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Taking back my power

Posted jenwoobiekins on July 2nd, 2010 | Filed under Mental Ramblings | 3 Comments »

For as long as I can remember, I let people walk on me. I never wanted to tell anyone no, I never wanted to hurt anyone’s feelings. My SO’s sister-in-law is about the worst offender. She thinks her life is so perfect, but she manipulates and controls her husband, threatened to take their daughter and leave if he didn’t marry her, so he married her, threatened to take their daughter and leave if he didn’t have another baby with her, so they had another baby. Well guess what? He walked out on her and their two week old baby six months ago and has never looked back. We babied her for six months and quite honestly, I’m sick of it. He’s moved on, he doesn’t care anymore and she doesn’t get that. Today, I broke the news to her. I feel like the biggest bitch for saying “You need to get your head out of your ass and start putting your girls first” — but damn it feels good. Except for that gnawing in the pit of my stomach cause this is so out of character for me and I almost feel bad for hurting her feelings. Oh well.


End of week one

Posted jenwoobiekins on June 18th, 2010 | Filed under Weight Loss Babble | 1 Comment »

So this week, I really tried. Quietly tried. I didn’t go waste money weighing in, I didn’t tell anyone I was doing it, I just quietly made up my mind to count points and move more and the scale is DOWN!!!! Woo hoo!!!! Down 4.5 pounds. I can see myself creeping into the 240’s next week. I just really am starting to notice how fat I am. I’ve never been one that saw myself as fat, I was a cheerleader in high school, and didn’t really gain weigh until my late 20s. I was never thin, but average, and always confident. I’ve lost that confidence but I want to gain it back.

I’m really looking forward to the weekend. I’ve decided to turn off the computer, stay off the internet and will not text from 9pm tonight till 9am Monday morning. I need to get away from girlfriend drama for awhile and spend some quiet time with my boy! We both could use it!

Anyway, off to get some work done. They don’t pay me to hang out here.