Disappointing Setback…

8 Jul 2012 In: Uncategorized

So after being so so proud of my C25K program progress, I had a terrible night.  Bad pain in both of my knees, but more in my right.  I over compensate for PF in my left heel. Anyway, this morning, bad swelling, tenderness, and soreness in my knees. It hurts bad when I press the swelling on the inside of my knees.  Going to church was a challenge, but I made it.  Anyway, I researched a lot about it, and apparently (now I’m no doctor, and I don’t like others “self diagnosing” themselves usually, but I feel pretty competent, whatever :P) *ehem* as I was saying, apparently I have weak leg and hip muscles that contribute to putting extra pressure on my knees. Well DUH. Shoulda known better.  Being 270+ doesn’t do anything to help the 4x pressure exertion on my knees either. So with a sad heart, I will be forgoing the C25K until I get more fit, I guess.  It makes me sad because I was so excited about becoming a jogger. 🙁  I really need an elliptical. Anyone got one for free????

Besides that disappointment, I’m not discouraged.  I’m letting my faith help me along this journey.  There is a reason for this setback, and I will find it.  I did great with my eating today, so that is good.  Tomorrow morning is the weekly calendar weigh-in with hubs… Hoping for a good number. 270 would be GREAT. But not getting hopes up too high… I’ve been 271.2 for DAYS.  Maybe when my knees heal I will just up the Zumba and that will help the journey along nicely.  Maybe the swelling will subside tonight, too, and help me lose some of this weight. Here’s hoping!

Trust the process.

7 Jul 2012 In: Uncategorized

W1/D2 training: COMPLETE.

I cannot, CANNOT tell you how excited I am that I did the second day of this program.  I was frustrated when I couldn’t do it the other night, so I was so excited to go tonight.  It was muggy, and HOT, but I didn’t care.  SIL and BIL met me at the track, and I got to work.  30 minutes this time, instead of 25, that meant 2 more rotations of run/walk. I felt like I was dying by the end of it last time, but I pushed through.  I just KNEW that I would push through this time.  So, I started off after the 5 minute warm up.  Uh oh, what’s that? My knee joints are hurting?! It was a feeling that I haven’t really felt before.  I know that 270+ is a lot to be jogging on, so I guess it is very much expected.  I pushed through. Nearly halfway I started to get a side stitch. UGH! I prayed and stretched as I walked, and it got better…. I kept going.  I noticed that even though my jogging times were slow, I wasn’t “dying” like I had the first two attempts. I was SO excited to be at the finish when I got there.  I did good, so good that I had soaked my shirt around the top.  That hasn’t really ever happened to me at the track! Yay! LOL What a silly thing to get excited about, but it made me feel like I was doing something right for once.  I may or may not be sore in the morning, but I know that I am on the right track and that feels amazing.  I also had a relatavely low day net calorie wise… I think I came in right under 1400, which is great for me (Goal is 1700 net.)

I tried to get depressed the other day, and then again today when I saw my lowest weight back a year and a half ago when I was on WW (I saw it still in my iPod: 252). It feels like I am months away from that lowest weight, but I will not let that get me down.  I’ve done that to myself and I accept that.  It is time to change that now.  It is okay for me to be disappointed because that fuels my motivation.  I will say goodbye to the 270s hopefully by next week, and I will never see them again.  I have to care more about myself than that.

Road Trip and a Successful Moment

6 Jul 2012 In: Uncategorized

So no change in weight for today, sadly. This morning I started out with a vigorous 45 min. Zumba session with the kinect.  Wow! I’m getting close to getting the Zumbathon unlocked (which is an hour!) And I’m pretty excited about that.  I found that it made me sweat a lot and I burned a ton of calories!  I hadn’t played it in months! Was just like riding a bike.

I went on a road trip with my bestie and her hubby to go see a new precious baby and our friends.  It was a fun trip. I had expected for them to want to go out to eat, so for breakfast and lunch, I was really light so I would have plenty of room.

