There’s a good reason for this post being late, and it is part of my nonsensical ramblings. So last night my poor baby computer contracted the most persistent virus I have had in a while. It was a PAIN. Even in safe mode the thing would just not stop attacking me with pop-ups, and I ended up having to resort to a system restore which I haven’t had to do in a while, actually. I’m always a little anxious when it comes to doing those sorts of things because even though it’s not TECHNICALLY supposed to erase files, I feel like I’m still in danger. But the restore seemed to clean it up and now it is a healthy computer once again. Took me damn near six hours to fix it, but it’s fixed. [EDIT] Funnier still… Not. While writing this post, I got the SAME DAMN VIRUS. I don’t know what’s up, but I restored again and now I’m going into overdrive trying to see if the thing is hiding somewhere on my system.
Alright, now for POSITIVE nonsensical ramblings: Today I went to the gym, only got an hour in because I’m a crazy procrastinator, and I’ve been tryin to finish this anime for like, a week now, and I got to like, halfway through and it started to get good >.> so I kept watching. BUT I WENT TO THE GYM! and that’s what matters. Right now I’m not concerned with time or calorie burn, I’m just trying to get myself going every day it’s open. Also, stopped at Subway on the way there (I’m so proud of myself), and I ordered a 6inch instead of a foot-long (so, so proud).
Although, gotta say, I have been running into this problem lately, maybe it’s the season, I don’t know, but anytime I go to a public place, I am met with the absolute WORST customer service. Everyone has been getting attitudes with me, they don’t use their manners, ignore me, it’s like, it’s Christmas, so what the hell crawled up your butt and died?
Enough nonsensical ramblings! Now step two of my 12-but-not-12-step process. I came up with it while I was at the gym and I heard a song that really got me going. So, for step two I am going to pick some lyrics that really inspire me, and highlight the parts that stick with me the most. Then, I’m going to take the songs, put them on a playlist, and dance to them.
“So live like you mean it, love ’til you feel it
It’s all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real ’til it’s gone
Hold on before it’s too late
We’ll run till we leave this behind
Don’t fall just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives”
- Before It’s Too Late, Goo Goo Dolls
“Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope but failure’s all you know
Remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go”
- Iridescent, Linkin Park
“You know those days when you want to choose
to not get out of bed, you’re lost in your head again
You play the game, but you’re kind of cut
cuz you’re comin down hard and your joints are all stuck
I’ve tried to say that it’s not the only way
I never knew if I could face myself to change
You were pacing, I was insecure, slip and fall, I’m dodging calls
hug the prison I’ve been living in
Yeah, yeah, and it’s okay, I tie my hands up to a chair
so I don’t fall that way
Yeah, yeah, and I’m alright, I took a sip of somethin poison
but I hold on tight.”
- Helena Beat, Foster the People
“I know you’ve got a little life in you yet,
I know you’ve got a lot of strength left.”
- This Woman’s Work, Maxwell
“I don’t know what went wrong
If I did, it wouldn’t matter cuz it just wasn’t enough
You know when your moment comes to be strong, show resistance
and that’s what we’re lead to believe.”
- I Will be Here, Tiesto