Its not the jeans that make me look fat — its the FAT!!!

Still fluffy but will be getting back to “norm” next week. Hoping to make August 5th day 1 (yet again). We will be getting an extra hour to hour and a half in our day at home now. Both of us would like to use that time wisely for both our health benefits. We will play with Wii on bad days - go for walks on nice days - just hopefully do what we need to do and I have to get back to weighing and measuring. I am not being horribly bad - but not being great either. I will admit yesterday I was jonesing for a treat when we went shopping. I bought my sweetie two huge cookies and wandered through the bakery section looking for something. Thank goodness for the calorie labels. I had one delicious looking chocolate mousse cake in my hands — I turned it over and it was 770 calories!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Back it went and I bought a small slice of carrot cake (that’s healthy right?? LOL). At least it will take about three sittings to eat the cake - probably about 300 calories a sitting - so much better — right??? LOL

My mom wants to take me dress shopping - so I will have to suck it up and buy something fabulous - it just won’t be a size 12. I saw one style online the other day that looks gorgeous - hoping I can find something similar to try on. The wedding is becoming a larger monster than I had hoped for - my list is getting longer and the date is looming. Just have to breath and get it done - before I know it, it will be Oct 19 and it will be all over but the bills to pay

Went on a bike ride on Sunday - so frikken nice. What with all the construction around our area I had to get off and walk a few times. I am sure my sweetie was thinking are we on a bike ride or a bike push?? LMAO. Been eating ok - I would say I am about 80% good which is just maintaining eating - I keep hoping that my foot will feel better soon with all the care and attention its getting. I am not sure when I can get back to my classes but I do know when my sweetie changes job at the beginning of August because we are going to have an extra hour a day we are going to be using that hour to go for a walk or play with Wii. This is a vow we have made to each other. Now that we have the PVR no excuse to watch any show at 7 — so the hour between 7 and 8 will be our exercise time. Because we get home so late now we are usually cooking dinner at 7 — so no time to walk or anything after work. I am thrilled that my sweetie is happy to do this with me. As it is he will be walking or riding his bike to work every day. Its about a 10 minute walk and less than 5 minute bike ride - so very very cool. We worked it out yesterday and we will be saving 6000km a year wear and tear on our car - so that is a great thing.

Now if I can only take as good care of myself - lets turn that 80% into 90% and I will be happy happy happy with myself.

So I got up this morning (sweetie is off to work) and I fired up my Wii Fit for the first time in 2 weeks (just before vacation). I am stunned that I registered a .2 pound weight loss. Something MUST be wrong with the electronics. But dang it all I will take it any way I can. I will watch what I eat now - no more mindless grazing - although I will admit I wouldn’t quite call it mindless. Everything I choose to eat had a calorie count and I made sure I didn’t go over. My biggest splurge over the last two weeks has been cherries — I LOVE LOVE LOVE fresh cherries and they are good for my constitution I know the calorie count is HUGE but its a treat that I only get once a year. If I decided to treat myself to a bucket of ice cream that is different because I know after a week of indulgence I can go back to the store and get some more. I don’t think the cherries will be around much past next week. So once a year I will treat myself to my fresh cherries - once they are gone I can forget about them until next season. No time this morning to do the workout but I will get back on it this afternoon and hopefully tomorrow my sweetie and I can take the bikes out for a lovely ride. The weather right now is just frikken perfect. Lovely and warm (not hot) during the day and it cools down so much in the evening if we leave the back door open I have to put a blanket on to watch TV. Sleeping at night is fabulous and we haven’t even had to turn on the fan for about 4 nights now. Just saw the forcast for the next week and its another week of sunshine and perfect temperatures (about 22 which is 75 US degrees LOL)

And another good thing I accomplished this past week is to get my list started. My friend that is going to be my day of planner for the wedding sat down and compiled a list - bounced ideas off of each other, made a decision about the linens and just really got things ready for the home stretch. My next biggest task is to make a spreadsheet of all the addresses for the invitations and finish off my photobook on Shutterfly. I decided to create a photobook capturing our year of being engaged and used two of the pages for guest’s signatures. I thought I was being so smart until I went onto a wedding message board and saw several other brides have done much the same thing LOL. Well I did think of the idea myself - just turned out it wasn’t so unique.

Before I start — Z  I love you!!!!  I love your comment but I will stick with my blog name (for now).  I LOVE ironic statements and I just love this saying.  I can send you a picture of me that would confirm my whole body image issue. I just choose to delete those sort of pictures.  As a matter of fact just last week my darling showed me a picture his mother took when we were together last.  In the picture was myself looking every one of my 240 pounds - no word of a lie.  My darling looked like he had either just suffered a stroke or finished off an entire keg of beer on his own.  Her husband was also in the picture stuffing his face with something and huge beer in the other hand waiting to be guzzled. Candid pictures are one thing but constantly taking pictures when people are eating or from bad angles is just rude in my opinion. Why she thought we would even be interested in seeing that picture is beyond me - but a lot of what that woman does is beyond me and my way of life.  Ohhh so where was I?  Until I find another fitting ironic phrase  I will keep this one but just know I love you dearly for the kind consideration and always being my favourite New England cheerleader. 

Jumped on my Wii yesterday and ate well most of the day. No surprise I had a weight gain on the Wii - but I won’t let it get me down - just made me want to dig in and move more and eat a bit less. Would have been a good day but I got screwed up at lunch time - - BIG mistake!!! You would think I would learn by now if I miss my lunch I only eat more in the afternoon. Silly and stupid - but I was busy taking mom to the chiropractor and then wanted to take her out for lunch but she was not quite up to it. I was able to take her to Starbucks - I had a tiny scone there — yes they make tiny ones - really tiny I thought that would hold me over but when I got home later it just crept up on me. I made some pasta and put some tzaziki sauce on it - not a huge whack of calories but certainly more than I would have eaten for lunch and for snack. I had started to input my calories for the day and had reached 877 before I ate the pasta - sighs. Sunday we got up early and went to the farmer’s market I stocked up on fresh cherries. Once again I only get to eat them for about a month of the year. I won’t eat them out of season so its a treat and I have enjoyed them so far.

Actually on the topic of seasonal treats. We have local strawberries here that are second to none. The season is very very short but they are very very good. I try to get one serving in each year. My mom was telling me her friend waits all year to make good old fashioned short cake and fresh whipped cream - all covered in the fresh BC strawberries. I could do with a once a year treat like that - a real indulgence that you can only do once because the seasons dictate it. Hmmmm something to think about.

Oh and the best news of all is I finally decided on the colours for my wedding. Quite honestly at first I wasn’t going to worry too much about decor (still not) and colours. There is no wedding party, no theme so I thought why bother. But as time is growing closer I started to think I should begin to think about invitations and place cards etc. One thing let to another and from the beginning I knew I wanted navy blue linens on the tables with white napkins. The other day I was tossing around some ideas in my head and it occured to me an accent decor item and colour - apple green. So it all came together, navy blue, white and apple green. I found some great flower ideas using green apples in the vases or bowls. Each place card would be pinned to a green apple - the ideas are endless. So I am excited about that and can hardly wait until I can try out some of the styles with my friends. I just have to decide a few different things so that my caterer knows what to order from the linen supplier. I will keep you posted - YAY. Here are some of the inspirations.