Its not the jeans that make me look fat — its the FAT!!!

Calories — wait for it 1673 Which shocked the frikken heck out of me. I ate my normal meals during the day. Had to go to a meeting and missed my afternoon snack. I really really hate when I get hungry — my body starts getting all pissed at me and believe it or not my shoulder starts aching — its the weirdest thing. I get all gassy and its awful. I had my lunch bag with me (the meeting was off campus) and I was ready to reach under and start chomping on the licorice I had with me — the almonds would have been too loud LOL. I was only 2 hours after my normal snack time but my body was craving that protein and I was miserable. I actually left the meeting early and ran across the street to where my sweetie was waiting for me - -I just jumped in the car and started eating. Thank goodness because last night was our fashion show night and I didn’t have dinner until almost 3 hours after he picked me up. Ok now is where I am thrilled, happy and so pleased with my calories. I did not drink anything but water — I just keep telling my girlfriends I am pregnant - I avoided the basket of bread and made good choices on the menu — its a limited menu but with some work I can make it work. When I got home I sat down with my new little best friend and was shocked and amazed and THRILLED that my calories for the day only added up to 1673!!! And that included a tiny scoop of ice cream — the cake it came with was awful so very easy to avoid. I CAN DO THIS!!!!

Calories for 03/11 1772 not bad at all — only that high because I treated myself to a Starbucks skinny mocha otherwise I would have been 180 calories less. I also had a lunch meeting and I ignored EVERYTHING. I brought my chicken and rice and had that instead of the gorgeous make it yourself (but at least 1000 calories) sandwiches. I know the assistant that placed the lunch order was doing their best to order healthy but right now in this beginning stage I need to do things right and not wander off target if possible. Tonight might not be so easy — I am going to our quarterly fashion show — its for charity and just a nice night out with some of my closest female friends. I was chatting with Char and I think I will try to choose the vegetarian entree — that should keep the calories down but I doubt if I will sit in the middle of the restaurant with my scale and calorie counter inputting every thing I eat. I will just be smart about not drinking and hopefully no dessert. Although last night on Biggest Loser Bob admitted that they give the contestants a cheat meal every week after weigh in and our successful Nausicaa also has a cheat meal each week (or there abouts). Its not about trying to stuff 2000 extra calories but if you can enjoy something thats 500 to 1000 up and over your normal calorie intake its “apparently” good for the system and keeps our metabolism in its toes. Hey I won’t abuse the cheat meal but its nice to be able to incorporate it into my lifestyle.

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Calories for 03/10 (lets check my little beastie) 1684 I enjoyed every calorie — did not throw anything in my mouth that didn’t belong and wasn’t recorded. I feel great about the numbers now I just need to bump up the exercise. I won’t be able to get to class because I have a meeting but if I can sneak out of work a bit early I will go over to the gym. So yesterday was my son’s first day of classes here on campus. He popped in during one of his breaks (what a wonderful thing to have happen). Sort of took him by surprise that they had to put in a full day of classes on Day 1 and he has an exam on Friday — they don’t coddle the apprentices’ here LOL. I asked him if he was ok for lunch and he said “I am not working just sitting there so I am not that hungry” Why can’t I be like that??? No wonder he is 6′1″ and 170 (if he is lucky) pounds. I am so happy for him that he inherited his father’s metabolism. Well main thing is I am happy with myself — I wonder if this has to do with me getting into that lovely dress I bought. 20 less pounds it will fit perfectly (or a pair of Spanx)

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Calories for 03/09 1508 not sure why I am keeping my calories down. Having this beast next to me makes me very concious of every bite I take - even more so than when I was recording on the computer. This is instantaneous and very very complete. I can create recipes, meals and input all my own food. I do notice some differences with calories even with brand names. My Quaker Oatmeal is 120 calories for 1/3 a cup and on the calculator its 100. So I am checking and comparing. Other than that I did little or no exercise — except for shopping and moving and cleaning stuff up. We have two weeks until my son moves in and a lot of crap to go through. Its funny we bought a new LCD TV to put upstairs while he is with us (we will be renovating the basement when he moves out), we bought it a week ago and its still in the box with the seal intact. My son helped my fiancee to take it upstairs yesterday and he was in awe that it was still in the box. There is so much furniture, computer and cable shuffling we have to do and setting up the TV is about last on the list. We are just lucky my son is so capably with hooking up all this stuff he will be able to do it in half the time it would take the two of us just to figure out what cord goes where LOL.