After driving around and around near where I had dropped off my car earlier in the day, they finally decided on Jim n’ Nicks. Now, I love me some Jim and Nick’s… it is a BBQ place but they have the most devine, perfect, thick, juicy, tender, hand-battered and fried chicken fingers, and to-die-for house ranch.  I ususally get the plate that has about 5 of those huge chicken fingers, a mound of fries, extra ranch, and of course coke.  Not to mention the melt-in-your-mouth-I’ve-died-and-gone-to-heaven cheesy “biscuits” which are really soft yeasty, cheddar, with some sweeten muffins that are amazing. Just one is nearly 200 calories, I found!

Although being with my bestie, and wanting to just throw up my hands for the night and eat whatever I wanted, I took a deep breath and told myself that I am worth more than that.  I looked up calories, and decided on a “Pig in the Potato Patch” which is a fancy word for their small pork bbq loaded potato.  It was 800 delicious calories. I also had 2 muffins 🙂  And was still under for the day! I cannot tell you HOW PROUD I am of this decision.  You don’t understand, THIS IS HUUUUUUUUUUUGE for me. I gave a damn about myself when faced with a big temptation.  It feels good to know that I have gained a little glimmer of self control over the past month! WOOHOO!!!!!!

Rain, Rain, Go Away!

5 Jul 2012 In: Uncategorized

So, I didn’t do much today. Hubs was off (for the 4th day in a row…) so I just hung out around the house with him.  Didn’t work out this morning because I planned on doing day 2 of my running program. BUT. NOPE. A storm decided to barrel through here and stay… I’m so disappointed.  I needed to workout.  I was 148 under my calories for today, so I guess that is helpful. Still discouraged that I didn’t get to go to the track tonight.

So I’m going on a little road trip tomorrow with my BFF to see our friend that just had her baby last week.  She suggested we go to a Hibachi restaurant.  I declined. She is bringing her hubs along, so I suggested they go without me and I’d meet them later to go.  Then she tells me they are going to go to the Cheesecake Factory restaurant! UGH. I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE that place. Haven’t been in years. But, I was a good girl and said that I needed to stay away.  I’m so worried for my friend. She is very overweight, judging from my weight and size, she has to be a good 50-75 lbs. bigger than me, and that puts her in a VERY dangerous weight. 350 at least. I’m terrified for her.  I just don’t see that she has any motivation right now.  I wish she would do this with me, but living 2 hrs. away is difficult.  We don’t talk much, but the few times a year I get to visit with her it is just like old times.  I just can’t eat like old times.

I’ve been watching one of my favorite seasons of the biggest loser, the one where the two sisters make it to the finale: Hannah and Olivia.  I love them both. They started out similar to me, and did AMAZING. I can only hope to look half  as good when i finish my journey. The rate I’m going, it will be 2 1/2 years, which is depressing.  I want to lose a total of 130. Maybe when I get smaller I won’t want to get that small, but who knows.  I just know that it is so frustrating to lose only 1 lb. on average per week when I have SO much to lose.

Here’s hoping for a good day tomorrow despite my trip!

No excuses, holiday or not.

4 Jul 2012 In: Uncategorized

I am not sore!!!!!  My knee is a little tender, but wow. So excited. I plan on running again tomorrow… Gonna attempt Day 2 of the C25K program.  Say a prayer for me, LOL!  I also was down .8 today on the scale… I expected to be up after that run, but nope! Here’s hoping that wasn’t a fluke and the scale is still down tomorrow! 🙂

Considering it is the 4th, I did really great today.  I did a 20 min. weight loss program on MIL’s stationary bike, then walked with SIL 30 minutes in my neighborhood this evening. I am under net calories for the day by 200ish.  That includes TWO grilled bbq burgers! Take that, 4th of July! That’s a great day!

C25K… Day One, take two.

