Losin it in Paradise

Well I am on my tenth night and only have 3 more to go.  Surprisingly I am making it.  I am back on 8 hour shifts so it feels fairly breezy right now.  The 12s over the weekend were hard especially after the bad trauma.

Our coworker has been extubated and is recovering from her injuries.  She is listed as stable to good.  She has a long road ahead of her as she now faces life as a young widow with three small children.  But she has a great family and a strong support system and I believe she will be fine. 

I want to thank all of you for your kind words and prayers and encouragement.  My job and the job of the nurses and doctors here at the hospital can be hard but it is harder when we have to deal with our “family”  Even thou she was a coworker she is family, we form a strong bond when we work together, often long hard hours, and we see sights that normal people are lucky to never have to see.  It can change a person, but it bonds us closer.   Can also give us a pretty twisted sense of humor at times :)   That is how we survive a lot of what we see and do.   I have a t shirt that reads, “ER, you watch it, I live it”   Only I live the dirty side, you watch the clean side.   Same with Gray’s Anatomy, I love that show, but damn it, where the hell are our Dr. McDreamy and McSteamy????    We get McGrouchy and McDroopy and McTightass.   Not fair if you ask me, and with the exception of my boss most of the other CEOs in the hospitals are like Nurse Rachet on ONE FLEW OVER THE COOKOO’S NEST.   Most nurses I know would gag at the thought of having sex with a doctor, like ewww!  

The ER docs are different thou, they are fun, wild sense of humor, but nothing to look at, just fun and crazy.  The love to play and party.  They live life in the fast lane, they know what I know…..BANG!    They surf and wind sail and scubba.  They live, but they ain’t no McDreamy.  But they have this sense of LIFE about them that you cannot help but like cannot help but be attracted to, like adrenaline.  They are like one of us, they drink their crystal light outta urinals and eat popcorn outta bedpans just like we do :)   They scratch their butts and tell war stories and see who can gross who out the most, did I mention we have a twisted sense of humor?  We are family, we cry together and we sometimes think we cannot do it for one more day, and some of us don’t come back, but most of us do…. for a while longer

So thank you for helping me to come back for a while longer.  Cause I am needed, and I need to be here.  I NEED to be here……..

Posted on January 29th, 2008 by islandgrl
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