Jaymes Flab to Fit Blog

Mid week, thank god and the weekend is coming fast!!! I got to sleep all night again last night,, lil Noelle is sleeping like a champ lately.  She seems to nap in the mornings til around noon and then she is awake for the afternoon and then with everyone home in the evenings , she is wide awake..By the time she gets her bath around 9:30 she is exhausted, the the bath keeps her awake and she has her last bottle bwteen 11-1130 and then by midnight she is all settled in her bed. This morning she didnt budge again til 7:30!! Lucky momma here:)

All the sleep is giving me my energy back!! this morning i did my “walk away the pounds” video, just the 1 mile walk but still it felt great!! it was tough after being inactive for 2months now but i got through it…Lil Noelle was sitting in her bouncy chair infront of me and she was all smiles! She watched me workout for the whole workout and then started to fall asleep:) She is soo cute!

I dug back out my attempted calorie sheet from this week and went back and filled out yesterday and part of mondays meals!! I am on for today and I will keep to the plan and make only positive choices!! PMS is not going to get me down OR cause me to gain 5lbs !!! NO NO NO

I did so well throughout 9months of pregnancy and I cant give up now,, i know what i need to do and now its just putting it back into practice!! i am on my way:)

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Yesterday i craved cookies and sweets in general so badly,,,i havent done that for quite a while and couldnt understand it but i gave in and had two cookies:( Then this morning i struck the worst PMS cramps imaginable and yet TOM isnt expected for another week!! Dear god dont make me suffer with this for a week straight:(

I havent been able to control my appetite as much as i would like.  I printed off my calorie sheet but didnt bother even getting through filling out one days worth of food!! What is wrong with me?? I dont want to gain back all of what i have lost since having Noelle…i wanted that to be my starting point of my weight loss, not my old weight! Time to snap out of this rut i am in.

I cant find my workout video and its driving me insane! and altough we had some good days weather wise,, it is back to being too cold to go out walking with Noelle.  It will warm up by the weekend, so that is good.

I feel miserable and SOOOO Bloated, its horrible.  I need relief from this PMS and there doesnt seem to be anything that helps:( I have a doctors appointment on Friday, so i will be asking for something stronger than an advil or tylenol!! 

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Todays Weight = 375.8

Last Weeks Weight = 375

= + 0.8 GAINED:(

7 Week Weight Loss Results:

Starting Weight = 396.6

Current Weight = 375.8

Total 7 wk loss/gain = -20.8 pounds!

Not happy with the plus side of things this week…but thankful that its only .8 and i will be able to get that off in no time!!!

At home with the two kiddos today for the rest of march break,, this shall keep me doubally as busy….NOELLE SLEPT ALL NIGHT!!! YEAH FOR US:)  we put her down at 12am and she didnt budge til 8am! I feel so well rested today and ready to take on the world!! This isnt the first time,, its actually the 3rd time but the other times we stayed up later than her and so we were tired but not this time!! Must have been all the excitement and noise at chucky cheeses last night,,, We took Dear son there and lil sister stayed awake the whole time!  She is getting soooo big!!

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well tommorrow morning is my official weigh in for the week, i am a bit nervous after sneaking a peak and seeing that i was up today from last weeks weight…hoping by some miracle that it straightens itself out by morning.  Bottom line is that i have to do better,, i am eating better this week but the late night snacking is literally killing me.. my goal of walking 3x this week never happened,i made it out once:( not good enough and altough i had the best of intentions to do my videos, i didnt!!

I have to get it together and soon!!

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Today Lil Noelle and I finally got outside for our very first walk around the neighbourhood,, the weather is gorgeous,, plus 10 degrees!! Its supposed to snow again by the weekend so we may as well take advantage of it while we can:) We walked about an hour and came home again…to my surprise Noelle stayed awake most of the trip and was all smiles, she must have enjoyed the outside as much as mommy! I thought the fresh air would help her sleep but it didnt, she cat napped once at home but  thats about it.. She is doing better with her sleeping though and gave us 7.5hours on saturday night !!!

