Wow…2008 is almost history!! It was December of 2006 when my daugter and I started our new relationship with food and how we ate it. Two years later I am disappointed with the fact that I have not yet reached my goal!!! I have no one to blame but myself and that is exactly who I do blame….me! I had a goal of getting to 175 by this Christmas of 2008 and I didn’t get there…I could have…I just chose (thru my bad eating choices) not to. All is NOT lost though. I am still way below where I started. I was at my all time high at 285 and lost all the way down to 188 but as of this writing I am back up to 210 and HATING IT!!!! The recent good news (if any) is that I had allowed myself to get back to 220 at one point. I stood there on the scale and cried and vowed to at least get back down to below 200. So I am down 10 pounds and heading for my first mini-goal of 199. Once I get there I will head for my original goal of 175…which with God’s help and my better behavior I still plan to reach!!!
I am not trying to sound negative…except maybe to myself. I am just venting at myself and I figure if I can have a little accountability and moral support along the way…then those are always pluses!!
My daughter continues her constant weight vigil and has not gained any of her weight back…bless her heart!!! She fights it everyday…wish I had her stamina and willpower. Trust me she has been on my case constantly (God bless her) to make sure I do not allow myself to get back to that awful condition I was in when we started our weight loss journey.
I have a picture weight loss journey on my Facebook page if any of you are interested to see where I started from…the url is http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/profile.php?id=1142666618&ref=profile scroll down and look on the left hand side for photos and there will be 11 albums click on see all and go to my weight loss journey one.
I hope you all had a great CHRISTmas!!!
I am back and MORE determined than ever to succeed!!! LORD WILLING!!!!
So for those of us who have fallen off the wagon or are wavering…let’s get our goals back in sight and continue our war on fat and unhealthy lifestyles!!!!
God bless!!
Judy
Posted on December 29th, 2008 by jarjonja
Filed under: General
Judy, I know the feeling of disappointment in yourself for having regained much too well, and I am totally here for you by your side, fighting the same fight. I’ve tried to be able to manage my weight with less focus in my life but it just doesn’t work for me, and it’s only in the past few months that I’ve accepted that I’ll just have to put more prioriy and effort to make this work.
I am very sorry to hear about the loss of Cody. Sending you big hugs.