I was supposed to do this earlier, but the morning was a rushed mess, but… HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! This is my second Christmas on 3FC, and I love you girlies <3 I hope you all are having wonderful times with your families, getting nifty presents, and eating yummy holiday foods :3 Us? We’re having Turducken. Well, lemme take that back. My family is having Turducken. This is one Christmas meal I won’t feel too bad about skipping out on. Brownie triffle dessert on the other hand? I’m all over that.
As far as being OP, you can expect me back on my revamp kick on Monday. I’m not quite ready to be fully accountable, but I’m dedicated to working on it, and that’s good enough for me now. But as I segway into my second week, I’m going to journal what I accomplished in the past week, and what I feel I need to improve on. I think it’s good for me to be totally honest with myself, but also compliment myself so that those feelings of hopelessness don’t muddy my head again.
Things I’m proud of:
-My diligence this week was impressive. Even though I might only have gone for a half hour, I still got my butt to the gym every day this week, and when I didn’t go to the gym, I worked out at home. I only gave myself one rest day, which is okay, too. I was particularly impressed with Tuesday, when I looked at the clock and saw it was already 7:13. I felt a little defeated. The gym closed at 8:00, and I was ready to kick the bucket and say “It’s too late”. But then I reasoned with myself and ended up going. Got in 30 minutes on the elliptical and actually got a nice burn. That’s a fighter, right there!
-Trying at all. Maybe I wasn’t perfect, but the fact that I was giving it some effort and my heart was somewhat in it, I’m proud of. Yeah sometimes I gave in. In fact, a lot of times I gave in, but I kept trying to right myself, and even when I wasn’t perfect, I was still pushing forwards. Persistence, not perfection.
-Sticking to old time limits. This might be small, but I think it’s important. I haven’t worked out like I used to in almost a year. I’m out of shape, but not as out of shape as I thought. I’m still doing 5 miles on the bike, 30 minutes on the elliptical, I can run a mile, and do my Turbo Jam without stopping. There’s strength still in me yet!
Okay, let’s get down to business.
What I need to improve on (Go easy on yourself. I understand that this won’t all be fixed in the next week):
-Diet. This is the most important issue, and I think I will dedicate next week to improving on it. I think once I am more comfortable and fluent in my diet, then I can start to put more restrictions and regulations on myself. But the diet is where I’m slipping the most. I’ve been sort of half-assing it, and I really need to detox. I think it would be healthy for me, and I would feel much better at the end of it. I need to committ to this instead of being lazy with it. I think my poor diet makes me the most unhappy. If I’m more confident in what I put into my body, then maybe my self-esteem will be higher.
-Nighttime munching. This just needs to stop, period. This is where all my bad cravings show up and derail me. If I could get away from this, my diet would probably be much smoother.
-Calorie burn. Again, I’m not too focused on this because right now I’m just sort of warming myself up. Once I get my diet in check again, I will let my mind think on this. But right now, I need the concentration on food and food only.
-Dedication. This is my real flaw. I know I want to change, but my whole head and whole heart haven’t shown up to the party yet. I’m not letting that stop me, which is why I’m proud that I’m trying. I can’t wait for them to get involved, but I need to call them up and try to get them to quit stalling and c’mere. I’m hoping that going through the motions will eventually stir up my old determination, but until then, I’m just going to keep going, even if I’m not 100%.
The best thing for me to do right now, is TRY.
See you all on Monday! Happy Holidays girls :D