It feels great to be out and about and moving!! I am hoping we can get 3 walks in this week,, its a slow start but i still want to take it easy until i see my doctor.. this is the 7th week and things are starting to feel normal again with my incision and i dont want to push myself too hard and then have a repeat of last week:(

I havent counted calories at all this weekend,, ugh!! i have to get back on that.

I am missing my son this week,, its march break here and the kids are out of school for the week and he has been at his dads since Friday night and wont come home til wednesday!! Its hard having him gone every weekend but thats the way it goes:( 

Dear hubby put up the crib on the weekend, no more bassinets for Noelle……she just didnt look comfy in them any more.  Thankfully we didnt buy them new since we only got a few weeks out of them…We stil have one in the livingroom to use for naps but we now have the crib set up in our room. She looks so tiny in the middle of it. She loves her mobile and last night she listened to her lullaby c.d that the hospital gave her,,, it helped her fall asleep but boy was it annoying to us parents haha.

We were busy cleaning out our storage room and since we are only in a two bedroom house we are really really running out of space!! we even had to move some things over the in laws basement for storage and now our dresser is in the storage closet to make way for the crib being in our room,, its crazy and its getting worse…i jokingly told hubby that we are going to have to come up with a rule that if we bring something new in the house, two things from the house need to be thrown out!! we look like hoarders but its everything we need haha!

I am not looking forward to moving but i know we have to and sometime soon in the near future.  Noelle needs a bedroom and we desperately need more storage /closets!!

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This weekend we`ve been really busy,,, running around here and there and doing things around the house and we`ve somehow missed lunch yesterday and today! Its now after 6pm and the last thing i had was a bagel this morning for breakfast and i feel as though i am dying of starvation.  I could eat a horse ; which is the problem!! EVERY time we skip a meal, my blood sugar plummets and i start to feel this incurable nausea feeling,, like i could vomit if i dont get food into me pronto.  I hate this feeling and then it ALMOST always leads to overeating at the next meal:( I told dear husband this today, that we have to stop this insanity and make time to eat at lunch time no matter what other things we have planned in the day, this is rediculous….then theres this mentality that “well we missed lunch, so this meal can make up for a lunch and a supper” how rediculous is that!! 

UGH!! so disappointed in my way of thinking sometimes!!

On a positive note, the weather is beautiful here~~ 11 DEGREES and the sun is shining. Hubby brought in the stroller from the car so that lil Noelle and I can get out for walks this week, i am looking forward to that….we are starting slow but eventually our walks will be longer!!!  The goal this week is to walk 3x and i know we can do it!! I am 2 pounds away from 25 pounds lost and i hope to reach this milestone by Thursdays weigh in!! Now i just have to recover from my poor weekend choices and get back up onto the bandwagon and do things right!!

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Finally the weekend is here!! and the weather is on its way to changing for the better, yeah!!

Its been a very stressful week this week. My dear sweet son is really struggling for the past couple of weeks and slowly its only been getting worse. He got sent home from school on Monday and i got called again yesterday about his medication and how teachers are complaining of his behaviour and wondering if we are giving him his meds?? I NEVER miss his meds, not ever…i know that to concentrate at school, he must have his med.  My guess would be that his meds arent working anymore. His mood swings are out of control and apparently he isnt getting much work done while at school either. I am praying for him that he snaps out of the mood that he is in. He is 10yrs old now and he just doesnt get it or care about anything in life.  He thinks that things are his way and only his way.  I worry about what will happen to him as he gets older and into the teen years.   Soooo ive been going through all of this and trying to fight through the terrible system of mental health and find him more support…..ive been doing this for the past 7yrs and so ive lost alot of faith in the system along the way.

