My calorie intake for today:
Breakfast: 30g Special K with 125ml skimmed milk - 158 calories.
Green tea - 1 calorie.
Lunch: Weight Watchers chicken, potato and leek soup: 96 calories
Dinner: Half a Weight Watchers chicken and lemon risotto - 200 calories.
Total consumed: 455 calories.
Treadmill - 422 calories.
Treadmill - 422 calories.
30 Day Shred level 2 - 117 calories.
Total burned - 961 calories.
Net: Minus 506 calories.
It was a good day food-wise I think. My mum was out for a few hours so I poured two yoghurts and a blended banana down the sink to make it look like I’d eaten more than I had which meant I was able to stay below 500 calories today. Yippee! However, I did want to go on the treadmill for a third time but instead got yelled into oblivion by my mum again: “You’re obsessed with exercise, you’re starving yourself, you’re lying to me about how much you’re eating, you’re losing weight too fast!” and my personal favourite: “You’re anorexic!”. So of course I started crying but apparently that only proved her point: “You’re emotionally unstable - you’re malnourished!”. So me bursting into tears is because I’m eating too little, not oh I don’t know, because you just shouted at me?
The end result obviously was that I wasn’t allowed to use my treadmill again. But I guess I still have a negative net amount of calories for today which is good so I shouldn’t be too upset. I’ve been doing everything I can to get back on my mum’s good side though: cleaning, washing up, taking out the rubbish, cooking for her and my brother, so hopefully she’ll let me alone for a while now.
At lunch my mum tried to make me eat a sausage roll and thankfully I said no. Do you know how many calories is in one of those things? Well now I do, 125. 125 calories - that’s more than was in my entire lunch. Just four of them would be equal to my target calorie intake for a day! And yet I saw my brother eat two or even three… Shudder.
The 30ds felt harder this attempt although it was my seventh day of level two - oh how time flies when Jillian Michaels is kicking your but! I think not eating very much today might have had something to do with it and the fact that I’d already been on the treadmill twice but I powered through and was super proud of myself for finishing.
Also,I think my body is adapting well to eating less. I know I’m not consuming very much at the moment (or at least, compared to what I used to) but I don’t get hungry so often and am satisfied with smaller portions. Let’s hope this becomes a habit!
My goal for this week is to lose a kilogram (2.2lbs) which would put me at 103.6lbs (47kg) although ideally I want to lose as much as I can before the holidays begin and I’m under my mum’s careful watch. I know I’ll see my weight loss grind to a halt or at least decline over the Christmas break. Oh well, it’s just two and a half weeks out of a whole lifetime, I’ll just have to suck it up.