Losin it in Paradise

Tonight at work we get a EMS call out for a code blue.  We are informed via the radio that the patient is a male in his early 60s and weighs in excess of 750 pounds.  The local fire department will be on hand to assist getting him to the hospital.

He arrives wrapped in a heavy duty fire department tarp laying on the floor of the ambulance because he will not fit on a stretcher.  CPR in progress.  With the help of 9 fire men we manage to move him to the “big boy” bed and continue with CPR.  We manage to revive him, intubate him and stablize him enough to transfer to our ICU.  Normally someone this sick is transfered to Oahu were we have specialists.  But he is too big for our air ambulance and too sick for the coast quard, so we must keep him.  He is also too big for our CT scanner.

I had to call the fire department back when it was time to move him to ICU as we were unable to push the bed.  Again our local boys came to the rescue…above and beyond….and helped us transfer him to the unit.

We needed four men to hold his pannas back (belly) using a sheet so that we could try and find his penis to put a catheter in him.  We did not find it but our urologist was able to put in a subra public line.  The smell was horrid.  His panna alone is the size of a grown man…..did I mention the smell?

This man is going to die….he will die tonight.  He has a son and family in the ICU waiting room crying and grieving.  They love him dearly, he will not live to see his grand child grow up or his youngest son marry…he will die tonight.  They want him cremated, we cannot..he is too big for our crematorium…

He will die tonight, and a family has lost a father and a grand father….

Because he weighs 750 pounds…excuse me while I go and throw away my stash of potato chips and text my son to tell him I love him…

Posted on February 16th, 2009 by islandgrl
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“Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm”…Winston Churchill

Ok, I had three days of complete and total excess…too much food, too much walking, too much shopping (as if) and too much….well lets just say too much….blush!

I had the best time away with DH in Oahu.  We talked, and walked and shopped.  We went to the Pro Ball block party, we went to the show..also saw Underworld 111 annie, and I loved it :)   Course I love anything to do with vampires and werewolves, so the lycans are right up my alley…..but my gawd the vampires were wimpy…never be scared of them again.

I am afraid to even step on the scale.  I was hoping all the walking I did would counter act the over indulgence of the food, but from the feel of my waist band…NOT

Lets just suffice to say, i did not live on salad or sugar free butterscotch puddings this weekend.

So today, no matter how hard it was, I jumped right back into my sensible eating plan….no more ribs and baked potatoes, no more steak and grilled shrimp in butter, no more chocolate caramels…..NO MORE…

And I must also get this butt moving on my runs again as well.  I haven’t run since Friday and I am feeling like a mushy blob.  Still suffering a bit with my achille’s tendon being really sore.  I am wearing a brace on it and that helps a bit.  I also found when I ran, it got better, so will see how it feels after my run tomorrow.

New schedule out and I am so sorry, but my boss is the worst damn schedule maker there is…she has me going 9 days in a row.   She has me teaching ACLS for two day shifts, then a 8 hour evening shift, three twelves, then a 16 hour shift, then two more 8s…..WTF  She is crazy, I am going to have a chat with her tomorrow cause that is ridiculous.  I am too fuckin old for this shit all the time.  I decided it was time for me to cut back a little and not do all these crazy hours and then she comes up with that damn schedule.  I am livid…..  grrrrrr  snarl

Almost, not quite, but almost put me in a bad mood, but after my nice weekend away, I am refusing to allow anything to fuck me up right now….

So hopefully Weds weigh will not be too horrid.  I have not gotten on my Wii Fit since I got back, so will do so tomorrow.  Hope my trainer is not too mean.  Tomorrow is my one precious day off now until February 23rd, so I had better enjoy it…WTF

Keep the fingers crossed for my weigh in…

Ciao….

Posted on February 10th, 2009 by islandgrl
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Well I am down 8 and hoping for 10 on my next weigh in….but the very best thing is that I am running again.  I managed four runs this week and no injuries :)   I have been doing some research on running.com and I have been pushing it and not listening to my body hence the injuries every time I run…so now I am going for endurance and distance rather than speed.  I cut my speed down 1 mph and increased my overall running time and I feel great.  No injuries and I can run longer without feeling like my lungs are coming out of my chest.  I am only running a mile a day but that is good and my goal is three miles so I am 1/3 of the way there and will be there within 6 weeks…

Diet wise I am doing great as well…..in fact now that I have really decreased the meat in my diet I am finding it hard to get 1200 calories in a day.  The other day I was off work so decided to cook for myself…now I hate to cook and find it easier to make a quick salad and have a boca burger or soup, but this night I wanted something different.  So off the store I go and picked up some zuccini, fresh mushrooms, fresh asparagus and spagetti squash and a small jar of Ragu spagetti sauce.  I came home and slice up a 1/4 cup of each (not the squash) and lightly saute it in Pam until done but not over done, and then I added 1/2 cup spagetti sauce and simmered.  Then I steamed the spagetti squash and after done, shredded 1 cup onto a place and poured my sauce over it…a total 100% meat free spagetti dinner.  And it was so damn delicious I could not believe it, and filling and totally satisfying.   After I was done I went on myfooddiary.com to record my meal and darn near dropped dead when it came back and registered a total of 87 calories for the entire meal.  I entered it twice to make sure and sure enough 87 calories……I had to add a yogurt and blueberries for dessert to my meal and still could not get up to 1200 for the day.  But it was wonderful and easy and something I am definitely going to make again.