4 Jul 2012 In: Uncategorized

I did it! I did the entire first day workout with the Couch to 5K program on my iPhone.  This may not seem like a big deal to many, but for me, this was BIG!  I didn’t run hard, or fast, but it was the best that I could do.  I tried doing it last Wednesday, but fizzled out for the last run.  This time, I pushed through.  I hope I stretched better because last time, I was SO sore for 3 days in my quads. Ouch!  This time, no right hip pain, although when I was doing my cool down my left calf started to pull tight.  I stretched it out and it feels okay.  My heel/arch injury on my left leg survived pretty well, too.  Another part of today’s success: My hubby went along and did it with me.  This is HUGE. He has been battling many health problems that have prevented him from being out in the heat, so this was thrilling to me today. Unfortunately, one of his problems is kidney stones, and he passed a 8mm stone soon after we got home from jogging! YIKES! He is in pain from passing it, but it is getting better.  He has them constantly, and I pray for healing.

I did great on my calories, finishing about 75 under my goal for today. I know the water weight from sore muscles will be up tomorrow, but that is okay.  I’m about to go to sleep, so in the morning I plan on walking or doing Zumba, then walking tomorrow night.  I’ve got to up my workout time so that I can get 2-3 lbs. this week.  I will be happy with 1 solid lb. though.

The Joys of Losing with a Boy…

3 Jul 2012 In: Uncategorized

How about there are none?  Hubs is not working out whatsoever, and he eats more cals than I do (obviously), but he is losing so much weight compared to me.  I lost a big whopping 0.6 last week. UGH. So discouraging. Yeah, yeah, it is going down, but after the work I put into last week, I felt at least 2. 🙁

So I had a pretty great day, despite having a medium snow cone and going to a movie at midnight! I stayed under my calories.  Actually, I lowered my calories to 1700 when I got a little frustrated this morning, so I did less than that.  I didn’t have anything at the movie except for sugar-free gum! 🙂 I am very proud of this.

It is now after 3 am and we are winding down for bed, and I am STARVING, but not going to eat.  I watched an old interview today with Bob Harper about some rules for everyone for weight loss, and one of the things he mentioned was that you should go to bed hungry.  Like stop eating 3 hours before bed at least.  I’m going to try to make that a rule around here.


1 Jul 2012 In: Uncategorized

So, still up a lb. I am on a stinkin’ plateau.  I remember this scenario well.  Every dang time I try seriously (well, as serious as I have been able to get), I get stuck on this week 3 plateau and eventually give up.  NOT THIS TIME DANG IT. I just have to win the mental battle of this.  Tomorrow is our weigh in day, so we will see what happens. Not going walking tonight per Hubs request.  He thinks I’ve maybe been overdoing it. Whatever.  We shall see what happens on the scale.

So I went to a new Sunday school class today. Without my hubs.  He works on Sunday mornings, so the past two years, I haven’t been going to church. *Gasp*  I have had guilt about it, but with him using my car, I was pretty much stuck. Except that my BIL and SIL could take me.  I had to get over my pride issues and ask for a ride. Success!  The new class is tiny, and started last week, but I feel good in it.  We will see how it goes.  My anxiety was kept in check and I felt so good being back at my church. Felt like I hadn’t been gone.

We went to Milo’s for lunch and met my hubs there since he had gotten off around the same time.  I had something other than water to drink for the first time in 3+ weeks. Sweeeeeeeeeeet tea.  It was heaven.   But the sodium laiden food, although wonderful, was not so good for me.  I downed at least 2 cups of water as soon as we got home. Then we took a huge nap, and here we are, supper time.   I had a full fast-food meal and I made a decent choice, and so I have about 750 cals for supper! Woohoo! I think I’ll go eat them now.

Too Hot to Handle.

30 Jun 2012 In: Uncategorized

So I woke up still very sore from Wednesday’s running start.  At least I was able to get down the stairs this morning without screaming with every step… That’s improvement!  I must have really messed myself up, and I’m not so sure running is for me if it is going to take me 3 days to get over it.  I want to train so badly, but I guess my body is saying HELL NO right now.

I’m still up about a pound, which is discouraging, although technically I’m lower than I was last Monday.  I’m hoping to see a good drop by this “official calendar weigh-in” that I’m doing with the hubs.

I did get up at 6 am and go to the track to walk with my SIL. It was hot even around 6:30. H.O.T.  That sun hit us around 7 and boy I started to sweat. I am hoping to get out of the party early tonight so I can walk in the “cool” of the night. Around here in Alabama, the summer night temps are still in the 70s-80s right now. Not fun.

