I am going to graduate in the spring and I need to be myself. I don’t feel like myself right now.

Well I have another class to get to so I will either blog more tonight or later this week. I have a weigh in tomorrow… first one after Christmas. Wish me luck