Losin it in Paradise

Well needless to say, I feel like a total beached whale, and look like one as well.

The diet has been the shits, or to quote my dear hubby, “i am on a c food diet, I c food and I eat it”

My cloths are tight, it is like sausage casing when I try them on.   I look in the mirror and fuck yeah the double chin is back, the rolls on the waist are there in all their glory and the hips!!  well lets not even talk about the hips..

WTF, I was doing so well and then BAM….

I have not exercised in weeks, not even running.  I am stuffing my face like tomorrow there is going to be a ban on food.

I went shopping yesterday to try and get some Christmas gifts and I saw a cute pair of capris so I tried them on and WTF……14s must have shrunk cause they sure did not fit me anymore.  And I used to wear a 12.

it is time to get this in control because no one can do it for me.  Why the obsession with food, I mean there are a lot more important things in life aren’t there?  How fuckin foolish is it to be a loser when it comes to diet.  I don’t understand how I can be so vain and let my body go to pot.  I am a fanatic with my skin, my hair has to look good, hide those wrinkles with botox, cover the grays, but let my ass look like a fricken overstuffed feather pillow…..one on each side.

I have been eating this week horrible.  It is stress and comfort eating and I know it but even knowing it is not stopping it.   I had to work 36 hours straight on the weekend cause my relief never showed up, she was sick again.  Then to cap it all of I had two pediatric codes….one was 3 months old and the other 17 days.  Neither of them made it

But even that is not what has put 25 fucking pounds back on this old body, it is ME ME ME that has done it.  Me and my love of food.  and the worst pair is half the time it doesn’t even taste as good as I think it should….

I need my damn jaw wired shut…..

Posted on December 11th, 2008 by islandgrl
Filed under: General