Thrilled to report my calories for 03/07 1818 and 03/08 1458 both days were recorded on my new little handheld calculator — what a ton of fun and the more I used it the more I wanted to get things recorded. The one I purchased came with about 35,000 food items already recorded - I can input another 1000. It tracks my exercise and so much more. I can connect it to my computer (haven’t done that yet). Its great and I hope I can continue loving it and being diligent — so much better than being tied to a computer for my calorie input. YAY!!!! Got in some exercise but not quite what I wanted - main thing is to just keep moving. I even set aside 30 minutes as exercise and chose to move boxes and clean through stuff as my exercise — total twofer time LOL.

Wow four days!!!!  WOW!!!! Calories for 03/06 1714 which I am thrilled with. This was a real test day — spending the night at my mom’s and not having my food and of course I eat when I am stressed. I focused on the fact that eating would NOT cure what is happening with my mom. Eating right and being healthy is what I NEED to help my mom and myself. I can feel my joints being upset with me again and I can’t do that to myself again. Only thing I didn’t do was get up and really move around — I was active but I could have done better. I was sitting in my mom’s beautiful condo looking at the lovely lake and thinking I should get outside and go for a wonderful walk — one thing let to another and the day got away on me but I did have one great thing happen. I ordered a dress a couple of weeks ago with the thought that if I liked the material and the style live and in person I might seriously think of using it for my wedding. Well it came yesterday - I opened the package over at my mom’s and we both agree its lovely and unless something better comes along it will be a beautiful wedding dress. Its my colour - the style is flattering and if I lose 20 pounds (or buy a pair of Spanx) it will look fabulous. So there it is I think I have my dress.

Calories for 03/05 1683 took a good deal of work to keep it there — but Wed are good for calorie counts. I have my core concept class at 12:30 and eat only a bit of lunch before going. When I come back I finish off my lunch and dont’ have much more until dinner. Actually yesterday while I was doing the class I realized that I wasn’t really breaking a sweat and that I could just stay in my workout gear (joy of my job) and head over to the gym after work for a small workout. I did 5 minutes on the elliptical and 15 on the bike — I would have preferred the treadmill but the boys had the gym in full use — LOL another one of those days that I almost believe its “men’s day” at the gym. Things went south in the evening - just as I was heading to bed my mom called and said she wasn’t doing well and could I spend the night. Over I went — glad to do it — she is so independant and stubborn I am quite pleased that she asked and I know she only asks if its really really important. So I must do my best today to eat right and not let the “stress” get to me.

Just barely - I have had a headache since Monday morning and I believe its my body rebelling for lack of the ugly carbs I was feeding it.  I know when I was in my funk the last couple of months I started the day with twice the cereal (or oatmeal) than I am eating now. I would treat myself to something at least once a week when I went to Starbucks I guess slowly and surely I was eating far too many bad carbs — I guess I know it!!!!  Anyway kept the calories just under 1800 (1776) and had my 40 minutes workout — fabulous wonderful and so glad to be back even if my workout clothes don’t fit - I will be there again.

I did well eating for most of the day and then just as the evening was about over I decided to purge out the last of the treats in the kitchen.  Did I throw them out?  Nope ate them — 250 calories of nothing.  But my calories for the day was 1850 and that’s not horrid - I would have preferred to report the 1600.  No exercise to report but it was a busy physical day at work — love that I have those more often than not - YAY!!

So all in all day 1 was ok - -not perfect but not horrid by any means.

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OK I have been an ostrich with my head in the sand ignoring how tight my clothes were getting.  How pudgy the flab on my belly was getting.  I made excuses for myself — I was too tired, too upset, too sick, too too too.  So I too tooed myself up to 250 pounds — I am owning those numbers I did it - that is what it is - and now once again I have to do something about it.  I will admit instead of putting on 10 pounds more each time I lose — this time out I must be a tad smarter because I am coming to my senses before I hit my highs.  My highest weight ever was 275 pounds.  I went down to 230 (watch for the trend LOL).  Back up to 267 - down to 230 yet again and now back up to 250.  Its still frikken yo-yo lifestyle — not healthy and I have to stop it NOW.

So I had a bit of fun on the weekend — made myself sick with chinese food at the food court — could I have picked something better to pig out on??  I had my fav cookies but that is all behind me now — today I started out weighing and measuring my breakfast and my lunch.  So far as of mid morning I have eaten 369 calories - soon to add another 150 to that number.  Lunch I have to figure out — I measured everything — its all healthy and hopefully filling.  If I can drag myself from my desk at 3:30 I will head to the gym — but no matter what (ok there can be unforseen circumstances) I will be at my class on tues, Wed and Friday.

Back and proud of it — I know I shouldn’t have to make that claim but the damage is done and now I have to undo.