When a week starts out with someone rear-ending your vehicle when you yield to an oncoming truck at an intersection, it can shake you up a little! Chances are the rest of the week can only get better, right?
But no… I’m distracted, disconnected and half ticked off. This isn’t easy to camouflage in my working environment, so I’m keeping my head down, getting lost in work. Which means I lose perspective and almost everything gets off kilter and out of perspective. I’m a regulatory affairs officer for a food manufacturer, so my efforts are generally focused on understanding the latest government directive vis a vis food labeling. I would come back as something else, I think. A gardener, or an artist, maybe. Almost anything else would do for my next life.
Over the past weekend I stayed on track with food, and adding hours of yard work, raking, toting wheelbarrow full loads of dirt, leaves, logs, etc. up the hill and over the bank, to my daily walks and weekend hikes with Jackson. There’s a lot more to do, too, of course, one thing leads to another.
Trying to decide whether to go out to the Chicago area for my Aunt’s funeral. It’ll be the last time I see that branch of the family and I feel like I’ll be sorry if I don’t make the effort.
If I could just frame it more positively for myself I’d be more enthusiastic… there’s a lesson there somewhere. Feeling like I should do something rather than wanting to do it means I have to force my attention to deal with it. Not my strong suit, certainly not this week.
Did I mention that I weigh exactly the same after staying on track for one month as I did at the beginning of the month?
Posted on April 9th, 2009 by jaxie
Filed under: Fits and Starts, Rant
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