Losin it in Paradise

I am leaving for Oahu in a couple minutes but just wanted to blog really quick before I did.

Yesterday was our 5th wedding anniversary and because we went out for supper over the weekend, it was nothing more than a sleep day for me as I worked the night before.   BUT my hubby surprised me.  When I woke up there was an artist stand and canvas and paints all set up in my computer room!  To say I was surprised would be an understatment.  I told my hubby how I used to paint years ago.  How I would win awards in school for my art, but that my ex had teased and brow beat me so bad about my painting that I just put it in the basement and never looked at it again.  And when I left, I left it as well.  Then about a year ago I painted a small little picture and gave it to my hubby.  I did it during a fun class I took at work.  He still has it in his office.  And then yesterday with the paints!  I was floored, and thrilled.  He said he thought it was time for me to start doing what I enjoyed doing in life.  And to just have fun with it.  And then joking said, “when you get really good, you can sell them and we can retire”

That ladies and gentlemen is why I stay with my hubby.  He is sexless, and unromantic.  He can be very thoughtless and at time I don’t exist for him, but then he will do something like this and I know he loves me to death.  After all he accepted me, baggage and all.  I just cannot help wishing that there were sparks, chemistry, but I will take the friendship and companionship anyday over some one who destroys who I am, who cheats on me all the time, who lies to me all the time, and who breaks me down and kills my heart.  I had that, lots of chemistry and he was the love of my life, but toxic thru and thru.  I am better off where I am right now.  It is hard to say why we settle, but I think we do it because we cannot stand to be broken anymore.  And I think I could have settled for worse,  I was lucky and settled for one of the good guys.

Well I am off to Oahu, will not be back on line for a couple days.  Have the dreaded presentation to do, and two blessed days alone in Oahu……..YIPPEE!

OMG, I just remembered, there is a Red Lobster in Oahu……God give me strength.

ciao

Posted on July 18th, 2007 by islandgrl
Filed under: General