Starting Weight: 172.4
Next Weigh-in: Sunday, August 14th
This Week’s goal: -1.4lbs
Been feeling like crap since last night. Just so bummed out, can’t do anything productive, my writing has been going in circles and I can’t sit down and think of a serious idea to work with. I’m just overall in a really blah mood, stemmed from this message I got last night. My friend Megan told me to apply at Hobby Lobby again because they’d be hiring in a week. Both she and my friend (yeah, not so much anymore) Sara both work there, and she told me to put them down as refs. I haven’t talked to Sara much since graduation, but she’s on my facebook and is always one of those “high school” friends you talk to every now and again. So I sent her a message on facebook telling her that I was trying to get a position at Hobby Lobby, and I asked her politely if I could use her as a reference. Two days later and she sends me a message saying “I would feel more comfortable if you didn’t use me. I don’t know you well enough to be a reference. Good luck though”. And I’m thinking, how do you not know me well enough? We’ve been friends for over five years, you’re on my facebook, we’ve had tons of classes together, hung out every single morning when we were in school, have gone to parties together, and the last time I saw her was at my graduation party, but yet she doesn’t know me well enough to let me put her as a ref? Sorry, but I have a hard time believing that. I’m applying at Hobby Lobby, not the secret service.
It just bothers me that I have wanted this job so damn bad, and I have been working so hard to get it, and she won’t even let me put her damn name down on my application. Megan is practically bending over backwards to help me get in and then Sara is going to be a total bitch about it? It’s not like I’m going to be a bad worker. I want the job so bad, I NEED the job. And any little bit of help would be a fricken blessing since I have had such horrible luck in the job department.
I really just don’t even understand how to take that. I was so angry about it when I first got the message, and now I’m just feeling like shit. I’ve been in a bad mood all day, I was in a bad mood all night, and I know this could go one of two ways. 1.) I do get the job because Megan was a good enough ref, and dropped my name enough times to get Tammy to recognize me or 2.) I don’t get the job and I’m stuck thinking “if I had had that one more thing going for me…” It really, really bothers me. I’ve been looking for a job for so long now and I haven’t gotten one single call, and then I decide to narrow in on Hobby Lobby because I knew two good employees and I had connections there unlike EVERY OTHER BUSINESS in this city, and now that idea is totally out the window. Even if I do get the job, it is still going to absolutely bother me that she said that. Because if it had been the other way around, I would have been more than happy to be a reference for her. It’s nice to know at the end of the day that people who claim to be your friends can screw you over. Especially on a matter as important as a job.