I have been thinking alot of how I got to the point of this weight and why I want to lose it.  In high school I was 110 mostly(my lowest was 104 and my highest was 125)I didn’t think about what i ate, wasn’t real athletic just had a great metabolism.  Then I got pregnant with number 1 son.  I gained 80 lbs due to gestational diabetes, then before i could even blink I was prego with number 2 son.  I did lose weight before number 3 son(got down to 135) but then had number 4 son.  When I went in with him, I weighed 210 lbs!  Alot of that was water because I left the hospital at 180. Then I had all the excuses of a mom with 4 active young boys - no time, no energy, no desire.  Then I was divorced and now a single mom! Working full time, voluteering, cub scouts, church, football, baseball, band etc.  Those years were a blur!  I was seeing a guy that just wasn’t for me.  God intervened and we broke up.(on my own it would not have happened, I didn’t want to be alone).  The first few weeks were rough and I lost 25 lbs.  All i seemed to be able to eat was salad and garden veggie cup of soup.  i went from needing a size 16 to a size 10!  At the same time I had ridden my first RAGBRAI(a bike ride across Iowa).  Well , I tried. A combination of a bad bike and too much weight of my own to push up the hills hurt my knees.  So i only rode 5 of the 7 days. But i still rode over 300 miles Talk about a confidence booster! I decided to do it again next yar.  I also started college as a nontraditional student.  One of the classes I had to take was personal wellness.  I signd up for classes just before the semester started and was only able to get aerobic cross training and raquetball for classes.  The first day of class the teacher told us we all had to RUN a mile.  I was damn near 40 and had never run a mile in my life! And i told him so.  But he made me do it.  It took 25 minutes but I did it.  By the end of class i was down to 12 minutes a mile.  And a size 8!  then training started for the next bike ride. I got 600 miles in before the ride even started! So that year I rode 1100 miles. i felt great! and i was in a size 6!  Then I dont know what happened…nothing major or bad….kept up on riding RAGBRAI, but started  gaining weight.  Now I weigh 190.  I have asthma and am afraid of diabetes and I have no energy.  I want to try and stop the negative health issues the weight has on my body.  I feel strongly God has a purpose for me but don’t think I can do it if I am not healthly.  So I started this blog, watching my food intake and have committed to a 5 k in May.  Lets see how it goes!