What makes me ignore what I know?

2009 hasn’t been fun yet. I feel like the people with overinflated egos and super-entitlement issues are crowding me out. Like big balloons, there’s no room for me. To breathe. I’m unhappy, unmoored. I was doing so well last year, but now… not.

Desperation from the Marketing folks.  In the food labeling world, Marketing is on one side and regulations are on the other…and I’m the enforcer. So what I perceive as a barrage of pure make believe “what-if…” “let’s pretend…” etc. is just no fun. Suspending judgement and belief isn’t the point when you’re the regulatory affairs coordinator.  They ask me if it’s legal, I say no, then it’s my fault they can’t make a product claim with no basis… HELLO??

So I say “maybe” when I mean “In your dreams!” then I stop at DQ on the way home for an ice cream cone. It’s my choice I know, I sound victimized… but the truth is it’s hard to keep a handle on emotional eating issues when things are so stressful for much of the working day.

I just can’t get a grip on MY issues. Instead I concentrate on all the ways I’m failing to be helpful, turn it against myself, disassociate from whatever I can. I get irrationally mad at other things… dream of all the mistakes I made, the choices I should have made. Talk about what-ifs!

 

 
 
 
 
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Posted on June 1st, 2009 by jaxie
Filed under: weight loss

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