On a positive note,,, the scale was good to me again this morning with another drop of 0.6 pounds!! bringing my total to 22.2 pounds lost in the past 6 wks.  I will be seeing my doctor next week and i am hoping for the okay to start excercising!! I cannot wait to do my workout videos and maybe if the weather cooperates to take noelle out for a walk!!

hope everyone enjoys their weekend!!! i  know i will: )

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Last Weeks weight = 378.6

todays weight = 375

total loss this week = 3.6 pounds

6 week weight loss

starting weight = 396.6

current weight = 375

total loss = 21.6 pounds!

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well i am still discouraged but decided to move on…..this morning weigh in has me at 376.4 pounds,, so yesterday was an overall good food day where weight is concerned!

i am stiill counting calories and trying to feel better as far as this awfully sore incision goes. 

Little Noelle slept all night from about 1am til 7am this morning, i was in complete shock when i realized it when the alarm went off for hubby to go to work,, even after that i had to more or less wake her to get her up for a feeding; which she fell asleep through. Its after 9am now and shes still sleeping…must be tired.

hoping for a good day,, and hoping to keep the weight down as i am going to my TOPS group on thursday and want to be down atleast my 20lbs since having noelle. WISH ME LUCK!!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!

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well another monday is upon us….i hate them,, i hate that the weekend is over and that its a long wait til the next one lol.  I hate that i am usually so tired from staying up late on the weekends that all i want to do is sleep.  Little Noelle did good last night,, she went to bed at midnight and was up at 3am and then not again til 7am, when the alarm went off!! i did get some good sleep and so did dear hubby ,as he didnt even know that Noelle and i were up at 3am…so everyone should be well rested today!!! should be………..

i am back to counting calories, when am i going to start this process and stick with it, that is the question?? I am hungry today,, probably lack of calories so far,, trying to eat healthier and smaller portion sizes. I had a good weekend, eating wise,, the scale said 377.2 this morning, music to my ears!!

I am getting really discouraged with this csection recovery:( i hate that it is taking soo long for my incison to close up and feel better! its been 6wks!!! i was really looking forward to excercising this week and well now that has been temporarily put on hold,, until this feels better.  I want to take good care of this now so that i am not dealing with it in the heat,, as the weather is starting to clear up now.  Its so discouraging and its all related to my weight..if i wasnt oveweight i wouldnt be dealing with this…if i ddint have all this flab sagging down over the incision, it would have healed up nicely and long ago..It is what it is and i am making small steps to change it,, its all i can do.

Dear hubby asked to see it last night,, the nurses showed it to him in the hospital and he wanted to look at it and see what he thought was going on.. Its hard for me to see it and honestly i can only see the end of the incision line by looking in the mirror. Its embarrassing because from what is see, it looks all red and irritated.  I dont want anyone to see it let alone my dear husband. I was humilated at the hospital for the damn nurses to show him but i was on so much pain medication that i didnt care.  Its so humiliating to have to hold the big old tummy up to let anyone look at it. 

I NEED TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT!! I HATE MY BODY!!!

then theres the aches and pains i feel on an almost daily basis…walking up the stairs, makes me look like an 85 year old woman….i limp and grunt and groan.  Some days my hands are so sore that they hurt to open them up.  All thanks to the arthritis that is running through this overwieght body!  My heels are all cracked to the point that its painful to put them down to walk.  I was googling it last night and voila there it was again, common cause being OVERWEIGHT!! …..how much more of an eye opener do i need to realize that my wieght is killing my body??

i look at my children and thnk about how i want to be around for them but then i go and sabotage myself with a cookie or ice cappacino…what will it take?? 

I have a chance with Noelle to start over…with my dear son, i feel like he lost out alot because i have been too overweight to get down and play with him or to run and chase him on the playground,, but with noelle if i start now, i will be able to do all of that…not only that but to be a more active parent to my son NOW, today!!

My goal was to lose 50lbs by August,, when my son and i go to camp and well that only leaves me 30 more pounds to go!! i can do this and then some, if i put my mind to it…i cant keep putting off my priorities…

I want a body that i can be proud of ,, i want good health and energy to keep up with my kids. I don`t want to die a young death!!!  I WILL DO THIS!!!

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