I am going to spend next weekend in Oahu with my DH and I know that I will face challenges then.  Challenges like:  Outback, Red Lobster, Chili’s, Ruby Tuesdays and of course Papa Johns…even Wendys will be there to threaten me.   We have no brand name or big name resturants in Kauai except for McDonalds so just the thought of sitting down in Ruby Tuesdays makes my mouth water….  So I will really be facing a big deal.  I have already told myself that chances are that I will indulge, and that I will forgive myself and get right back at it and not look at it as a failure or a reason to throw it all away.  I am going to do my very best to not get too carried away and am going to stay 100% away from sugar, but my meat resolve will probably weaken for the weekend.

I am really looking forward to getting away.  I love Kauai but really have island fever right now and need to just get away.  Spend some time on another island which is 100% different than Kauai, almost like a totally different country.  Do some lounging at the pool, maybe a couple hours at a spa, and just some R&R at a 5* hotel…..awwwww…..

On that note, it is time to do a round and check on the chicklets….ciao!

Posted on January 31st, 2009 by islandgrl
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Well I finally am feeling better, and also had three nice days off.  I slept for most of Friday, but then had Sat & Sun to have some R&R and some fun with DH.

And the best part????   I did not totally blow my new eating plan even thou I had a wkend off and we went out to eat a couple times.  Usually weekends off with my DH are disasters for me, but not this weekend….yay!    I did have a small piece of pizza on Friday night because I was lazy and tired and did not want to cook or even throw a salad together.  It is the first fatty high calorie food I have had in a long time, and it also had meat on it and I have been really anti meat the past two weeks.   About two hours later, I truly regreted eating that pizza.  I thought I was dying from a heart attack.  OMG, I had such chest pain and thankfully I knew it was from the pizza and the fact that I cannot blech since my surgery so I knew I had a raging case of heartburn and indigestion.  But oh how it hurt.   No more fatty junk for this chickie.

And today I weighed in and I am offically 199 pounds, down 8 pounds….yay!   And when I did my Wii fit today, my trainer was very proud of my weight loss and so to please her I did an extra 15 minutes of aerobics.   And then I ran for 20 minutes before coming to work tonight, so got some decent exercise in today.  Tomorrow I am working a double shift, so no Wii and no run, so thought I would have a good day today.   I am off again on Weds and Thursday which is nice and then back to work a three day weekends.

I am flying to Oahu on the 6th to spend the weekend with DH.  We are renting a nice room in a 5* hotel and going to just have some quality time away with each other.  Going to take in some nice resturants and sights and just enjoy being off this island for awhile.  I confess to having a bad case of island fever right now.   Sometimes even paradise can seems confining after a while.

Nothing else new to report…so ciao for now

Posted on January 27th, 2009 by islandgrl
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I have some good days and then some bad days.  I just wish I understand or knew what causes the bad days.

I will be so good, sticking to my sensible eating and exercise and then for some reason…all reason disappears, and I start stuffing my face.  

I am probably now heavier than I have ever been, tipping the scales at a flabby and ugly 207.  Now some of that is water weight….how do I know that??  Well I just spent an hour with my doctor and he is worried about the swelling of my hands and ankles.  He feels I am having problems with fluid retention….sure I am…I am also addicted to fucking salt.  I never knew I was consuming that much salt, but now I am reading labels like crazy.  I use myfooddiary.com and boy have I been using the salt according the my diary.  Things that I didn’t even realize had salt in them, like my “harmless” chicken dogs that are suppose to be so much better than beef or pork…NOT….pure fricken salt!

He is also worried a bit about this damn rash I have on my chest and back that has been there for about 6 months, add that with sore and swollen hands, so he is making me do a fasting blood sugar exam in the morning to rule out rheumatoid arthritis or some other autoimmune disease.

I don’t really feel I have either, I am just fat, and unhealthy.

So tonight I am at work and not eating a fucking thing, just water for my blood work in the am.  And you know what???  I am doing it without any problems, so why do I usually have to stuff myself?

My appetite is just out of control.  I have noticed that I don’t even wait to eat until I am hungry.  I just stuff away, and keep stuffing way after I am “full”

Someone please buy me a bullet………

Posted on January 17th, 2009 by islandgrl
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