I’ve got to get to the store today. I’m running low on “good” food. (Food that is minimally processed, low carb, etc.)  I thawed out some “Super trim stew meat” for lunch, and cooked it with a little Dale’s sauce and garlic powder.  It was great, except the calories are outrageous!!! So much for that.  Lesson learned, the hard way. I plan on a mid afternoon snack of multigrain crackers and Laughing Cow Veggie Cream Cheese spread.  I’m dying for some more tomatoes. I swear I could eat them nonstop.  I cut up a ripe pineapple this morning, so I may go for more of that. It is really high in cals for fruit bc of its sugar content, but man is it ever good.  And Hubby hates it, so more for me! hehe!!!

First Post… Always awkward.

29 Jun 2012 In: Uncategorized

So July is just around the corner. I have been “back at it” for three weeks now.  My hubby is trying to lose weight with me. Again. It seems like I am in the movie Ground Hog’s Day.  I keep doing this over, and over, and over.  Maybe this time I’ll WAKE UP and things will click into place.

I’ve been overweight since 3rd grade. I was 232 when I severely injured my ankle in my senior year of high school. I was around 245 when I met my husband, and since then, being a teacher, I ballooned up big time. I’m a stress/boredom eater, and a TOTAL sugar addict. I can’t get enough sweet stuff. I could down two boxes of Cadbury cream eggs (i.e. 8 eggs) and not bat an eye. Yeah. Serious issues. I also enjoy double cheese burgers, pizza, steak, fried chicken fingers.  Not big on veggies. Sad, yep.

I hit my highest, scariest weight ever in the first week in June 2012: 280. Ugh. Just writing that number makes me want to run and hide and eat a half gallon of Blue Bell Cookies and Cream. Or Cheesecake. Or Doughnuts.  Too bad. I’ve owned the fact that I’ve allowed myself to become this unhealthy, so here it is. I’m overweight, severely, and it has to change. Thankfully, I’ve lost a little more than 8 lbs. in three weeks. But it is slow. Mind-numbingly slow. I know, I KNOW….. I didn’t put it on over night, yadda yadda, but this diet (or more PC, “life-style change”) stinks. I hate not being able to eat with reckless abandon. I miss sweets. Don’t get me wrong, I have had a 1/2 a cup of ice cream, several York Peppermint patties, and even 4 Hershey “nuggets” (tonight, actually). But I’m used to eatting whatever, whenever.  But… it was killing me slowly.

So after we had a cousin get-together at our house for Brian’s cousins (did I mention we did Chocolate dessert fondue that night?!), Brian and I decided to “lose our bellies”.  So, I’ve been using the app on my iPhone: My Fitness Pal, to count calories, and boy it has really helped.  I tried to do the new WW plan in Jan. 2011, but I got bored with figuring up points on the time.  I felt like I could eat anything for some reason, as long as it was within my points.  Having to see all the calories in everything makes me more aware.  I’ve been trying to avoid white bread, potatoes, pasta, rice, and sugar as much as I can.  I guess it has helped me.

As far as working out, I’ve been walking most nights with my sister-in-law. 30 minutes. This week, I tried the day 1 of Couch to 5k and did the whole first day program except for the last 1 min. run.  Looking back, if I had known that was the last run of the day 1, I would have pushed through I think. Whatever.  That was Wednesday and this is Friday.  My legs are still so sore from doing that that I didn’t walk tonight.  I was also up 2 freakin’ pounds for some reason, I’m guessing my swollen muscles holding onto fluid?  I’m hoping that tomorrow will allow me to try day 1 again and finish.  I can’t do the program in 9 weeks… but I’m going to try to do it in 18.  Every time I can’t finish a day, I’ll just do it again the next time I try. It may be that I have several days of rest between… but that is ok.  I’m OBESE and trying to jog for crying out loud!!!!

Here’s hoping for a good run tomorrow. And weight loss.  My lowest so far has been 271.6. If I can just get below that tomorrow I will be very happy.

Oh, and tomorrow night is a Gender Reveal party for some of our good friends.  Wish me luck that I don’t go over my calories!!!! :/