It turns out it’s possible to pay lip service to certain concepts ones entire life without holding them up to reality. I’m finding a lot of bars I jumped really high to clear were pretty unimportant and others I didn’t bother with were pretty important.
My good “occasional” friends, 45 plus years on, have oddly similar life experiences compared to mine. Oddly similar? Of course not. I gravitated toward people like me, with the same strengths (and dysfunctions…) that’s why I felt comfortable with them.
I’m perennially working on ”be kinder,” “more compassionate,” “better organized,” “be a listener.” I should concentrate on thinking of these as opportunities, not shortcomings, then maybe I can knock them off, one by one. How benevolent, loving and self affirming is that?
A few things I’ve learned that I can knock off. That it was going to be key to stay healthy and non-dependent on prescription drugs. And to stay light so I won’t blow out a knee. Reasons for staying healthy have never been in short supply, til now focused on doing the things I enjoy doing out of doors. Even as the pounds have multiplied I’ve stayed active and strong. Until my late fifties I didn’t know what I know now–there’s a tipping point, a place past which coming back is nearly impossible. You can’t walk because your knees swell and because you’re not walking your knees get worse. That’s the tipping point. And I’m moving away from it as fast as I can!
Posted on February 19th, 2009 by jaxie
Filed under: Fits and Starts
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