Its not the jeans that make me look fat — its the FAT!!!

Sounds like chapters in the bible — hmmmm Don’t mean to be sacrilegeous — Joanne 2:2

Another good day — very busy running around at work and then I had my monthly massage and chiro appointment so another night not walking in the door until about 7 but its all good. I got home and was greeted with my darling sweetie using the Wii — he racked up 55 exercise minutes — WOW!!!! Of course that made me determined to get on and do some minutes after dinner. I would like to do the body test but don’t want to do it at the end of the day - maybe Saturday morning. My calories were another great day of 1708 - lots of walking around and 30 minutes of tough on the Wii. Did the super hula hoop again and carried weights through some of the strength and the step exercise - all good stuff.

I am currently watching the Biggest Loser Australia — it seems to run forever — it started before Bigglest Loser Couples started — anyway last night the final four were presented to a large crowd of people that were trying out for the next BLA show. It was another reinforcing show that had them talking to the crowd and telling them that if they can do it anyone can. That it isn’t a quick fix and you have to own your body - not the other way around. I need to see and hear this reinforcement over and over. Its true. When I was driving home from work I was hungry - - I shouldn’t have been and I realized that and pushed through the hunger and waited until after my appointments to eat anything and guess what I survived!!! There are times that I get hungry and its so bad I get a pain in my shoulder (weird eh) those times I have to have something and I can usually account for the hunger — this is what I have to pay attention to. The times that hunger could just be habit and the times I really need to feed my body. I guess that’s what owning your body is all about.

So I decided to get out my calorie counter — all part of the process. Did keep my calories under 1700 which is a YAY!!!! Didn’t get home until 7 — after work I had to get some stuff for my mom and go visit with her. We got some upsetting news yesterday and she needed some words of comfort. I have to admit the new rocked me — but only because its an all too familiar story to my own several years ago. An childhood friend of mine is currently at her husband’s bedside while cancer takes him from her - the worst part of the story is she is in a foriegn country with no family or friends to help her (they were on a cruise and he was airlifted to a hospital in Greece –**). So I didn’t want to leave my mom alone - we were just at a huge gathering for another member of this same family on Sunday so its rather a fresh feeling and my poor mom wishes she could go help - but she isn’t doing well herself with her last chemo treatment and her health is #1 right now.

Ok so enough of that rambling. The best part of the night was about 8 when I finally sat on the couch - I declared yesterday a WiiFit free day. After about 30 minutes of relaxing I found myself going upstairs and getting into my workout gear. Came down turned on my Wii — it asked me if G (my sweetie) was looking fitter - LMAO. It was glad to see me back two days in a row and I did a fabulous 20 minute workout. I yelled at the trainer, laughed with the super hula hoop and took my bubble down the river but never got to far (balance game) - lets just say after 20 minutes I was sweating, aching and feeling FABULOUS!!!!!! We need to get more of these shipped over from Japan!!!!

 J

**PS - thank goodness for the internet and dear friends.  I was able to send a note to a online friend in Greece and get some information - will help ease some minds over here.

Ok time to get my butt back here. Was off on vacation last week - spent most of the week with appointments for us and my mom but its all good. During the middle of the week my sweetie scored an awesome find. He was able to not only purchase the new WiiFit board for us but the Wii console also. I will tell you my friends its an awesome addition to any activity in our lives. Its a blast - its fun and I get to pretend I am slalom skiing, tennis, golf — all the things that I would never do in real life. But after 20 minutes of challenging myself I am sweating, breathing hard and ache the next day — everything you want from exercise. I highly recommend the system and especially the WiiFit.

I haven’t gained any weight but I am pleased to say I haven’t put on anything — I am watching what I eat and today when I got to work I got out my little calorie counter. I think with getting more activity in my life and watching my calories the 10 pounds I want gone before the wedding is absolutely doable. Sweetie wants to shed 10 by then too

So back at it — again - but I will never give up.

So it was a good and bad day. Had some difficulties in the morning that threw me off for the day and I was dreading having to go to the dentist feeling that way - but crap happens (LOL or not). Eating for most of the day wasn’t bad — went over to our Starbucks for my bi-weekly mocha treat and they had the plain rice krispie squares — 450 calories of fun LOL. But I wasn’t hungry for the rest of the day - I ate a late lunch but could only eat part of it. Of course I head to the dentist about 3 and my tummy is letting my know its not happy with lack of food. Nothing I can do I was triply frozen for crown prep - sat there for 2 hours and knew the evening wasn’t going to be good. I was hungry but unable to eat a thing. So I got my sweetie to get me my first in a couple of years — I got a MacDonalds milkshake!!! It was all I had for dinner - all I could manage. As it turns out my freezing was still going strong until after 8 — blech!!!!! So obviously not a great calorie day but I will blame it on the freezing.

Speaking of dentists I read the neatest analogy yesterday about falling off the eating wagon. It went something like this — if you get up one day and forget to brush your teeth - -would you berate yourself - call yourself stupid and never brush your teeth again because you obviously just can’t manage something so important. The article said weight loss is the same - just because you forget or don’t do it right for one day — there is no reason to believe you can’t do it right the next day. I will remember the brushing teeth analogy for a long time. It makes sense to me - just because I mess up one day doesn’t mean I am incapable. I am, I will, I CAN!!!!

