Losin it in Paradise

0630am and I am up, when am I ever up at this time of the morning unless I am still at work?   Oh well, I just had enough sleep I guess cause I am wide awake and feel fine.  Not stressed or tired or anything, just woke up at 5am and could not go back to sleep so got up

I just finished 5 full days on WW and I feel great.  My first official weigh in is not until Monday but I am sure that I have lost as I feel it especially in my face and waist.  Also my 5 full days without coffee or soda!  Woohoo for me   I am not going to stay away from coffee forever like I am soda but wanted to just stay away from caffeine for a bit especially while trying to get off the soda.  Leaving the soda was easier than I thought it was going to be, and I have found all kinds of natural flavored drinks to drink that are good, and have also upped my water intake which is also a good thing.

It is still raining out but not a gully washer like my DH calls it :)  And it is so green and beautiful.  I am sure the tourists are not liking it as it is really ruining their beach time as most of the beaches are a disaster right now, but we are liking it as it had gotten dangerously dry.

Today is my first day of clear liquids and I also start my bowel prep so I am not going anywhere for my weekend off, don’t want to stray to far from the BR.  Especially since Kauai has a shortage of public facilities and a very long distance between the ones we do have.   And it is raining too much to want to do much anyways.  I do most of my Christmas shopping on line now, so I can do that from the comfort of my own home which is nice.

My kids are still hanging in, not sure where they are going yet.   They want to have this Christmas together and then they will take it from there.  They are still thinking about divorce but I don’t think they really know what they want.  My son cries at the thought of not coming home to his family or ever seeing my DIL again.  And she of course cries at the thought of not being with him, but sometimes the thought of being together is painful too.  My heart aches for them both.  One day at a time is what we are all doing now.

I think we will try and put up our lights this weekend.  I am not much in the Christmas spirit this year but will try to get there.  The kids were suppose to come to Kauai this year for Christmas so we could all be together, but with all that is happening in their lives that will not be happening now.   I am refusing to get down in the dumps, it is too hard and too dark down there, I much prefer to be up even if it is only up a bit.  At least it is not as dark.   I feel stronger if I can stay up a bit, so stay up I will…..she says with a brave smile on her face

Now I should go and plan my daily menu for today, let’s see….

chicken or beef broth?    lime or lemon jello?   decisions decisions

Ah shit I think I will just go back to bed and read

Posted on December 1st, 2007 by islandgrl
Filed under: General