Thanks to all for your good wishes, concern and most important, your loving hearts. I am doing okay, saw my doctor and he put me on Wellbutrin 150mg a day. After 10 days he upped to 300mg a day. I cannot say I feel all the different right now, just calmer. I dont’ feel so angry or agitated. It will be a month to 6 weeks before I feel the full affect, so I must be patient althou that is definitely not one of my virtues 🙂
He also wants me to consider counselling, but I am a bit hesitant with that…not sure why…Well actually I am. I want to please, I also don’t like to admit any weakness, so I have a tendency to tell what people want to here, so even if I wasn’t getting any help from counseling I would still tell them I was and I would not be entirely open with my life. So what good would counselling do?
I have had a lot happen to me in the last ten years, and I have not really faced them or closed them. I lost the love my life when I found out he was not the person I thought he was; I left with only the cloths on my back and have never looked back; I lost my home and my business; I moved 3000 miles away to another country where I knew no one; I married on a rebound and am not overly happy in my marriage; my niece was killed in a car accident; and my mom died. Those are just some of the things that I have dealt with over the past couple years, and no sense rehashing them, nothing will change.
On a lighter note, my son was accepted to school and is going back to finish his chemical engineering. My DIL loves her new job, and they both seem much more settled and peaceful.
My DH and I are going on a vacation. Yes a honest to goodness vacation. Off the island and together!!! Wow, first vacation together in over 5 years. We are going to Las Vegas. We married there seven years ago and always said we would go back in seven, so we are. We leave on Weds and I am so excited. Work has been hell so this is a vacation worth waiting for.
We got a suite at the Venetian for a great price and are going to bath in the lap of luxury for a change. No work, no problems, nothing, just R&R for 8 days….sigh
My poor little cocker, Zachary, hurt his back again but I caught it this time before he became paralyzed. Got him to the vet at the first signs of neuro deficeits and got him on steroids right away and he is doing better but still has to be on cage rest. He hates that!
Nothing much else to report… hope all is well with everyone and I will let you know how Vegas was…
Posted on May 11th, 2009 by islandgrl
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