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Yesterday was another decently not horrid day. We are off on vacation next week and both of us have vowed to get more exercise in during our day. I have an appointment with a podiatrist and hopefully he can figure out how to help my foot and that way I can return to my classes. I miss that the most in my week. I also wish I could be more like my son when I grow up - yes you read that correctly. His dedication to his training and working out is incredible. He had an appointment with his coach on Tues - it was raining and miserable and his coach is 90 minutes from home. I wasn’t sure if he even had his bike with him or if he was really going to go in the rain. But he came in last night about 9:30 after his training session — where did he get this dedication from?? I admire him so much (as well as being so proud) — I just wish I had his drive and dedication - why isn’t the tree as good as the apple?? I should be the one setting a good example!! Anyway as my mantra has been for the last few months - there is always next week - I just refuse to give up and become complacent - I will do this one way or another - if I don’t my 60’s are going to be one miserable decade and we don’t even want to discuss my 70’s. I have a young healthy partner who wants to see the world with me - I will have difficulty keeping up if I don’t shed this extra poundage!!!

OK so once again I will be going through a funky week — no real direction no desire to be fabulously good. I will admit though that I just can’t eat like I used to. I should have input my calories for the day but I did have quite a few licorise allsorts (dangerous goodies those are) and I was unable to eat a decent dinner. All I had was my salad. Again I will look backward and remember when I could polish off the entire container of allsorts in one sitting and still be able to eat a full dinner. So far its taken me three days to eat the allsorts and I still have some left — so that is a positive in the way that I am eating. I am listening to my stomach more - -things I would have never done in the past. I used to be able to just push past the discomfort and find “one more” treat to stuff in my mouth. Geesh I think back on how when my late husband would leave town with our son and I would head to the market and purchase the makings for nachos — with the works. I would eat two huge plates of that by myself and then have a couple of dove bars for dessert. That was just one of my discretions - I could list them forever - -actually I should start writing them down when I think of them - I was bad bad bad and of course that is why I hit 250 pounds — heck I think at my most I was 280 - I never saw more than 275 on the scales but I was so fearful of the scales for so long.
Enough looking back — look forward Joanne look forward.

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Well the shift didn’t last long — went south on Friday - -ate too much pasta salad at lunch. Then craved a chocolate bar on the way home - had to stop for milk and bought the chocolate (thought it was close to TOM). Although I will admit I didn’t eat anything after that. I know in my old days I could plow through a chocolate bar with ease - and then stuff my self silly with a full fledged dinner. Saturday was just weird - -spent most of the day taking care of my mom. She was in a bad place - which is sad because she only has one more treatment left — but she was so darn low she could have cared less and just wondered what life had in store for her next. I finally walked away from her bedroom and went into her living room to read until she was ready to act human. By the time I got home on Saturday it was close to 5pm and I was done in. We had a movie to watch at 7 so that was great — I don’t think I ate again but I must have picked at something - can’t even remember.

Sunday was a lovely day - we had already done mother’s day last week for me and my mom so this was about my enjoying myself and my sweetie going to play tennis with his family. Where we live is truly a jewel on this planet earth and the area by the tennis courts is glorious. I got my sweetie to drop me off near one of the other beaches and I walk down to the club. Its the most beautiful scenery and I get to really take in all the lovely houses (most are valued at least 2 million $$) Anyway its a lovely 40 minute walk - I am sunburned on my chest today - -remembered sunscreen on my face but not my neck and chest area. We thought we were going to eat at the club after tennis but the restaurant was closed so we didn’t eat until closer to 5 - I was STARVED. Only able to eat half the pasta - have th rest for lunch.

So it was a weird weekend with my eating - -nothing too horrid but nothing really good either - strange strange. Just pleased about my lovely walk above everything.

So something is shifting - -something must be going right - my doctor says so I will have to look back at when I did weigh myself last - I am sure it was couple or few months ago. Saw the lovely 250 on the scale and got to work. Fell down a few times but never fell too far - -always did my best (when I could) to eat right - kept moving and I guess somewhere along the way I have been doing ok. I can feel it in my clothes and then yesterday I was my doctors getting my blood pressure checked and find out about some other things - he commented almost immediately that I look like I have lost weight. I will take it - LOL. Visiting here every day is one of the reasons for success — avoiding crap which is almost easy. I remember a couple of weeks ago I was face down in a semi HUGE cinnamon bun - I was sick for the rest of the day. I have little or no desire to repeat that feeling so I watch what I treat myself with. I may not be measuring my rice to perfection but I bet I am closer to my 1/2 of what I should be eating rather than the 1 - 2 cups I used to eat and there is a savings of 150 - 450 calories easily!!!

So I did the stairs all day - never once went down the hall. Recorded all my calories until we had a meeting at the end of the day — I left the meeting in a really vile mood - -my poor sweetie had to listen to me drop the F Bomb most of the way home. To top it off my mom needed me to do some grocery shopping for her. She wanted to play martyr - but I wanted to be the martyr yesterday — so when it was all said and done I got hom officially and put my feet up about 7:30 (I start work at 7:30am). So I didn’t input any of my afternoon eating - just some extra cheese - but something seems to be happening — I am feeling better and my clothes are fitting not horrid. I am still a huge human - but more comfortable with myself. Anyway - just keep moving and moving forward.

So (pause - had to put in my bi-focal contacts - -jury is still out about them) ok back and certainly happy about two choices I made yesterday. Actually three choices. First was to start using the PDA - second was I ended up going up to the third floor a couple of times to use the washroom (bathroom for my American friends LOL). I started thinking about it and if I made myself do that every day - -that is 6 or 7 more flights of stairs than I would normally take and every flight of stairs is a bonus. I did my input and came up with 1900 calories - -only because I treated myself to my mocha - there will NOT be a repeat treat today. I also put my runners on and got up to go for a walk at 3:30. I wandered out back to see what our baby bird population is - yesterday there was one goose family with 8 babies but only one duckling. Will most likely go back today and see how many others there are. Sadly my foot started to hurt so I had to turn back. I will be seeing my doctor tomorrow and ask for x-rays and I might have to get an orthotic for my left foot. Its just a pain (pun intended) in the foot.

Onward to another day.