Work work and more work.
Quess what? Yes I am at work again. Doing another 16 hour shift. It is 0245am and I am beat and still have another 4 hours to go 
My diet has gone to hell in a hand basket. I cannot seem to motivate myself at all. And exercise, what fookin exercise? I think walking all night at work is enough. Course I did work in the yard, weeding and mowing yesterday before work! Does that count? And then all the housework I did on my one day off on Tuesday, and the painting with the house renovation we are doing. Does that count? Who care!
Some times I eat good and other times I eat bad. I had a hamburger, grilled with cheese and a bun and onion on Tuesday, did not have my NS. Today I stuck with my NS…and some fruit and of course my diet pepsi.
I am really rethinking my NS. It is costing me almost 300 a month. That is a lot of money, especially when I don’t stick to it the way I should. What really makes me angry at myself is when I see other doing it and the weight is falling off and they are being so good and I am being so bad. Am I doomed to fat all my life because my willpower is weak and I am weak, and I like fatty foods and junk food. On the other hand I love the ease of NS. Just pop in the micowave and eat. It is not cooking (I hate cooking) and I can take to work and eat any time which is good cause I usually have to eat on the run. But maybe LEan Cuisine or Heath Smart would work the same…I dunno what to do
But my pager is ringing so I am needed again….so I will sign off for today..still fat….still depressed…..sigh!
Posted on May 31st, 2007 by islandgrl
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